underworld894
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This may get long and drawn out, I have read some stories and concerns of others new here also so I hope sharing this might help others. If you care to read on I suggest getting a hot cup of something soothing and relax.
I 'found' the Joy of Satan website on December 23rd, 2 days ago and it really came as little suprise in one way and a big confirmation followed by overwhelming emotion on a level I cannot put into words. Conveying through text the feeling of finding the infomation from others I have searched for all my life and the sudden release of years of fear, hope, wonder and longing in my soul is impossible.
First came astonishment at the infomation and the connecting dots for me. Second was a visit from someone who felt very familiar but was suddenly very strong along with a semi vision of him.
I am still not sure if it was Satan himself or one of my gaurdians.
I experienced peace, a sense of safety, of finding home, sexual energy and extreme spiritual elation..in a nutshell really fucking good. I felt a lot of guilt come up in me looking back at the path I have taken to get here I have insulted Him and his Demons many times without realising it. But I kept searching because nothing ever felt right, a constant nagging feeling in me I was so close but just did not have the infomation I needed. I knew something was wrong with the way the world is, with people, a dark cloud over life, over me over everyone.
I began feeling sympathetic to these entities others fear to the point of almost snarling at the TV when I would see someone on a show trying to cast out so called demons or make fun of Satan. I still had the image of him as a scary horned beast and even painted him that way once. The painting upset me and I turned it round to the wall. I have had the sense of someone powerfull in my life saving my ass over and over since I was a child. Only 2 days ago did it all finally click and for the past 2 days I have read and read and read... and cried, and laughed, and cursed and gone through every emotion. And visions... I did not sleep all night xmas eve... I had a presence with me comeforting me.
I saw a brief image in my mind of a man well built, pale skin, blonde hair half kneeling behind me in a black robe with royal blue the colour of the peacocks feathers and red like triming around the robe, I cannot quite see his face I think his hair may be shoulder length not very long I cannot see his eyes he was naked beneath his robe there seemed to be a landscape behind him of some kind. I felt a very strong atraction to him aswell as a lot of comefort and safety. I do not know if it was Satan or another demon I would like to find out. There was nothing scary or negative about it whatsoever.
The events in my life have always been leading me here. I have gone through xianity as a child, ditched that then it was wicca which I felt was very empty it did help me train some of my senses and taught me a lot of helpfull things and I did make friends and discover the spirit world within nature and helped me in other ways.
But it was so white and fluffy and unbalanced. Then I found Lavey and that showed me more of the picture but it was still missing spirit. Before I tell you where I went next let me add, I have been very interested in and seen MANY Ufo's since I was 5 years old. My grandmother saw an alien in the 60's and my mother saw the ship 6 minutes away from a car window.
My grandmother saw other ufo's and was visited at night by the creatures. I saw a ufo my first over our front porch as a child with my grandma and mother. My grandparents heard the ship pass over one night that crashed in Kangaroo Valley in NSW Australia... later covered up. My mother heard the apollo astronaughts report a sighting in space over the radio and strange music which was cut off. I saw more ufo's as I got older and felt very frightening sensations and presences at night. To the point I would run from my room screaming with the sense an attack or abduction was iminent.
But they could never manifest or touch me. Someone was protecting me all that time and I feel so ungratefull for not even realising it.
I have seen ghosts, I have done the whole goth in the cemetary stage... taking pictures falling for the demonic possesion BS. But my mind would never rest I knew big things were missing.. I had believed all along aliens visted earth and made us genetically since I was a KID. I was fascinated by the pyramids myseteries of the ancients etc. mythology beasts that looked part human etc.
I believed that religion was alien made... and read about wars between the gods over us.
So next stop was the TOV... Temple of The Vampire. For those not familiar with them... They claim to be the ancient gods... the aliens that vampirise humans and that they are looking for their own kind amongst us and if you join there they manipuate you into believeing you are one of them even though they tell you to believe nothing. I dated another member there... They infiltrate the COS. I felt very afraid and in danger there, I experience a lot of misfortune, emotional turmoil, sleep paralysis I performed their comunions and was vampirised energetically. They feed off lifeforce and hate humans... guess who... the greys again. When I left my ex and the TOV I was terrified they would get me... and could share this fear with noone.
