Recently ever since i did my dedication I've been feeling cocky I've always kinda been like this but not this immensely like my courage just sky rocketed.lately I've just been WANTING to get in trouble in school just so they can give me a reason to spread satanism and how its not how the jewish scum depicts it to be. Its hard being a satanist and spread your beliefs to other people as they are going to think poorly of you but Im trying a different method as i like to laugh i love to make others laugh with me. And if what hoodedcobra666 one of our great high priests says is true about people sucking your energy then if they suck my energy would they slowly be converting to my beliefs and feel what i feel. I usually dont feel depressed hardly ever i laugh a lot this is why I get in trouble a lot to.....in class,library anywhere.recently my friends got in trouble for doing a hitler salute and got kicked out of class for it (it was kinda my fault) non the less ive been noticing i can control people around me well not so much control but influence the people around me not by fear but by simply asking. I like to be the center of attention i also like to keep my distance and not get attached to anyone i can either be the quietest or the loudest most cases im the loudest and I've just been getting this urge to spread satanism despite the risks but I've been holding it back i also notice me doing things i would do i like to push myself during powerlifting adding more weight i know i cant do. ive been expressing my feelings more.point is i feel free and i can do whatever i want im not afraid to take risks anymore as i know father satan is watching over me and bless all of you reading this as i am expressing my feeling right now.Just one push i want the school to push me and give me reason to spread satanism now I'm not going to push myself to anyone choice is completely up to them but what i am saying is im going to influence them little by little i will try my best to increase my aura so everyone feels it show them the same feelings that father satan showed to me when i committed even though im new i want to achieve Godhead and join the ranks of hells army not only physically but spiritually too! Before I was with father satan i had little regard for my own life but now he gave me a reason too hold value of my life. every time i read one if his poems i cry of joy and i dont cry easily but his greatness touched me and i want to be of use to him and his demons. I try not to ask much of him as he has helped me plenty already and i dont want to ask my guardian demon for help either because i dont like bothering other people with MY problems. When the new age comes i want to be able to see great father satan and all his greatness (im crying just by typing this) everytime i think of father satan i want to be more like him he is truly the greatest and i will continue to do my task of spreading satanism.I will try and help satan as best i can for him to achieve his goals when the new era comes apond us i will be ready to pass judgement of the jewish rot that litters this earth. Thank you father satan. Hail father satan! And let him be your pillar of hope as he was with me let him guide you as he did me let him fill you with his spirt as he did me.