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[Dalovey_wolf]

I am starting to think I am a being fucked with. That this thing between brothers and sisters vs snowmage aka liva is my fault. With that have come bad thought. I have been rethinking who I am. I don't feel as happy as I was. As proud of my thick body and looks and style. I keep rethinking my path and then I know I am being silly because I don't know what to think anymore. I feel lose and kinda alone. It's sad and odd because I have yet to feel like this for a very long time. I am also having problems with love I don't know if I can feel the other love you don't have for family by blood. I found a man I might like and he is christian. I know I am very good looking I get it alot. The thing is it's like a voice in the back of my head. You need to lose some lbs and your skin needs work and what not. Something is wrong with me could I have a vampire? I am not sure what to do at the moment I even had an episode with a voice in my head a few nights ago telling my Satan didn't love me and that I was a lieing to myself. I have been a very different girl growing up and sad and along. I feel like a control had taken me. Also my mother used me in dn enegy working class and I felt so violated. Energy I didn't like was forced into my body. Their 'healing' was almost pain I hated it I said I didn't like it and even tries to get up I felt like my life energy was being raped if you can understand. I was so upset I was chanting father satan over and over in my head. I tried not to cry I was having flashes of things that happen with the enemy as a child! She part of an African faith and think Jesus is way important. I was trying to 'watch' them with my eyes close and felt someone pass by my head like a third person in the room. I don't know what happen maybe that work out was what did this too me. I tried not to cry I even hide my fear well I mean it's easy to learn of you grow up as different as I was. It seams that in writing this I learned many things. The first real bad attack I had at this hotel was talking to LIVA and the second was being so much of an idiot as to let my mother word on my energy. I hated it. Now I just need help! I don't like asking for help but I know need it.
Thank you
hail Satan

 

[C Y]

Hi Friend,

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling bad and guilty. It's not your fault that all this happened. Do not blame yourself. Seriously.
If you feel guilt and sadness, yes, it is natural, but it is the enemy telling and egging you on about your looks, your past, your personality. It could also be your own fears and ego amplified during this difficult time.

You are strong, Father Satan CHOSE you to come to Him, He loves you, He cares about you! =)
That confidence and self-love that you have about your looks, your personality? It's still there. You just have to dig it out underneath, and bring back out to shine again.

You are beautiful, you are strong. Tell yourself, in the mirror, throughout the day.
Self-esteem is important in Satanism. We must learn to have a strong sense of self, that way the enemy and other xians will not bring us down or make us doubt our choices, which they will. They will pick up on our insecurities and turn it against us, mentally, spiritually, physically. It's happened to me, until I got stronger. Now the enemy finds other things to pick on, but they don't bother me as much.

Does your mother know that you are a Satanist? That filthy, disgusting, little worm of a 'holy spirit' sometimes tells xians and lets them know when someone is 'different' from them, and that is when xians start harassing you. It's happened to me, even when I was an xian, other xians knew that I was not sheep like them. Even if you don't say anything about being a Satanist, xians still like to harass people, in any way they can.

It's your mum, I know, but even blood turns on one another. This is total fucking war, and households mixed with xians and Satanism is never peaceful.
Clean your aura of the filth, do a daily protection meditation daily, breathe in white light throughout the day. Do not let your mum take you for a victim again. You may have to stand up to her shit, face to face, sooner or later. Do not take her shit, or the attacks will escalate.

Keep strong sister, Father Satan and the Gods are looking out for you.
But you have to learn to fight on your own against the enemy. You have it in you; we all do.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Dalovey_wolf" <dharris791@... wrote:

I am starting to think I am a being fucked with. That this thing between brothers and sisters vs snowmage aka liva is my fault. With that have come bad thought. I have been rethinking who I am. I don't feel as happy as I was. As proud of my thick body and looks and style. I keep rethinking my path and then I know I am being silly because I don't know what to think anymore. I feel lose and kinda alone. It's sad and odd because I have yet to feel like this for a very long time. I am also having problems with love I don't know if I can feel the other love you don't have for family by blood. I found a man I might like and he is christian. I know I am very good looking I get it alot. The thing is it's like a voice in the back of my head. You need to lose some lbs and your skin needs work and what not. Something is wrong with me could I have a vampire? I am not sure what to do at the moment I even had an episode with a voice in my head a few nights ago telling my Satan didn't love me and that I was a lieing to myself. I have been a very different girl growing up and sad and along. I feel like a control had taken me. Also my mother used me in dn enegy working class and I felt so violated. Energy I didn't like was forced into my body. Their 'healing' was almost pain I hated it I said I didn't like it and even tries to get up I felt like my life energy was being raped if you can understand. I was so upset I was chanting father satan over and over in my head. I tried not to cry I was having flashes of things that happen with the enemy as a child! She part of an African faith and think Jesus is way important. I was trying to 'watch' them with my eyes close and felt someone pass by my head like a third person in the room. I don't know what happen maybe that work out was what did this too me. I tried not to cry I even hide my fear well I mean it's easy to learn of you grow up as different as I was. It seams that in writing this I learned many things. The first real bad attack I had at this hotel was talking to LIVA and the second was being so much of an idiot as to let my mother word on my energy. I hated it. Now I just need help! I don't like asking for help but I know need it.
Thank you
hail Satan