I still felt a presence and I now know it was Satan and his demons who saved me from a man who was insane and I now know may have killed me in time, and a bunch of emotionless vampires. I know they all tried to destroy me with black magic and they failed. Satan dragged me through it all kicking and screaming and he is still actually here. I just did not know it at the time. That speaks volumes of who Satan really is.....Why he would care about me after all this I still don't understand.
I left the city for a life closer to nature with animals around me, plants and beauty. It has been hard, financially hard. My mental health has suffered but I feel now I can finally let it all out and start to heal. It will not happen overnight.
In the past month leading to this point now I lost 2 loves, my dear cat to a snake bite and my old dog to basically old age health related problems. I was distraught. A man who lives nearby offered me one day out of the blue a pair of peafowl, peacock and peahen. I did not know at the time how significant that was. I spent weeks building a pen for them and then started on a yard with a garden. I have many beautufull birds and parrots, 2 small horses dogs. The same man who gave me the peacocks also offered me a kitten. The same day he gave me the kitten not an hour before he showed up with the offer I said to my mother, I would like to find another cat. Then as if by magic I was greeted by a lively kitten who took to me imediately. He has a personality that reminded me of a garden fairy I called him Oberon.
2 doors down from where i live is a jehovas witness church the kingdom hall. I get a great sense of something wrong and rotten from the place and at night the fencline closest to them gets a funny vibe, I do not like going down there in the dark I dont feel safe. I feel the presence of greys.
After getting the peacock I felt worse energy, as if I am under survalence or attack. I have seen black ball shaped masses of black pass by my window at night and a feeling of being watched. The other night the peacock cried out as I felt something around that was not friendly I think it was a warning cry.
The Jehovas come here when I am not home and harrass my mother with their garbage. They even came into my work and harrassed me. Of course I could not be impolite at work because my boss was right there and they were 2 of her favourite customers!
But now, I feel safe. The feeling of safety came over me very quickly the more I opened myself up to Satan and with the final switch clicking to the on position I felt heat and energy rise and I knew... I just knew and I had a feeling I cannot describe. Absolute trust and peace and love. Very deep love. But before when I was reading the infomation on the jos website and got to the bits about the aliens I felt I was being watched, felt fear and felt they were trying to stop me. I kept reading...
I have always had a darker personality than most people, I find beauty and peace in things that others fear or don't like. I would not say I am typically gothic because I do not like labels. But it would describe my taste in asthetics, music etc. Not dark as in evil, cold and frightening dark as in finding comefort in the shade on a hot busy day, in shades and colours that are less in your face. Music that is heavy and deep. Or not of the kind you would hear on the radio. I have very different opinions and likes to most people. I like the dark as it reminds me of things that are hidden and not in plain sight. It is just me, suits me, its where I feel comefortable. Some would describe me as eccentric. I don't care I wear so and believe what I like, I feel it is my right and I follow my own ideas.
That is my story anyhow. I know not everyone will understand or have had the same feelings as me. Some of you who have been influenced by the evil ones agenda will have fear still that is from a lifetime of programming. It is a big thing to fight through. You are already very brave and strong for getting this far. It gets easier. The enemy wants you to fear this its how they keep people from Satan. Once you have seen them for what they really are though that fear just dissapears. They no longer have any power over you. They are experts at mind control. Most people will never break free of it.
This is the first time I have had the alien side of it fully explained and I know it is true because it matches up to what I have experienced and researched. It is joining the dots. I have had many spiritual experiences already in my life with chakras and kundilini and so forth so it was a matter of filling the gaps and someone handing me the rest of the infomation for my mind to suddenly see it all.
I have had help from healers over the years with my chakras and problems that came up. Now the energy I have raised as far as my throat. I am now having to face problems at this point and will be seeking help with this. Life is not a box of chocolates. But having powerfull friends and allies with the knowledge to get you through it and who actually care about YOU is a big help. I would never want to go it alone.
The best part right now is I know, I know deep down that if I ever run into one of those little big eyed grey bastards again trying to get inside my mind... when they do that you feel like you are being split in half, it hurts. If I ever sense them again I know who I will be calling to and I can just imagine those little creatures shitting themselves. I won't take their crap ever again.
