New here. But I'm really not... Kinda feel like I've always

[James Cosgrove]

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I am new this group, pleased to have found it here. I'm really glad there is a group here in general. I have always "strayed" from my christian upbringing. And I never felt.. "wrong" for it. I always wondered what was so bad about questioning a god. Why is it so wrong to question a way of life? I have always had my own way of thinking, and doing things. Lately over the past few months, I have become more spiritual, and more aware. I've always been sensitive to the "supernatural", blessed with gifts. And as I've discovered Luciferianism, and Satanism. I have seen that many of my thoughts, many of my firm beliefs that have guided me through life, have been those that Satan stands for and has stood for. As if I naturally follow his path. I have never felt so comforted in my life.. to be a child of Lucifer. Everything here makes sense, everything "bad" feels right. I will admit, I am a bit scared because I know there is no going back.. but I also know there is nothing but love, acceptance, and knowledge here. I really hope I can learn from anyone willing to share.. to start.. if anyone can help me further to help myself to break the hold *fear* Christianity continues to have on me.. I would really appreciate that. Sorry for the rant, I'm just so happy... My name is Bunneh, and I'm a 21 year old ftm (Post-op No T) artist and writer. I really enjoy learning, reading, music, arts, and just hanging out with nice people. ^_^  I'm a little shy, but I open up once I get to know people. I'm sorta nerdy too and I like to game and watch anime and uhhh... cook and stuff. Oh and I love sweets. Show me your love and I'll show you mine.<3

 

[Light Yagami]

Hello, welcome here! Have you done the dedication ritual yet? How to Dedicate You Soul to Satan
You will never feel fear with the Gods and I believe the only way to get over this emotion (which of course has been caused due to the enemy false propaganda and brain washing) is to (after doing the dedication ritual) start meditating and further empowering your soul.Doing void meditation: http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html helps in learning to control your thoughts and emotions and to also distinguish whether your thoughts are of your own or if the enemy tries to mess up with your mind.
Hmmm, what else...
Oh, there are also some Sermons you can read about sexuality and the like (I am posting this because you said you're FTM so I thought you'd find them interesting) Morality, Sexuality, and You by Reverend Mageson666 http://web.archive.org/web/20130213225421/http://gblt.webs.com/Homosexuality_and_Christianity.htm Jewish Control of Gay Rights
AGH yahoo has become SO FUCKING STUPID WITH THE LINKS so I hope you can see them all... =___=
By the way, there's a 40 days meditation program to help you started if you don't know from which meditations to start. Here: http://satanism-nazism.webs.com/hp_hood ... rogram.pdf
       

Στις 4:09 π.μ. Πέμπτη, 16 Οκτωβρίου 2014, ο/η "xsuitsu.no.usagix@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] έγραψε:


  I am new this group, pleased to have found it here. I'm really glad there is a group here in general. I have always "strayed" from my christian upbringing. And I never felt.. "wrong" for it. I always wondered what was so bad about questioning a god. Why is it so wrong to question a way of life? I have always had my own way of thinking, and doing things. Lately over the past few months, I have become more spiritual, and more aware. I've always been sensitive to the "supernatural", blessed with gifts. And as I've discovered Luciferianism, and Satanism. I have seen that many of my thoughts, many of my firm beliefs that have guided me through life, have been those that Satan stands for and has stood for. As if I naturally follow his path. I have never felt so comforted in my life.. to be a child of Lucifer. Everything here makes sense, everything "bad" feels right. I will admit, I am a bit scared because I know there is no going back.. but I also know there is nothing but love, acceptance, and knowledge here. I really hope I can learn from anyone willing to share.. to start.. if anyone can help me further to help myself to break the hold *fear* Christianity continues to have on me.. I would really appreciate that. Sorry for the rant, I'm just so happy... My name is Bunneh, and I'm a 21 year old ftm (Post-op No T) artist and writer. I really enjoy learning, reading, music, arts, and just hanging out with nice people. ^_^  I'm a little shy, but I open up once I get to know people. I'm sorta nerdy too and I like to game and watch anime and uhhh... cook and stuff. Oh and I love sweets. Show me your love and I'll show you mine.<3

 

[dark_pagan_666]

It is very nice you've found the truth, Satan and our community, the e-groups!

