Need help too meditate

[loredanavoloc]

Hello. This is my first post in the group.
I've dedicated my soul to Father about 2 years ago. For 5 months I've been trying to meditate, but i can't seem to get the hang of it. I've been reading JoS, really trying hard to achieve a trance state, in front of a mirror, but all i could do is see my sorrounding in black and white or I see my surroundings in colors that dont blend. It's very hard to explain how I see when I try to medidate. Also, somethimes, I look in the mirror and it's like I'm covered in a black cloud and it blends me out of the mirror, like I'm not even there and once or twice i could see some eyes in this cloud and when I blink everything comes to normal. My eyes tear a lot when I see like this.
I've been keeping a journal in wich I try to talk directly to Father, I tell him about all that's happening in my life, goods and bads, I thank Him for the goods and ask for help for the bads. I tryed summoning a demon, asked for a sexual demon partener... but nothing happened. I keep trying and also, when I can't write to Father, I try to speack to Him in my mind. Even thou I didnt get any answer, I feel very connected to Him, bound.
I have so many questions about meditating since I've been trying like 5 month to achieve something. I feel I need some guidance in this. Am I doing it right, am I on the right path? How should you feel when meditating? How do you get in that trance state? How do you feel the energy? I've been reading JoS over and over again... I can't seem to find an answer. I need your help to advance in my relationship with Father. I turn to this group for help, I need the guidance of those who are more experienced than me. I'm keeping my hope alive and my desire to advance. Thank you in advance for your help. Hail Satan!
(I'm sorry for my language, my english spelling in not very good)

 

[Matt Kresel Kresel]

http://www.vovimbaghie.com/satanic-serm ... on-magick/ Read this sermon by HP Vovim, for it addresses your concern of meditation difficulty.
Tho I myself am still practicing on inducing a proper trance, i can tell you that if doing it in front of a mirror isn't working for you, try sitting in a chair (lying down is fine too, but you might just fall asleep)  http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... rance.html
As for summoning a Demon as a sexual partner, this takes time. Your Demon is probably there but your not open enough. You must have your astral eyes open to see them, your astral ears to hear them, and your astral touch must be developed to feel them. These can all be found in the meditation section.
You should probably adhere to a meditation program:http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ogram.html How do I feel energy? It's kinda hard to describe, I just feel it. At first it was a sort of 'awareness' either around my body or inside me....but now, it's like a physical pressure (for lack of better words). The foundation meditation is what really got me there, then built on with building an aura of protection.
However, your mirror experience could have indicated the successful descension into a light trance...maybe try it with your eyes closed?And don't forget the 6 month spiritual warfare training program you can download here

 

[Matt Kresel Kresel]

http://booksforsatanspeople.wordpress.com/

 

[Mike1]

Hey Lore
Sorry to read about Your problems, we all have to work out ours.
For example mine is that my head is now killing me. Every time I get deeper into meditation and I'm able to focus, my head starts to feel like a huge air pressured ballon with a knife stuck into my brain. Reaaly unpleasant experience.It wasn't that bad before, it was gradually worsening along with meditating.And that mirror thing... I don't know what it is but I experience it all the same as You. It's enough for me to stand in front of a mirror and stare into it only a few minutes and I start feeling different, can't describe it any better. Then, if I choose to focus even more, everything goes dark and I can see myself in the mirror as a mass of blackness, like a black smoke or cloud, with only eyes shining in this mass. At this point, I can feel my skin crawling and my hair standing straigh up. Also something like a faint electric pulse running through my body. I usually stop there and just leave the mirror be. But once I took it further. After some time I actually stopped seeing anything, as if I went blind or closed my eyes, even though I didn't. Everything became smeared, hazy and grey, as if I was seeing through a grey, thick fog. I started to feel dizzy and unpleasantly, almost like drugged or something. So I stopped here and did go any further ever.Afetrwards, for some time, I felt like mildly drunk, tipsy, with a light head and feeling... disonneteced from my body or as if I was partially somewhere else. Everybody were joking that I was walking around looking and acting like stoned.And of course I had to constantly ignore that fu***** headache... I'm getting tired of it already...
I meditate like three times a day, everyday, even when I'd just love to skip it. But I don't Trying to be a man of my word here. So far so good. My biggest problem with meditations, apart from that one mentioned above (and because of it I can't even properly focus on any chakra apart from the Crown and Sixth/Third Eye, as that pressure/pain keep my focus tied to the head) is that I can't really see any progress, apart from the head case getting worse.I keep pushing despite the odds but... if it got that bad already, can it be even worse? Guess I'll soon find out. My goddamn temples ache even now as I write it, some four hours later... And like You, I feel like I'm doing something wrong but for the life of me, I have no idea what that might be. Only after Hatha and Kundalini Yoga those symptoms ease for a while.
About trance... I don't think I have ever achevied it either. HPS Maxine wrote once that we should stop worring about it so much, as it will naturally come in time, given that we try to get there once in a while (I exercise enetering the trance once a week). And that we most probably actually were in a trance before and many more times than we could think of but we simply failed to recognize it. Can't remember now which sermon it was. Maybe someone else will paste a link to it.
Anyway, I don't plan to fail with becoming a God and neither should You, even though it feels... frustrating at times...
PS: At least You feel connected with Father, that is something you should cherish. Some people don't have even that...
Hail Satan and all the true Gods!
Hail Gods of War! 
/Mike
From: loredanavoloc <loredanavoloc@...
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Sent: Tuesday, February 21, 2012 5:14 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Need help too meditate

  Hello. This is my first post in the group.
I've dedicated my soul to Father about 2 years ago. For 5 months I've been trying to meditate, but i can't seem to get the hang of it. I've been reading JoS, really trying hard to achieve a trance state, in front of a mirror, but all i could do is see my sorrounding in black and white or I see my surroundings in colors that dont blend. It's very hard to explain how I see when I try to medidate. Also, somethimes, I look in the mirror and it's like I'm covered in a black cloud and it blends me out of the mirror, like I'm not even there and once or twice i could see some eyes in this cloud and when I blink everything comes to normal. My eyes tear a lot when I see like this.
I've been keeping a journal in wich I try to talk directly to Father, I tell him about all that's happening in my life, goods and bads, I thank Him for the goods and ask for help for the bads. I tryed summoning a demon, asked for a sexual demon partener... but nothing happened. I keep trying and also, when I can't write to Father, I try to speack to Him in my mind. Even thou I didnt get any answer, I feel very connected to Him, bound.
I have so many questions about meditating since I've been trying like 5 month to achieve something. I feel I need some guidance in this. Am I doing it right, am I on the right path? How should you feel when meditating? How do you get in that trance state? How do you feel the energy? I've been reading JoS over and over again... I can't seem to find an answer. I need your help to advance in my relationship with Father. I turn to this group for help, I need the guidance of those who are more experienced than me. I'm keeping my hope alive and my desire to advance. Thank you in advance for your help. Hail Satan!
(I'm sorry for my language, my english spelling in not very good)