To be finally able to open up and talk about this knowing I am not crazy knowing others here will know and understand. After years of living in fear, wondering what these things were, and realised what they are what they are here for, doing etc knowing they are as real as the keyboard I am typing on now, knowing and seeing them in my mind everytime I hear mention of religion or walk past a church etc having dreams of being taken on ships etc at night seeing mass groups of people being shuffled onto ships like cattle... and looking around at everyone I know and suffering through this going without sleep many nights out of fear or because I was so wound up about all this my mind would not stop thinking. And I can't tell ANYONE. Why am I so tired everyday, fucking up at work, smoking too much, going through 5 jars of coffee a week so I dont sleep, suffering panic attacks, seeing dark masses of things I dont know what they are seeing shadows in my house, I was pushed into a brick pillar by a bastard I couldnt see and laughed at in my own home. Does anyone know what this does to a person? and WHY ME? This has driven me insane.
I have so much I know about this and I have had it all kept to myself. I cannot go out into my little comunity with this knowing in my head everyday and act like everything is fine. It is not fucking fine. And the kicker is THEY KNOW you can't tell anyone THEY KNOW people will not get it and think I am nuts or just ignore it and stay in their trances. People you love... kids who will never even get a chance. Women in islamic countries being mutilated and beaten and killed. Because of these bastards.
I think it is because I know... as if a glitch appeared on a screen out there somewhere that someone woke up from the matrix... they knew I couldnt be fooled and would fight back. I think that is 'why me' and 'why' lots of other people too. People who wake up from the 'dream' the trance and start looking for the truth and have enough guts to fight back for it. Maybe I am more of a threat to them than they i ever knew.
Once you are awake... wide awake it all becomes so obvious and so suddenly obvious and visible it is scary it scares you that everyone around you cannot see it. I have over 50 pictures of ufo's in paintings from all of history really obvious ones not vague... could be interpreted as something else... really obvious. I have shown them to people and get a 'meh so what' kind of reaction. I mean WTF!!??? I know now why they don't see it or don't care.
I read the story of fatima go read it on the JOS website if you havnt already. About the kids who see the so called virgin mary in the sky it is horrifying.
Anyway I wish you well, all of you stay strong safe and healthy.
HAIL SATAN!
I 'found' the Joy of Satan website on December 23rd, 2 days ago and it really came as little suprise in one way and a big confirmation followed by overwhelming emotion on a level I cannot put into words. Conveying through text the feeling of finding the infomation from others I have searched for all my life and the sudden release of years of fear, hope, wonder and longing in my soul is impossible.
First came astonishment at the infomation and the connecting dots for me. Second was a visit from someone who felt very familiar but was suddenly very strong along with a semi vision of him.
I am still not sure if it was Satan himself or one of my gaurdians.
I experienced peace, a sense of safety, of finding home, sexual energy and extreme spiritual elation..in a nutshell really fucking good. I felt a lot of guilt come up in me looking back at the path I have taken to get here I have insulted Him and his Demons many times without realising it. But I kept searching because nothing ever felt right, a constant nagging feeling in me I was so close but just did not have the infomation I needed. I knew something was wrong with the way the world is, with people, a dark cloud over life, over me over everyone.
I began feeling sympathetic to these entities others fear to the point of almost snarling at the TV when I would see someone on a show trying to cast out so called demons or make fun of Satan. I still had the image of him as a scary horned beast and even painted him that way once. The painting upset me and I turned it round to the wall. I have had the sense of someone powerfull in my life saving my ass over and over since I was a child. Only 2 days ago did it all finally click and for the past 2 days I have read and read and read... and cried, and laughed, and cursed and gone through every emotion. And visions... I did not sleep all night xmas eve... I had a presence with me comeforting me.
I saw a brief image in my mind of a man well built, pale skin, blonde hair half kneeling behind me in a black robe with royal blue the colour of the peacocks feathers and red like triming around the robe, I cannot quite see his face I think his hair may be shoulder length not very long I cannot see his eyes he was naked beneath his robe there seemed to be a landscape behind him of some kind. I felt a very strong atraction to him aswell as a lot of comefort and safety. I do not know if it was Satan or another demon I would like to find out. There was nothing scary or negative about it whatsoever.
