New and confused?

[kelly fizzle]

I have labeled myself as a Christian for a long time but I no longer do. in the last few years I have seen alot of things in a dif light and I am trying to find  the right term for whatever my spirituality and gift are, I am trying to find myself, what I am and my people (I hope this doesn't sound stupid lol) but I'm just looking for info and advise I suppose I am confused on what I really am but am definitely interested in converting to something different. So I guess can anyone out there tell me more about satanism and how do I know if this is who I am? How did you come to be what u are now? And does Wicca and satanism go together? Thanks in advance guys I'm sorry if it's worded funny I feel weird doing this. Almost guilty but I am drawn to it and I want to know more

 

[babyb00m]

Thoroughly read the Joy of Satan website.

Joy of Satan
http://www.templeofzeus.org

Perform the Dedication Ritual when you feel ready. If you cannot find the right candle color, forget the "so mote it be" at the end, or make some other minor error, that will not derail your Dedication Ritual. Satan is extremely understanding, unlike the christian god who will throw you into a pit of fire for every little thing, and is not going to come after you for extremely trivial errors. As long as your blood is on the paper and you genuinely want to dedicate yourself to Satan, your Dedication Ritual was valid.   Dedication Ritual
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... TANIC.html   The goal of Spiritual Satanism is to spiritually empower yourself and obtain powers that humans are supposed to have like healing and telepathy. The final goal is to complete the Magnum Opus and become a god. Consistent meditation is key to those goals. A good place to start with meditation is the 40 Day Self Empowerment Program available in Library of Thoth. Some links in the 40 Day Self Empowerment Program PDF are broken. PDF copies of the hatha and kundalini yoga routines from the broken links are in Library of Thoth.

Satan’s Library
  Starting Guide for New Satanists https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/162014   And, participate in our Spiritual Cleansing rituals. We are in a war here and need to do what we can for our creator, Satan. But do these only after you have dedicated, so you have protection against the enemy.   Spiritual Cleansing Rituals http://www.angelfire.com/wizard/pixie66 ... ituals.htm