Now, I would like to give you some advice, you may have already read it. But, I give it anyway, as it is for every new people here:

Here are many filtrators/enemies on the group, and this is nothing to take lightly. What I am saying is:
Do not give off certain information that may cause you harm .i.e giving your home adress, real name, birth date etc. This is to keep yourself safe!
And here are people that will try to fool you, waste your time and flaming.

Logic and common sense in other words.
Just be careful!

Many of us satanists like you, who feel like to rebel from xianity. Is because deep inside we know the truth, we still have our morals, values, interests and personality from our past lifes. And many of us satanists has been with Satan in previous lifes. Therefore we naturally desire to come back to him and many of us has worked on our mind and soul in a past life, which further gives us many gifts.

Having fears concerning to evolve, are hangups from xianity and its cohorts. Start to meditate and open your soul, this will further free you from the hangups.
Be aware of that suppressed feelings may come back up, such as anger, depression and fears. This is totally normal and is a cleaning process, which is very liberating and beautiful!

Just ask yourself why you feel this way, why am I angry? Why am I scared etc.

Otherwise, keep yourself safe, meditate and good luck on your most liberating and rewarding journey!

 

[shadowsage99]

Dude, nice to meet you! Glad we have another anime lover/gamer here! And I'm a nerd too, Nerd's are awesome! Honestly, I wish there were ways to get in touch with fellow satanists beyond this board. It's slightly lame, but given the circumstances it's a hell of a lot better than not having the board at all!

I enjoy cooking too, but making Soda is probably my favorite! I love drinks!

Glad you made it, in any case. I assume you dedicated your soul already? And congrats on getting your surgery! Way to go!

Just find a simple meditation program to start with, then start trying a few basic spells when you feel ready. Spells make it all come together faster- Like with the physical body, you can run on a treadmill forever, but running cross-country or playing a sport get you in much better shape- and they are way more fun. Spells are kinda the same way. Just be smart about them, don't start screwing with death magic until you really know what you are doing. But the lust spell is definately a good place to start! Or a money working.


Oh, here is a tip- check out the files section. It's next to photo's under the main banner. There are some really useful document's there. Some I've read(The money working one, the yoga program) some I haven't but have heard of (Rich dad, poor dad) but it should all be useful. After you feel you've got a basic routine for meditation down (Aura Cleansing, Aura of Protection, and Void Meditation) try adding in the yoga program. Take it easy and enjoy it! It will help a lot.

You should also look up the 40 day meditation program for beginners. It helps a lot! you can find it in Satan's Library, it's by HP Hooded Cobra.
Satan's Library

Anyways, glad your here, have fun and HAIL SATAN! If you have questions about anything in particular, just ask!
 

 

[James Cosgrove]

*I'm kinda.. a writer.. so long full thoughts are my thing..*

     Thank you very much! Eh, I guess I've been told I'm too friendly, but I do wish to befriend anyone willing and meaning no harm. To those that have already asked, yes, I did dedicate my soul to Lucifer already on Wednesday October 15th <3. It was scary, but it's not so much a fear of Satan, as I have more and more realized how comforted I am to belong with him, but fear of "Well... what now.. will I be harassed/ in danger because I am this much more aware now?" *I have ALWAYS been sensitive to things I can only feel.. sometimes rarely hear. Sometimes it's been scary.. but I guess I've been scared in the right direction?* It was a really big step to me.. I couldn't help seeing all those fears that have been pushed on my from christian culture/norms.. it's horrible.. Thinking "what if I've been tricked.. what if they were right.. what if what if" and then with my crazy imagination.. thoughts of being tormented by the monsters Christianity has made up. Every step closer to Satan is kind of a nervous one.. but I'm human T^T. I want to be with Satan, I want to learn from him, very eager to learn in general, always have been.

