Need help with an enemy

[JokerCard]

I have come here under a different name before. I am unsure what else to do. I have asked for help from others before, but unfortunately I am often told I need to ground myself, that what I'm "getting into" is harming me and that Im going too deep, etc. but I can feel and sense that loaded with her energy so that I don't call a witch buddy to do somethong about the problems discussed below. It's a bit long but please, please know that I have tried to just ground myself and stay calm but terror and heavy soul-binding is at play here on top of extreme surveillance.

I am trapped by a zealous angel-using mother who found out that I became an SS back when it was JoS. She is on a ley line(spiritually more intense land). She has my possessions in storage bins being kept by family who own the property. She has a history of drug and alcohol abuse and has been domestically violent in front of me many times, all of which is just to speak on her temperment and what she is capable of, as well as reasons as to why her behavior would be less believable when described than that of other people. Often described with the word "pest" by the Gods when I can get a word in edgewise with them.

The curses she sends are insane and some of the insanity is borne from being generally physically isolated because of her location and being surrounded by family and local community members that don't know anything about her magick at the very least. Very typical narcissistic abuse. Very emotional and upheld with an echo chamber, thankfully no flying monkeys because it would ruin a vain narrative she has about "her son" she needs for metaphysical good girl points in an angelically crafted, game like system she and Hebrew thoughtforms made with her. Domineering. Forcing compliance. Forced possession with Hebrew thoughtforms/angels/holy spirit/etc. Everything from getting a cracked phone screen to getting screwed on money to not even be able to jerk off without her energy or an Xian insult or angel or daddy Jesus all up in my face and constantly making me physically uncomfortable and trying to abuse me in all manner of ways.

I have put in honest effort into power meditation, God Rituals, etc. but with my photographs, and her sheer intent that says that my pain matters more than her safety (she'll eat a million death and torment curses before she'll willingly let me even so much as smile and I mean that sort of literally and I am crying for help) she stops me from being able to really even know meditation exists. She is DESPERATE to keep me in this state and way, way worse. I am physically, IRL, really fucked up right now. No money, stressed as fuck, in a semi-bad neighborhood, scared as shit sometimes, spells keep getging countered by mom and Hebrew thoughtforms like it matters more than being alive. My own hunger when I can't afford to eat is used as fuel for her magick to bind and curse me harder. If I have a plan to meditate or just take care if myself, do specific rituals, etc. it is very sneakily taken out of my head and replaced with extreme ragebait and massive gaslighting attacks that get me so primally scared and angry I visualize and intend to bite her soul and chakras so hard that I intend for them to permanently shatter. She will wait and use magick to catch me when I think I have finally blessed myself out of the mess she put me in to hit me with a massive curse or event I can't financially come back from easily without doing what she wants. It will be so confusing and messed up where she will do something incredibly evil, I will do something to her as a response (eventually) and believe it's my own idea or that of a God, then hit her with it, then a mirror curse happens to compare me to her like we are both to blame or that I'm being a hypocrite. All repeats of how we handled disputes before but where she is always the winner and an angel epically dabs on me or something. The mirror being used is one I previously used to manifest a reality in which I was the best magician on Earth as a sort of massive invasive attack against my very soul and any sense kf adventure or ambition.

I NEED HELP. I can barely do anything. I am hitting her and angels and thoughtforms with so much anti-Hebrew energy with visualization and itnworks enough to hurt them but not keep them away because of all the ice spells my mother put me in. If I even *THINK* of blessing myself, a Hebrew thoughtform or one she co-created with them will scream, wail and fucking holler so she can "perfectly counter" it (word for word shamelessly ripping my own intent off with a spell jar to curse me with it in an extremely semi-knowingly childish way) and fuck with me like she's 7 years old. Hebrew has its porogatives in being evil and parasitic and shit but even angels and sometimes Jesus oy vey'd at her over her conduct, intent, reasoning, etc. and I even had a few show me a vision of her geting stabbed by angels for breaking rules and being a disrespectful cunt.