The events in my life have always been leading me here. I have gone through xianity as a child, ditched that then it was wicca which I felt was very empty it did help me train some of my senses and taught me a lot of helpfull things and I did make friends and discover the spirit world within nature and helped me in other ways.
But it was so white and fluffy and unbalanced. Then I found Lavey and that showed me more of the picture but it was still missing spirit. Before I tell you where I went next let me add, I have been very interested in and seen MANY Ufo's since I was 5 years old. My grandmother saw an alien in the 60's and my mother saw the ship 6 minutes away from a car window.
My grandmother saw other ufo's and was visited at night by the creatures. I saw a ufo my first over our front porch as a child with my grandma and mother. My grandparents heard the ship pass over one night that crashed in Kangaroo Valley in NSW Australia... later covered up. My mother heard the apollo astronaughts report a sighting in space over the radio and strange music which was cut off. I saw more ufo's as I got older and felt very frightening sensations and presences at night. To the point I would run from my room screaming with the sense an attack or abduction was iminent.
But they could never manifest or touch me. Someone was protecting me all that time and I feel so ungratefull for not even realising it.
I have seen ghosts, I have done the whole goth in the cemetary stage... taking pictures falling for the demonic possesion BS. But my mind would never rest I knew big things were missing.. I had believed all along aliens visted earth and made us genetically since I was a KID. I was fascinated by the pyramids myseteries of the ancients etc. mythology beasts that looked part human etc.
I believed that religion was alien made... and read about wars between the gods over us.
So next stop was the TOV... Temple of The Vampire. For those not familiar with them... They claim to be the ancient gods... the aliens that vampirise humans and that they are looking for their own kind amongst us and if you join there they manipuate you into believeing you are one of them even though they tell you to believe nothing. I dated another member there... They infiltrate the COS. I felt very afraid and in danger there, I experience a lot of misfortune, emotional turmoil, sleep paralysis I performed their comunions and was vampirised energetically. They feed off lifeforce and hate humans... guess who... the greys again. When I left my ex and the TOV I was terrified they would get me... and could share this fear with noone.
I still felt a presence and I now know it was Satan and his demons who saved me from a man who was insane and I now know may have killed me in time, and a bunch of emotionless vampires. I know they all tried to destroy me with black magic and they failed. Satan dragged me through it all kicking and screaming and he is still actually here. I just did not know it at the time. That speaks volumes of who Satan really is.....Why he would care about me after all this I still don't understand.
I left the city for a life closer to nature with animals around me, plants and beauty. It has been hard, financially hard. My mental health has suffered but I feel now I can finally let it all out and start to heal. It will not happen overnight.
In the past month leading to this point now I lost 2 loves, my dear cat to a snake bite and my old dog to basically old age health related problems. I was distraught. A man who lives nearby offered me one day out of the blue a pair of peafowl, peacock and peahen. I did not know at the time how significant that was. I spent weeks building a pen for them and then started on a yard with a garden. I have many beautufull birds and parrots, 2 small horses dogs. The same man who gave me the peacocks also offered me a kitten. The same day he gave me the kitten not an hour before he showed up with the offer I said to my mother, I would like to find another cat. Then as if by magic I was greeted by a lively kitten who took to me imediately. He has a personality that reminded me of a garden fairy I called him Oberon.
2 doors down from where i live is a jehovas witness church the kingdom hall. I get a great sense of something wrong and rotten from the place and at night the fencline closest to them gets a funny vibe, I do not like going down there in the dark I dont feel safe. I feel the presence of greys.
After getting the peacock I felt worse energy, as if I am under survalence or attack. I have seen black ball shaped masses of black pass by my window at night and a feeling of being watched. The other night the peacock cried out as I felt something around that was not friendly I think it was a warning cry.
The Jehovas come here when I am not home and harrass my mother with their garbage. They even came into my work and harrassed me. Of course I could not be impolite at work because my boss was right there and they were 2 of her favourite customers!
But now, I feel safe. The feeling of safety came over me very quickly the more I opened myself up to Satan and with the final switch clicking to the on position I felt heat and energy rise and I knew... I just knew and I had a feeling I cannot describe. Absolute trust and peace and love. Very deep love. But before when I was reading the infomation on the jos website and got to the bits about the aliens I felt I was being watched, felt fear and felt they were trying to stop me. I kept reading...