     A few months ago, I was in a thrift store, and I've never been one to wear any kind of obvious satanic wear, unless it was a band shirt or something. But I found this necklace. It has a plumeria, carved out of wood or bone or tusk or something, but those flowers are usually right side up, like a star, with five petals. This pendant was upside down. It looks just like *please correct me if I am wrong* the sigil, or satanic pentagram. But it's discreet, I only made this discovery later when a few friends of mine, I'll note, friends that push christianity and the christian god as the savior for me came over, doing exactly that. I was being attacked by something that week, still not sure what but it has been resolved. As soon as I noticed the resemblance, I was fearful.. those friends of mine *Who are good people.. just not on my path spiritually* pretty much fed the fear of "demons" the "devil" at work, IE join "god". Now the significance is, I am of tropical region decent.. I love it. Like it was a gift. I feel he has always been with me, and the other "demons" *I feel bad saying that.. since learning they are not evil demons like christians suggest.*. I wear it everyday now proudly.. he knows me so well. I know he's real, kind of always have known, just didn't know who he really was.

As far as growing spiritually with Satan, emotions have surfaced... the fears, depressions, old habits. I don't like it... :< But I know I can work through them with guidance and self application. One big one for me due to past abuse is self esteem, image, and value.. I went to eat chinese and picked a fortune.. I've taken it up to pay more attention to  my gut, and intuition.... I dressed up that day too.. I wanted to look nice. The fortune almost brought me to tears in public reading " You look great, and you know it!". How I could ever doubt fathers existence.. I can't even comprehend.. I am very grateful..However, where I live, I don't know anyone who follows Satan *maybe follow is a bad word* So it's difficult for me to really know if I am meditating right.. opening chakaras or third eye, breathing exercise. I saw the 40 day meditation guide suggested and I will take that up, but, is there anything else I should be focusing on? If anyone has any time to possible PM and one on one help, or point in the right direction, I'd very much appreciate it <3

* I notice everyone says "Hail Satan"... I don't feel obligated to, but I'm still kinda finding my comfort zone here... for now I say it in my head/heart.. sometimes aloud to myself XD blehhh I'm an odd one.*


---In [email protected], <dark_pagan_666@... wrote :

It is very nice you've found the truth, Satan and our community, the e-groups!

Now, I would like to give you some advice, you may have already read it. But, I give it anyway, as it is for every new people here:

Here are many filtrators/enemies on the group, and this is nothing to take lightly. What I am saying is:
Do not give off certain information that may cause you harm .i.e giving your home adress, real name, birth date etc. This is to keep yourself safe!
And here are people that will try to fool you, waste your time and flaming.

Logic and common sense in other words.
Just be careful!

Many of us satanists like you, who feel like to rebel from xianity. Is because deep inside we know the truth, we still have our morals, values, interests and personality from our past lifes. And many of us satanists has been with Satan in previous lifes. Therefore we naturally desire to come back to him and many of us has worked on our mind and soul in a past life, which further gives us many gifts.

Having fears concerning to evolve, are hangups from xianity and its cohorts. Start to meditate and open your soul, this will further free you from the hangups.
Be aware of that suppressed feelings may come back up, such as anger, depression and fears. This is totally normal and is a cleaning process, which is very liberating and beautiful!

Just ask yourself why you feel this way, why am I angry? Why am I scared etc.

Otherwise, keep yourself safe, meditate and good luck on your most liberating and rewarding journey!

 

[James Cosgrove]

Thank you, and nice to meet you! Thank you for all of your links, they've been really helpful in trying to find my footing here .<  I'm starting to feel more an more comforted and safe, just need to do some more studying :3 Thank you for the contribution ^^ I did dedicate my soul to father wednesday Oct 15. I was really nervous, but I know that the bridge I crossed  was the right one.. now to learn to control these emotions.. and continue to drown out the previous lies and conditioning.. it's kinda scary looking at Christianity from this side of the fence.. so many victims.. that gladly accept the lie. No questions asked.. :/ even children.. it's sick.