She will force insults that she sends at me to feel like they matter in such a forceful way that it hurts. She can't stand that I don't care what she thinks of me and will brutally throttle and strangle my soul and Throat Chakra to stop me from having an inner world. No even negative, private opinions about her are okay because such privacy led me to JoS/ToZ in the first place and other things she hates.

I just really really really need a lot of help that I can't do for myself anymore.

 

[Henu the Great]

You are giving her way too much credit, which then opens you to be more vulnerable, because in a sense, you accept this torment.

You can start with these (https://templeofzeus.org/Banishing.php & https://templeofzeus.org/Freeing_the_Soul.php), and then follow up with a steady spiritual practice routine with an emphasis on cleaning and protection meditations and God rituals with enough energy raised.

 

[ModernMage]

Sounds like she's living rent free in your head. Just do returning curses and clean your soul A LOT. You also have a lot of unresolved trauma, I would seek help from a therapist or look into Jung inner child work. You are in control of your life, do not think someone else is literally stopping you from achieving your goals or experiencing joy.

Returning Curses

 

[Heimdall]

As has been said, you don't have to accept this torment. You have rights and this is parental abuse. She doesn't deserve to have you under her care.
Police usually will take the side of the parent if they have other relatives to back them up. Next time there is physical abuse report it to them, at least then it's on record. If you're still a minor then I would report her to child services, they usually take a more objective approach to the situation, and have the power to take you out of there.
Otherwise I would keep a more low profile until you get old enough to get a job and leave home.

Fighting Back

 

[destroyer]

I have come here under a different name before. I am unsure what else to do. I have asked for help from others before, but unfortunately I am often told I need to ground myself, that what I'm "getting into" is harming me and that Im going too deep, etc. but I can feel and sense that loaded with her energy so that I don't call a witch buddy to do somethong about the problems discussed below. It's a bit long but please, please know that I have tried to just ground myself and stay calm but terror and heavy soul-binding is at play here on top of extreme surveillance.

I am trapped by a zealous angel-using mother who found out that I became an SS back when it was JoS. She is on a ley line(spiritually more intense land). She has my possessions in storage bins being kept by family who own the property. She has a history of drug and alcohol abuse and has been domestically violent in front of me many times, all of which is just to speak on her temperment and what she is capable of, as well as reasons as to why her behavior would be less believable when described than that of other people. Often described with the word "pest" by the Gods when I can get a word in edgewise with them.

The curses she sends are insane and some of the insanity is borne from being generally physically isolated because of her location and being surrounded by family and local community members that don't know anything about her magick at the very least. Very typical narcissistic abuse. Very emotional and upheld with an echo chamber, thankfully no flying monkeys because it would ruin a vain narrative she has about "her son" she needs for metaphysical good girl points in an angelically crafted, game like system she and Hebrew thoughtforms made with her. Domineering. Forcing compliance. Forced possession with Hebrew thoughtforms/angels/holy spirit/etc. Everything from getting a cracked phone screen to getting screwed on money to not even be able to jerk off without her energy or an Xian insult or angel or daddy Jesus all up in my face and constantly making me physically uncomfortable and trying to abuse me in all manner of ways.

I have put in honest effort into power meditation, God Rituals, etc. but with my photographs, and her sheer intent that says that my pain matters more than her safety (she'll eat a million death and torment curses before she'll willingly let me even so much as smile and I mean that sort of literally and I am crying for help) she stops me from being able to really even know meditation exists. She is DESPERATE to keep me in this state and way, way worse. I am physically, IRL, really fucked up right now. No money, stressed as fuck, in a semi-bad neighborhood, scared as shit sometimes, spells keep getging countered by mom and Hebrew thoughtforms like it matters more than being alive. My own hunger when I can't afford to eat is used as fuel for her magick to bind and curse me harder. If I have a plan to meditate or just take care if myself, do specific rituals, etc. it is very sneakily taken out of my head and replaced with extreme ragebait and massive gaslighting attacks that get me so primally scared and angry I visualize and intend to bite her soul and chakras so hard that I intend for them to permanently shatter. She will wait and use magick to catch me when I think I have finally blessed myself out of the mess she put me in to hit me with a massive curse or event I can't financially come back from easily without doing what she wants. It will be so confusing and messed up where she will do something incredibly evil, I will do something to her as a response (eventually) and believe it's my own idea or that of a God, then hit her with it, then a mirror curse happens to compare me to her like we are both to blame or that I'm being a hypocrite. All repeats of how we handled disputes before but where she is always the winner and an angel epically dabs on me or something. The mirror being used is one I previously used to manifest a reality in which I was the best magician on Earth as a sort of massive invasive attack against my very soul and any sense kf adventure or ambition.

