--- In , "Dalovey_wolf" <dharris791@... wrote:
You helped me. Not even knowing you did you just helped me. You see I didn't and still don't think I am worth the time Satan has. I posted a question on this group asking how would I know he loves me and got no reply. You know what was going threw my mind at the time? Things like
You got no reply because they don't care!
Or
Your stupied how could you ask something like that.
Then
Now look at that they must know it's you. Maybe ther guardians told them to say nothing about it.
Or even
they don't want someone like you just give up.
I didn't think it could be an attack much less a voice whispering in my ear. How in the world do I stop it? It's keeping me from alot but how do I know it's not just me. It's sound like me. It even feels like me. I can't help but feel lazy about my health and meditation then I feel guilty then I don't feel like I should do it anymore even when I know I should. Can I put up a kind of ahold shield over my mind? Can I block it or will it really be there for that long? Till I'm old...till I let go?
--- In , "petiteessence" <petiteessence@ wrote:
I hear where you are coming from. When I started getting interested in Satanism, and in Father, I would buy up books and watch movies, and go on the JoS website. I would read, and try to comprehend and learn. The enemy would whisper in my ear and mind (I wouldn't know at the time, of course, I wasn't as strong as I am now) and play with my emotions. I even sold some of those occult books, and stopped reading the JoS website because the enemy would make me feel so weak, sad, guilty ( I was just coming out of xianity at that time) and worthless, that I would stop pursuing Father and Satanism.
I found that when I dedicated to Father, and wrote out the prayers to Him, and asked Him to please protect me, to stop the attacks, that I may see the truth and find the strength within me to stand up to it, that the attacks ceased considerably.
I still get tried and tested, but now, because Father is protecting me and helping me stand up to the attacks, I am able to be stronger now.
I dedicated about 4 weeks ago, and the changes happened immediately.
Have faith in Father, keep seeking Him, His truth, and it is good you are doing the meditations and exercises from the JoS site. Keep doing them. =)
Knowledge is power.
Practice and persistence of the meditations, exercises found on the JoS site, as well as discipline in your daily life towards school, job, other things, makes you stronger.
The trick of it is to do it, even when you don't feel like it.
Application of learned knowledge to your life, to the world around you, and to how you see the world will strengthen you spiritually, mentally, and physically.
Sometimes our minds cannot tune out very easily the attacks of the enemy. Please try the void meditation to help quiet your mind.
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html
Have you thought of trying Hatha yoga? It helps a great deal spiritually, mentally, physically.
Best of luck, if you have more questions, you are welcome to message me.
You're not the first to go through this, and you won't be the last. A lot of us have had attacks from the enemy whenever we start seeking Father, or reading about Him on the JoS site.
And those attacks will not stop, no matter if we are adept, new, intermediate, young, old... but we are strong in Father, He helps us find that strength and courage within ourselves to fight it.
The attacks will come physically, mentally, spiritually.
Our emotions will be of guilt, sadness, despair, hopelessness.
We might feel tired, lazy, unmotivated. We will make excuses to avoid it, do it later, or just brush it off.
DO NOT LISTEN TO THAT VOICE.
We will doubt that Father wants us to come to Him, and we will doubt our self-worth.
ALL THIS IS FROM THE ENEMY.
Remember this.
Hail Father Enki! Hail Lord Enlil! Hail all the True Gods!
--- In , "Dillon" <quartyd@ wrote:
I used to be commited to Satanism very much but then, for some reason something kept telling me to look away and this (what I belive to be some kind of entity) finally drove me to look away from Satanism. Recently I have broke free of it holding me back but now, i dont feel so much of a Satanist anymore, I feel pathetic, unworthy and unwanted. I am only 14 years old and trying to keep me being a Satanist hidden from my family so I can't hold a Satanic ritual or anything like that, the only thing i have been able to do was just to some meditations. How can I dedicate myself more to Satan, there are so many lies tied around me I can't even think straight, the other morning i woke up very late and it was as if all my body functions were "shut down". I dont know what to belive anymore and i need extreme guidance. Please help!