---In [email protected], <tapapakiastinseira@... wrote :

Hello, welcome here! Have you done the dedication ritual yet? How to Dedicate You Soul to Satan
You will never feel fear with the Gods and I believe the only way to get over this emotion (which of course has been caused due to the enemy false propaganda and brain washing) is to (after doing the dedication ritual) start meditating and further empowering your soul.Doing void meditation: http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html helps in learning to control your thoughts and emotions and to also distinguish whether your thoughts are of your own or if the enemy tries to mess up with your mind.
Hmmm, what else...
Oh, there are also some Sermons you can read about sexuality and the like (I am posting this because you said you're FTM so I thought you'd find them interesting) Morality, Sexuality, and You by Reverend Mageson666 http://web.archive.org/web/20130213225421/http://gblt.webs.com/Homosexuality_and_Christianity.htm Jewish Control of Gay Rights
AGH yahoo has become SO FUCKING STUPID WITH THE LINKS so I hope you can see them all... =___=
By the way, there's a 40 days meditation program to help you started if you don't know from which meditations to start. Here: http://satanism-nazism.webs.com/hp_hood ... rogram.pdf
       

Στις 4:09 π.μ. Πέμπτη, 16 Οκτωβρίου 2014, ο/η "xsuitsu.no.usagix@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] έγραψε:


 I am new this group, pleased to have found it here. I'm really glad there is a group here in general. I have always "strayed" from my christian upbringing. And I never felt.. "wrong" for it. I always wondered what was so bad about questioning a god. Why is it so wrong to question a way of life? I have always had my own way of thinking, and doing things. Lately over the past few months, I have become more spiritual, and more aware. I've always been sensitive to the "supernatural", blessed with gifts. And as I've discovered Luciferianism, and Satanism. I have seen that many of my thoughts, many of my firm beliefs that have guided me through life, have been those that Satan stands for and has stood for. As if I naturally follow his path. I have never felt so comforted in my life.. to be a child of Lucifer. Everything here makes sense, everything "bad" feels right. I will admit, I am a bit scared because I know there is no going back.. but I also know there is nothing but love, acceptance, and knowledge here. I really hope I can learn from anyone willing to share.. to start.. if anyone can help me further to help myself to break the hold *fear* Christianity continues to have on me.. I would really appreciate that. Sorry for the rant, I'm just so happy... My name is Bunneh, and I'm a 21 year old ftm (Post-op No T) artist and writer. I really enjoy learning, reading, music, arts, and just hanging out with nice people. ^_^  I'm a little shy, but I open up once I get to know people. I'm sorta nerdy too and I like to game and watch anime and uhhh... cook and stuff. Oh and I love sweets. Show me your love and I'll show you mine.<3

 

[James Cosgrove]

Yay fer nerds! And yes, I'm actually surprised there is a board, and forgive me if a bunch of replies come to you. I'm also new to using yahoo message boards, I don't now if I am to reply to each message, or send one in the topic..orrrr.. yeah haha. And I know what you mean, there really aren't a lot of people in my town that I have known or hint of being related to Satan. There is actually a heavy christian influence in this town, so I have to be careful and be safe about it.. or risk being targeted.. Also, I am Pre-op..  .< messed that up. But that will be fixed soon v.v. I am weary of spells at the moment, only because I barely understand how to meditate.. or open up my chakaras and all that stuff. I am very new to a lot of this information although I have sought out bits and pieces of info out of curiosity in the past. I have just spent the past few days doing some breathing exercises,and reading up on the Joy of Satan site. Soooo much to take in. I will probably get some books too and read them. So I think I'm the learning stages, with some attempts at the meditations. But I am determined to keep working at it :3 I am more aware of Satans presence though.. in numbers, images outside, sometimes feeling a comforting presence when I am scared or nervous. I'm kinda childish.. so fear for me is my biggest issue.. and doing things wrong. When I dedicated my soul, I had this feeling like.. it needs to happen tonight. And not out of desperation. I had kinda settled on being Luciferian a few weeks before discovering this website,and there was another site suggesting dedication to Satan. I am a very curious Bunneh x3. I have to question, research, double check, and then check again haha. So at that time, I did not.. I guess the fears of the fictional creation christian has for Satan and the other gods made me nervous to dedicate my soul. I know my soul is very important.. always have. I figured.. from what Satan is really, he might see no harm in letting me explore further, question, and read up. When I did decide to dedicate, I got everything together, then I realized I used every candle in the house already. I had none.. but I felt like it had to happen in that night.. a lot of things pointed to this.. and a lot of things tried getting in my way. And I found one little candle.. (Not black or  red or blue...) and it was a gift, I kept it for months, maybe even a year.. never opened it, and then I knew why. I was nervous that because it wasn't the right color candle it wouldn't work.. but then I felt like He has left it there all along.  What I felt in my heart and soul.. was legitimate dedication and acceptance and love.. so I feel now like it was done.  And I'm happy for it ^^. Sowwy for the long message.. it's just.. so much going on _< I wish more people like this lived near me v.v

