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[Dessa Tucuru]

ok so i have a pretty big problem. i've been into satanism for about 2 yrs now. i know my inner Demon, and  i try to meditate. But lately, i've had little power and have been feeling very weak. i haven't trained in a while now (like meditating and working on my energys and exercising) though i wanted to. i guess it might be because i am lazy lately, but that is not like me. i also have 19 red and black plastic bracelets that i wear and i have noticed that when they separate colours (on there own) that i am most weak. is this cooncidence? what should i do? oh and i haven't mentioned this yet but i'm growing up in an xian house hold and my mother and father are religous fanatics. they make me go to church too, and when i go, i feel this hatred. and another thing is that i'm not allowed on the computer at home so i cant' study these things or go on the JOS website. the only time i can is at my sisters and thats were i am now, but she lives an hour away so i can't see her much. please someone help me or give me some advice!!

 

[doom1n1gloom]

Ive had alot of periods like this: Its almost like a loss of passion or mental fatigue, or sometimes even physical illnesses. Im not sure about the relevance of your bracelets but I know black, red and blue are Satan's colours.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Dessa Tucuru <dessatucuru@... wrote:

ok so i have a pretty big problem. i've been into satanism for about 2 yrs now. i know my inner Demon, and  i try to meditate. But lately, i've had little power and have been feeling very weak. i haven't trained in a while now (like meditating and working on my energys and exercising) though i wanted to. i guess it might be because i am lazy lately, but that is not like me. i also have 19 red and black plastic bracelets that i wear and i have noticed that when they separate colours (on there own) that i am most weak. is this cooncidence? what should i do? oh and i haven't mentioned this yet but i'm growing up in an xian house hold and my mother and father are religous fanatics. they make me go to church too, and when i go, i feel this hatred. and another thing is that i'm not allowed on the computer at home so i cant' study these things or go on the JOS website. the only time i can is at my sisters and thats were i am now, but she lives an hour away so
i can't see her much. please someone help me or give me some advice!!

 

[Dessa Tucuru]

oh, alright, thanks

From: doom1n1gloom <doom1n1gloom@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, July 10, 2009 7:30:31 PM
Subject: [Teens4Satan] (unknown)

Ive had alot of periods like this: Its almost like a loss of passion or mental fatigue, or sometimes even physical illnesses. Im not sure about the relevance of your bracelets but I know black, red and blue are Satan's colours.

--- In Teens4Satan@ yahoogroups. com, Dessa Tucuru <dessatucuru@ ... wrote:

ok so i have a pretty big problem. i've been into satanism for about 2 yrs now. i know my inner Demon, and  i try to meditate. But lately, i've had little power and have been feeling very weak. i haven't trained in a while now (like meditating and working on my energys and exercising) though i wanted to. i guess it might be because i am lazy lately, but that is not like me. i also have 19 red and black plastic bracelets that i wear and i have noticed that when they separate colours (on there own) that i am most weak. is this cooncidence? what should i do? oh and i haven't mentioned this yet but i'm growing up in an xian house hold and my mother and father are religous fanatics. they make me go to church too, and when i go, i feel this hatred. and another thing is that i'm not allowed on the computer at home so i cant' study these things or go on the JOS website. the only time i can is at my sisters and thats were i am now, but she lives an hour away so
i can't see her much. please someone help me or give me some advice!!