I have always had a darker personality than most people, I find beauty and peace in things that others fear or don't like. I would not say I am typically gothic because I do not like labels. But it would describe my taste in asthetics, music etc. Not dark as in evil, cold and frightening dark as in finding comefort in the shade on a hot busy day, in shades and colours that are less in your face. Music that is heavy and deep. Or not of the kind you would hear on the radio. I have very different opinions and likes to most people. I like the dark as it reminds me of things that are hidden and not in plain sight. It is just me, suits me, its where I feel comefortable. Some would describe me as eccentric. I don't care I wear so and believe what I like, I feel it is my right and I follow my own ideas.
That is my story anyhow. I know not everyone will understand or have had the same feelings as me. Some of you who have been influenced by the evil ones agenda will have fear still that is from a lifetime of programming. It is a big thing to fight through. You are already very brave and strong for getting this far. It gets easier. The enemy wants you to fear this its how they keep people from Satan. Once you have seen them for what they really are though that fear just dissapears. They no longer have any power over you. They are experts at mind control. Most people will never break free of it.
This is the first time I have had the alien side of it fully explained and I know it is true because it matches up to what I have experienced and researched. It is joining the dots. I have had many spiritual experiences already in my life with chakras and kundilini and so forth so it was a matter of filling the gaps and someone handing me the rest of the infomation for my mind to suddenly see it all.
I have had help from healers over the years with my chakras and problems that came up. Now the energy I have raised as far as my throat. I am now having to face problems at this point and will be seeking help with this. Life is not a box of chocolates. But having powerfull friends and allies with the knowledge to get you through it and who actually care about YOU is a big help. I would never want to go it alone.
The best part right now is I know, I know deep down that if I ever run into one of those little big eyed grey bastards again trying to get inside my mind... when they do that you feel like you are being split in half, it hurts. If I ever sense them again I know who I will be calling to and I can just imagine those little creatures shitting themselves. I won't take their crap ever again.
To be finally able to open up and talk about this knowing I am not crazy knowing others here will know and understand. After years of living in fear, wondering what these things were, and realised what they are what they are here for, doing etc knowing they are as real as the keyboard I am typing on now, knowing and seeing them in my mind everytime I hear mention of religion or walk past a church etc having dreams of being taken on ships etc at night seeing mass groups of people being shuffled onto ships like cattle... and looking around at everyone I know and suffering through this going without sleep many nights out of fear or because I was so wound up about all this my mind would not stop thinking. And I can't tell ANYONE. Why am I so tired everyday, fucking up at work, smoking too much, going through 5 jars of coffee a week so I dont sleep, suffering panic attacks, seeing dark masses of things I dont know what they are seeing shadows in my house, I was pushed into a brick pillar by a bastard I couldnt see and laughed at in my own home. Does anyone know what this does to a person? and WHY ME? This has driven me insane.
I have so much I know about this and I have had it all kept to myself. I cannot go out into my little comunity with this knowing in my head everyday and act like everything is fine. It is not fucking fine. And the kicker is THEY KNOW you can't tell anyone THEY KNOW people will not get it and think I am nuts or just ignore it and stay in their trances. People you love... kids who will never even get a chance. Women in islamic countries being mutilated and beaten and killed. Because of these bastards.
I think it is because I know... as if a glitch appeared on a screen out there somewhere that someone woke up from the matrix... they knew I couldnt be fooled and would fight back. I think that is 'why me' and 'why' lots of other people too. People who wake up from the 'dream' the trance and start looking for the truth and have enough guts to fight back for it. Maybe I am more of a threat to them than they i ever knew.
Once you are awake... wide awake it all becomes so obvious and so suddenly obvious and visible it is scary it scares you that everyone around you cannot see it. I have over 50 pictures of ufo's in paintings from all of history really obvious ones not vague... could be interpreted as something else... really obvious. I have shown them to people and get a 'meh so what' kind of reaction. I mean WTF!!??? I know now why they don't see it or don't care.
I read the story of fatima go read it on the JOS website if you havnt already. About the kids who see the so called virgin mary in the sky it is horrifying.
Anyway I wish you well, all of you stay strong safe and healthy.
HAIL SATAN!
