Question #1236: mix

[Ask Satya Operator]

I've been having affairs for a short time with a mixed girl. I know it's not okay and I should quit, but how do I explain to her that it's unhealthy, now that I gave her expectations, without telling her it's about Zevism?

One side of me though wants to keep damaging my Soul because she is the only person available for affection and intimacy for me, and she's the only one emotionally available for me, and I've lacked these for a long time that I'm currently starved. My affective battery is 0 and she recharges me, so to say.
She's taught me some things and there are also social privileges for a relationship.


Is it not a good enough reason to continue?

 

[Henu the Great]

You need to decide between the truth of the matter (you damage both of you and you know it is wrong) and temporary social standing and other social 'benefits' that are not really healthy benefits because you are in a wrong kind of relationship.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

You will find somebody else right for you, and she will find somebody else right for her. You are not right for each other.

What you are describing is not anything good for you. It really sounds very similar to a drug addiction where the person feels drawn to doing the harmful action only because of the damage that has been done by that action, then more damage is done and the person goes to do it again. This pattern is the opposite of life and you must recognize this. The only way for you to actually heal is by doing the meditation, and by putting direct and purposeful work into healing yourself and improving your life.