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[bwc4lyf2012]

* HELP ME  * Hi there, Im Lauren, I'm not exactly fully sure where to start. Erm;3. I got into laVeyan satanism a year or so ago. However the hoax of christianity had me scared out of my mind. I got into it tho, deeply. I renounced satanism and all connections with satan in the name of the nazerine one day however. A Christian indevidual asked me to pray for angels to watch over me ext:. I felt basically a sick, Empty. Feeling. I hated it. I woke up, Went to school the next morning and was diffrent. More emotional. like my depression symptoms had suddenly came back to me. It was odd. I of course, wasn't able to go thru the day without attempting to communicate or unrenounce satan. Not sure how to word it. and i did that 3 more times.... And i love, LOVE Satan. Being spirtually involved with Father was the most Morally and Spirtually fufilling feeling ever. But i't seems i have not been forgiven. I'm not sure, if this is making anysence. but i hate it. Seriously hate it. like my life's a fuckign mess and all i want, like out of anything.  is well, i dont know. My Guardian demon , Asmodeous...  Well , The demon i have a good, Friendly relationship, Seems to have slipped me aswell.Certian nights when ill be up and depressed sometimes, i can feel him there. Comfort ;3 . I'm still not sure if this is making any sence. but i don't know what to do :/  As much as im like sure satan has like..Left me. I never even get close to blaspheme agaisnt him. I know the truth. I speak the truth to all.   I can't even express how many times i've gotten into a deep explaination of the hoax of christianity. My DREAM is to one day be a well know High preistess in the Spirtual satanic world. That hasn't changed. By my relationship with Father has. I don't know how to fix it.:/ Lol, that sounds stupid. But what do i do? 

 

[Lexa Osterreich]

Have you stopped meditating or meditated before? There are enemy attacks I'm sure you know about, and regardlesss of what you believe can cause absolute shit if your not protected the right way. Father wants us to be individuals and protect ourselves. he would NEVER "leave" one of is people, fuck he fought and won a war for thousands of years for us! No worries there, the gods are still there for you but won't do all the work for you! find your inner strength and will, of course it's there! Do banishing rituals ect.... don't make the same mistake twice and if you really did pray for those sick bastards to watch over... why the fuck... -_-........ they probably would be pretty disappointed. but if you pick yourself up and learn and get rid of the attack I'm sure theylll help. you help yourself they help you try to talk to them.. too..
HAIL SATAN

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* HELP ME *

Hi there, Im Lauren,

I'm not exactly fully sure where to start.

Erm;3. I got into laVeyan satanism a year or so ago. However the hoax of
christianity had me scared out of my mind. I got into it tho, deeply. I
renounced satanism and all connections with satan in the name of the
nazerine one day however. A Christian indevidual asked me to pray for
angels to watch over me ext:. I felt basically a sick, Empty. Feeling. I
hated it. I woke up, Went to school the next morning and was diffrent.
More emotional. like my depression symptoms had suddenly came back to
me. It was odd. I of course, wasn't able to go thru the day without
attempting to communicate or unrenounce satan. Not sure how to word it.
and i did that 3 more times.... And i love, LOVE Satan. Being spirtually
involved with Father was the most Morally and Spirtually fufilling
feeling ever. But i't seems i have not been forgiven. I'm not sure, if
this is making anysence. but i hate it. Seriously hate it. like my
life's a fuckign mess and all i want, like out of anything. is well, i
dont know. My Guardian demon , Asmodeous... Well , The demon i have a
good, Friendly relationship, Seems to have slipped me aswell.Certian
nights when ill be up and depressed sometimes, i can feel him there.
Comfort ;3 . I'm still not sure if this is making any sence.

but i don't know what to do :/

As much as im like sure satan has like..Left me. I never even get close
to blaspheme agaisnt him.

I know the truth. I speak the truth to all. I can't even express how
many times i've gotten into a deep explaination of the hoax of
christianity.

My DREAM is to one day be a well know High preistess in the Spirtual
satanic world.

That hasn't changed. By my relationship with Father has.

I don't know how to fix it.:/ Lol, that sounds stupid.

But what do i do?