Acolyte Of Pan 666
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On the one hand I am full of awe, fear(respectful fear), fascination and reverence for Nature. Its beauty and complexity is unfathomable. Earlier I played a mental vision in my head of it all. Birth, death, disease, passion, pain, the eternal circle of life, death, rebirth. There is a sense of majesty and a “fear of God”, not the biblical crap, but actual respect for this Power, a bewilderement towards it.
In honour of this I renamed myself as the Acolyte of Pan. A student and follower of Nature and its Architect, Zeus/Pan.
And yet, despite all this and my strong dedicated to realism andy devoted study of nature and its laws, I can’t quite bring myself to be at peace with the sheer brutality of it all.
The ones who have it the worst are the higher order animals. They have basically all the sufferings of humans without the ability to transcend it all. They’re stuck here having to suffer for all eternity until their soul group goes extinct.
Then there’s disease, decay, parasites, and all such things. Just horrible. The passing of time which eats everything is dreadful to meditate on.
I’ve had tooth problems and had to go to the dentist quite a few times, and i thought to myself “what if it was 200 years ago before all this wonderful technology”, having read how dental care was in the past, it’s quite the nightmare.
Even then I’ve had it easy, really easy. I’ve read and watched how fucked up some people are when they’re born. Those familiar with this topic will know what i mean. Those who aren’t, don’t look further into it if you want to keep any semblance of positive feelings towards life and nature.
It’s easy to struggle and strive against nature when nature has given you an easy time. Even if you’re poor if you have a good body and mind that’s worth more than a million dollars.
Nature’s brutality seems to exceed the need for just providing a good environment for “struggle”. It doesn’t fell right to me. I’ve meditated towards Lord Zeus and asked Him for guidance on how I should approach all this. I felt his Warmth and Love, I almost cried. I thought it would be could to post this here and get other perspectives on this.
Why was Nature designed to be this excessively brutal?
In honour of this I renamed myself as the Acolyte of Pan. A student and follower of Nature and its Architect, Zeus/Pan.
And yet, despite all this and my strong dedicated to realism andy devoted study of nature and its laws, I can’t quite bring myself to be at peace with the sheer brutality of it all.
The ones who have it the worst are the higher order animals. They have basically all the sufferings of humans without the ability to transcend it all. They’re stuck here having to suffer for all eternity until their soul group goes extinct.
Then there’s disease, decay, parasites, and all such things. Just horrible. The passing of time which eats everything is dreadful to meditate on.
I’ve had tooth problems and had to go to the dentist quite a few times, and i thought to myself “what if it was 200 years ago before all this wonderful technology”, having read how dental care was in the past, it’s quite the nightmare.
Even then I’ve had it easy, really easy. I’ve read and watched how fucked up some people are when they’re born. Those familiar with this topic will know what i mean. Those who aren’t, don’t look further into it if you want to keep any semblance of positive feelings towards life and nature.
It’s easy to struggle and strive against nature when nature has given you an easy time. Even if you’re poor if you have a good body and mind that’s worth more than a million dollars.
Nature’s brutality seems to exceed the need for just providing a good environment for “struggle”. It doesn’t fell right to me. I’ve meditated towards Lord Zeus and asked Him for guidance on how I should approach all this. I felt his Warmth and Love, I almost cried. I thought it would be could to post this here and get other perspectives on this.
Why was Nature designed to be this excessively brutal?