 

[frizzard56]

Welcome, welcome, welcome. My, you certainly are full of enthusiasm. I appreciate that. You're not necessarily, going to get attacked, but, if you think that way, if may draw attention to you. Put it outta your head, void meditation works wonders with unwanted thoughts.

Even if you cannot get a long period of void meditation in, even just 10 seconds, it BUILDS. Do it as often as you like. But, be consistent. You'll get to the point to where you can be wherever and think NOTHING  at any time for as long as you want/need to. It also improve your concentration as it has mine a lot.

Here's a sermon by High Priest Hooded Cobra 666 about surfacing thoughts.



https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/122244

Best thing you can do is take it easy.

Welcome to the family. Hail Satan.

 

 

[James Cosgrove]

Thank you for the link! And yes, you're right, I try as much as I can to remind myself of what it means to be of Lucifer. I know as long as I keep at the aura cleansing and protecting and working with my chakaras that I will be safe. My pendant also helps me to remain positive as it is a reminder Satan is with me. Is it bad to wear and look to it as a christian would a cross? I have read in many places that Satanism is very heavily built on self sustainability when possible... but it really is comforting to me to have and wear even though I am just as safe with out it. I have seen the wonders of void meditation in just a few days. My mind is usually a constant flow of thoughts, good and bad. I have read on the JoS page on chakara opening and empowering/brightening or something, but how do I know I am really even doing this, and should my chakaras always remain open? I feel sensations when I have done the exercises, very very very hot, sometimes it even makes me dizzy and I get a head rush. I don't really know if it is really "the thought the counts" kinda deal since it is mostly visualization. I hope this isn't a silly question.  Thank you so much everyone for being so kind, welcoming, and helpful. ^_^

 

[shadowsage99]

Dude, I feel you on wishing there were more Satanists around. Seriously. There need to be more in the world.
I'm a little confused- so pre-op, what gender did you start as, what gender are you becoming? Either way, again, congrats on doing that! I'm inspired by your courage!
You have a cool story too. It's neat how things tend to work out like that, huh? I wound up doing the dedication on my Mom's birthday- which was extra special, because she's evil and absolutely Mormon. So psychologically, it was very helpful. It made renouncing Xianity more powerful. Father really knows what he is doing.

 

[shadowsage99]

I wouldn't worry about wearing a satanic symbol. There are a lot of different ways to explain it. All it really indicates is that you are wearing a satanic symbol. (Hell, mormons can get away with a pentagram, since for whatever reason they put them all over the outside of one of their earlier temples.) You could be a Xian into heavy metal or spirituality for all that says. Your fine wearing it, it shouldn't draw too much attention. Just have a ready, smooth answer for why you wear it if a Xian asks you about it. 
Somewhat Ironically, it only identifies you as a Satanist if you tell others that is why you wear it.
You could even just say it looks cool. 
There are some Xian's who won't buy it, but they tend to be the crazy types anyways. Jehova's Witnesses, for example, they will stay away from you while wearing it or try to convince you that you need to get rid of it. They might even ask you to keep it hidden/not wear it around them. Just refuse! 
And as long as you have a simple, ready cover, they will only lose face in front of other Xian's if they give you crap about it. You might even be able to get other Xian's to back you up, if you know what you are doing. I've seen it happen before. Moderate Xian's don't like zealots much.
But, ultimately, your fine.