 

[Dalovey_wolf]

Thank you my friend

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "C Y" <unseeliegirl@... wrote:


Hi Friend,

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling bad and guilty. It's not your fault that all this happened. Do not blame yourself. Seriously.
If you feel guilt and sadness, yes, it is natural, but it is the enemy telling and egging you on about your looks, your past, your personality. It could also be your own fears and ego amplified during this difficult time.

You are strong, Father Satan CHOSE you to come to Him, He loves you, He cares about you! =)
That confidence and self-love that you have about your looks, your personality? It's still there. You just have to dig it out underneath, and bring back out to shine again.

You are beautiful, you are strong. Tell yourself, in the mirror, throughout the day.
Self-esteem is important in Satanism. We must learn to have a strong sense of self, that way the enemy and other xians will not bring us down or make us doubt our choices, which they will. They will pick up on our insecurities and turn it against us, mentally, spiritually, physically. It's happened to me, until I got stronger. Now the enemy finds other things to pick on, but they don't bother me as much.

Does your mother know that you are a Satanist? That filthy, disgusting, little worm of a 'holy spirit' sometimes tells xians and lets them know when someone is 'different' from them, and that is when xians start harassing you. It's happened to me, even when I was an xian, other xians knew that I was not sheep like them. Even if you don't say anything about being a Satanist, xians still like to harass people, in any way they can.

It's your mum, I know, but even blood turns on one another. This is total fucking war, and households mixed with xians and Satanism is never peaceful.
Clean your aura of the filth, do a daily protection meditation daily, breathe in white light throughout the day. Do not let your mum take you for a victim again. You may have to stand up to her shit, face to face, sooner or later. Do not take her shit, or the attacks will escalate.

Keep strong sister, Father Satan and the Gods are looking out for you.
But you have to learn to fight on your own against the enemy. You have it in you; we all do.

Hail Satan!



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Dalovey_wolf" <dharris791@ wrote:

I am starting to think I am a being fucked with. That this thing between brothers and sisters vs snowmage aka liva is my fault. With that have come bad thought. I have been rethinking who I am. I don't feel as happy as I was. As proud of my thick body and looks and style. I keep rethinking my path and then I know I am being silly because I don't know what to think anymore. I feel lose and kinda alone. It's sad and odd because I have yet to feel like this for a very long time. I am also having problems with love I don't know if I can feel the other love you don't have for family by blood. I found a man I might like and he is christian. I know I am very good looking I get it alot. The thing is it's like a voice in the back of my head. You need to lose some lbs and your skin needs work and what not. Something is wrong with me could I have a vampire? I am not sure what to do at the moment I even had an episode with a voice in my head a few nights ago telling my Satan didn't love me and that I was a lieing to myself. I have been a very different girl growing up and sad and along. I feel like a control had taken me. Also my mother used me in dn enegy working class and I felt so violated. Energy I didn't like was forced into my body. Their 'healing' was almost pain I hated it I said I didn't like it and even tries to get up I felt like my life energy was being raped if you can understand. I was so upset I was chanting father satan over and over in my head. I tried not to cry I was having flashes of things that happen with the enemy as a child! She part of an African faith and think Jesus is way important. I was trying to 'watch' them with my eyes close and felt someone pass by my head like a third person in the room. I don't know what happen maybe that work out was what did this too me. I tried not to cry I even hide my fear well I mean it's easy to learn of you grow up as different as I was. It seams that in writing this I learned many things. The first real bad attack I had at this hotel was talking to LIVA and the second was being so much of an idiot as to let my mother word on my energy. I hated it. Now I just need help! I don't like asking for help but I know need it.
Thank you
hail Satan