Need help with balancing energy stuck in my head

[Emerald]

This is a little weird case, and I help those who read are able to suggest recommended ways to balance this pressure/energy that is inside of my skull. I will explain what happened:

It all began in a single night after I smoked weed for the first time in a long time. Something to note is that I was doing a lot of magical exercises, and, what I think was the largest case, is I was putting Nikola Teslas Violet Ray Machine to my forehead for a few minutes every day for a month, foolishly. (I desired to have a stronger mind, and third eye, and in my ignorance and stress to rush ascension it probably did more harm than good). I also held it to my solar plexus a lot, but im not sure if that was enough to balance it. Regardless, here is a youtube video showcasing what it does

Basically it is straight up Vril. Going back to my story, After I smoked weed I had a hot bath and was chanting the Fehu rune on my root and crown chakra, then after this I had the worst panic attack of my entire life, and I been different ever since. Immense head and eye pressure began. I began to see random stars in my vision, waking up with dry eyes, and my physical strength dropped since I could barely move without feeling like passing out. Sometimes my neck and head would turn beat red. But what also has happened is that I began to etheric project and lucid dream more, and have weird dreams.

That being said, despite those great benefits of Spiritual Power, this immense energy NEEDS to be balanced. At some times, I thought I was going to die, and I have learnt how to become fearless due to this suffering, but I would of course love any insights on balancing it. Thank you. Hope this is fine for my first post. Hail lūcifer

 

[Emerald]

and I hope* those who read

 

[Emerald]

Ive been crying most days for a few months because of this. My eyes never had dark undereye bags but now they do. I only feel suffering ever since that night by the most I ever felt in my entire life. One night I basically had like a seizure too.

Also on a 5 day fast to help heal me, while driving my entire body began to vibrate and I had to pull over, everything turned "hd" like I was entering the etheric plane while fully awake. The vibrations were immense and I was crying since I felt I had no control over it.

Its really terrible. I really hope someone can help.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

Ive been crying most days for a few months because of this. My eyes never had dark undereye bags but now they do. I only feel suffering ever since that night by the most I ever felt in my entire life. One night I basically had like a seizure too.

Also on a 5 day fast to help heal me, while driving my entire body began to vibrate and I had to pull over, everything turned "hd" like I was entering the etheric plane while fully awake. The vibrations were immense and I was crying since I felt I had no control over it.

Its really terrible. I really hope someone can help.

if you have dark undereyes and bags, seizure-like symptoms and uncontrolled panic and emotions, then these are all signs of a yin deficiency, speaking very broadly. You should not be fasting as your body needs material to recover. It is ok to lighten your diet if you feel the need, like skip meat for a few meals, but not to totally fast for prolonged periods. Any sort of cleansing can be gained through exercise and spiritual cleaning, rather than simply avoiding intaking any nutrients at all.

My first suggestion would to use runes like Uruz to restore health, as well as Wunjo for health and balance. Do alternate nose breathing and hatha yoga. If bad enough, use Nauthiz and program it to ground yourself; this should feel like it weighs your body down, helping you to ignore many of these symptoms.

Lastly and also important would be to consult Valefor and do his ritual, not just once but over the course of your healing, as he can go into more accuracy and depth than I can here.

 

[Emerald]

if you have dark undereyes and bags, seizure-like symptoms and uncontrolled panic and emotions, then these are all signs of a yin deficiency, speaking very broadly. You should not be fasting as your body needs material to recover. It is ok to lighten your diet if you feel the need, like skip meat for a few meals, but not to totally fast for prolonged periods. Any sort of cleansing can be gained through exercise and spiritual cleaning, rather than simply avoiding intaking any nutrients at all.

My first suggestion would to use runes like Uruz to restore health, as well as Wunjo for health and balance. Do alternate nose breathing and hatha yoga. If bad enough, use Nauthiz and program it to ground yourself; this should feel like it weighs your body down, helping you to ignore many of these symptoms.

Lastly and also important would be to consult Valefor and do his ritual, not just once but over the course of your healing, as he can go into more accuracy and depth than I can here.

I really appreciate your response. Lots of people recommended fasting to me, and of course I know its benefits, but for my specific problem right now you may be correct, as I feel good when I eat and it calms down the symptoms.

How would I use the runes in a way you would recommend? Do the body poses? Visualize it inside of my mind (if so what color, red? blue?) How do I program Nauthiz to ground myself? Just feel it out?

Not quite sure who Valefor is, if you are able to tag him here I would enjoy that, I am quite new to this website, though I have quality esoteric Hyperborean wisdom, and theres a lot that I agree with here

 

[Emerald]

If anyone else has any more suggestions I would love to hear it
Today I went on a long walk to prove to myself I have the strength, and I did it, around 24km, but it was a battle fighting the panic the entire time.

 

[Satanic Truth]

Stop giving yourself drug-induced psychosis would be a start

 

[Emerald]

Stop giving yourself drug-induced psychosis would be a start

Haha I predicted id get this response, and I agree 100%. I was quitting it for a few months until a friend (who is also into magic like me) managed to convince me to smoke it again and said it would help with my problems, of course going against my instinct I suffered the consequences. I always never cared for drugs for "pleasant" feelings, I only done them to access deeper insights into our reality, and of course I know now that it is not needed at all, and is a hinderance even. I get fear/anger whenever I see drugs mentioned now, and I do not want anything to do with them for the rest of my life, unless there is some specific reason I am unaware of currently that they could be of use.

My life has been a big struggle since early childhood, and most would not have made it through what I have been, which is also why I know I have the Will, Power, and Endurance to break free from this torment as well, which is why I am here seeking help from some of the wisest people in the world.

Do you know any balancing exercises?