I'm also from Cali and refused to take in catholic bs as a kid. When a nun was telling us that we were "born into sin because of the sin of Adam" I challenged that--at the age of 9--i asked "so if my brother sins, is THAT my sin?" She said "no" I reasoned, "so how is Adam's sin MY sin?". She responded with "just be quiet". Another time while kneeling in a pew, we were praying to mary or some saint, and I nudged my mom--"shouldn't we only be praying to GOD?". Again, I was hushed. I guess I could be pretty embarassing to my mom in that faction, and what confuses me most is how she could stand to attend that bs when she was molested by catholic priests, along with every one of her brothers and sisers (6). When my mom told her mom about it, she got slapped in the face. I always knew there was A LOT wrong with catholicism, and so did my mom. We ended up going with the mormons from when I was 12 after visiting various xian churches for a year or so. They were the most welcoming and the best influence we could have had at the time. But as time passed, I saw big holes in their belief systems and stories. I saw racism. And was forgiving up to a point.
Anywyas, I became very anti-mormon/xian at age 18 and have been that way since. I found JoS on 03/17/2012 and quickly soaked in almost everything on the websites and joined the forums. I dedicated 03/19/2012 on Monday at 3am and IT FELT GREAT! I was renting my own room and had my own bathroom at that time, and I immediately felt empowered and re-invigorated. I lost at lot of sleep my first few weeks discovering JoS, returning to my old insomniac ways to meditate, read, post and train physcially instead of sleep. Satan touched my mind and heart and entered my life and dreams. And it has been the best experience in my life. I'm 27 now, and have had many great experiences.
I ran into a few "haters" here on JoS, but simply recoginized them as 1) infiltrators/anti-life xians or 2) immature SS who still suffer from the influence of disease.
Don't let these people affect YOUR relationship with Satan and the Gods.
As far as your family is concerned. . . Your request seems unrealistic to me. Personally I don't hope or pray for my own safety, but take serious precautions do to work-hazards. I care about my family's safety, but I can't force them to be wise with concern to whatever hazards they may encounter. When I hear that some one has died, I keep in mind the Al Jilwah where it says "Those who oppose me I afflict with disease; but my own shall not die like the sons of Adam that are without. None shall live in this world longer than the time set by me; and if I so desire, I send a person a second or third time into this world or into some other by the transmigration of souls.
" (Chapter 2)
I recommend reading the Al Jilwah at least once a day. Some of us find it well to write it with our own hand from time to time. Also, I have recorded myself reading out loud on an audio recorder so I can hear it whenever I wish. There is something that changes in our minds when we become familiar with the Al Jilwah--i couldn't promote it enough.
Ps: I'm also from Cali, born in Bakersfield, raised in Ventura, lived and worked in Camp Pendleton, San Jose, Union City, Fremont, Santa Barbara, Wasco, Los Angeles, Van Nuys, Canoga Park, Woodland Hills, Northridge. O ya, and Oxnard.
Now I just live on the road working as a truck driver (2.5 months now)
--Blue Earth
HAIL SATAN.
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Tony Martinez <tony3528@... wrote:
ok im gonna start off by introducing myself to you all,names anthony 21 yr old male out of california first and foremost I thank whatever brang me here, ill start off by letting u all know a little about me,as a kid growing up i was told to believe in the catholic religion and jesus and his father god(total bullshit) &.as i grew older i came more into realization that praying and giving faith to this fuck face(jesuz chrizt) was doing nothing for me i never got any answers to my prayers i never felt his supposed love nor his supposed grace on me.for the past 4 years since 17 i renounced anything to do with religion or god or chrizt and felt life was a joyless hole,but then somehow while i was on the internet i stumbled upon joyofsatan.com,im not gonna lie at first i thought this is just another bullshit site to conform people in to their beliefs but as i read more and more about this site it intrigued me to learn more and more,as i read on i felt more of
an understanding to life then ive ever felt before and actually felt as if this is what was missing in my life,in conclusion to that i feel this is where i belong, I havent yet done the ritual to give myself to satan,not cause im scared or skeptic,but i wanna make sure this legit and not dedicate myself to a false religion as christianityy or catholic(both bullshit) so what im asking is if this is my path i will give full dedication and heart to satan, all i ask of him is to forever watch over my family and loved ones whether im dead or alive and keep them safe IF SO ILL FOREVER DEDICATE MY LIFE TO SATAN AND HIS DEMONS
HAIL SATAN