I NEED HELP. I can barely do anything. I am hitting her and angels and thoughtforms with so much anti-Hebrew energy with visualization and itnworks enough to hurt them but not keep them away because of all the ice spells my mother put me in. If I even *THINK* of blessing myself, a Hebrew thoughtform or one she co-created with them will scream, wail and fucking holler so she can "perfectly counter" it (word for word shamelessly ripping my own intent off with a spell jar to curse me with it in an extremely semi-knowingly childish way) and fuck with me like she's 7 years old. Hebrew has its porogatives in being evil and parasitic and shit but even angels and sometimes Jesus oy vey'd at her over her conduct, intent, reasoning, etc. and I even had a few show me a vision of her geting stabbed by angels for breaking rules and being a disrespectful cunt.

She will force insults that she sends at me to feel like they matter in such a forceful way that it hurts. She can't stand that I don't care what she thinks of me and will brutally throttle and strangle my soul and Throat Chakra to stop me from having an inner world. No even negative, private opinions about her are okay because such privacy led me to JoS/ToZ in the first place and other things she hates.

I just really really really need a lot of help that I can't do for myself anymore.

Your mother did all this, but you did nothing wrong and you do everything perfectly
If you blame her, it won't get you far.
Besides, that's your mother, you know her by heart and you can fool her very easily if you feel controlled, you know when I was little I used to fool my mother to get certain things from her or the freedom to go out with friends, I mean I practically bewitched her through words and the conversations we had.
(if you are older the situation changes, now you are a man)
Thinking non-stop about your soul and energy and all kinds of things that attack you, my opinion is that it will hurt you.
Try to go out with your friends, talk to them, without thinking about your mother, about different attacks on your energy or your soul, change this reality a little, I guarantee you that you will forget about these "attacks" and you will laugh sincerely.

 

[JokerCard]

As has been said, you don't have to accept this torment. You have rights and this is parental abuse. She doesn't deserve to have you under her care.
Police usually will take the side of the parent if they have other relatives to back them up. Next time there is physical abuse report it to them, at least then it's on record. If you're still a minor then I would report her to child services, they usually take a more objective approach to the situation, and have the power to take you out of there.
Otherwise I would keep a more low profile until you get old enough to get a job and leave home.

Fighting Back

Thankfully the physical aspect is in the past, mostly aimed at my father and in a version of her that doesn't exist anymore unless certain curses have taken hold in volatile ways. I don't live with her and am kinda far away dealing with all this by myself. I am an adult, just desperate. She went very covert after a near death experience and tried to do some sort of 'start over' thing. Most of her abuse is metaphysical, like in the past she would secretly cast spells and pray with a sort of system she and angels made where she was controlling me and others with an actual spiritual/visualized video game with controls and inputs. I'm not sure what the purpose was, but thanks to the RTR's and my own efforts it's mostly dead now.

I feel like something very good happened this morning btw. I saw a vision of Hecate smiling very wide and had Set surround me in energy that felt like gigantic hugs. Successfully did a personal ritual without much fuss where there's usually a lot of enemy energy. Intense and very surreal. If anybody blessed me or did any spells or prayer for me because I made this thread, thank you and don't be afraid to stop or go harder. I pray that the Gods bless whoever blesses me and that my allies be rewarded.

I'm gonna look into the rest of the links and such when I have time. Thanks.

 

[Heimdall]

I have a better understanding of the situation now.
You seem to have some spiritual knowledge, albeit haphazard. I suggest you concentrate on a balanced program of meditation and aura cleaning/protection and be concerned about your own spiritual advancement.
Stop obsessing with the past and move on.