need help/advice on dedication and i need it like SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hotstudman95]

sorry if the subject i put is too dramatic but as long as the message is clear i am sure its fine.

okay so here it is

i went shopping for dedication supplies today.

i got 2 red candles, 3 black ones, and like 4 blue ones.

question 1:

is this enough candles?

or too much?

is just fine?

and a candle lighter the kind for specifically lighting candles.

item 2:

a thumbtack for finger pricking. and yes i cleaned it so
it is sterile just so you all know.

item 3:
1 pack on blank paper. think this kind of paper is designed for copiers but its blank and i pretty sure its large enough for the prayer.

Item 4 and this i had at home already:

a feather. i think its from a crow or some kind of black bird of some type. i figured that would be easier than drying out a pen.

i love with multiple people by the way so i may have to wait until like 11pm or later. i figure as long as i do it before sunrise im okay.

if anything here i listed needs to be corrected tell me and SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[anaxium]

You can do the ritual at any time you like. You need to remember that its your intentions that count. It's okay to make a mistake here and there, so don't panic if you mess up a couple words or anything like that.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hotstudman95" <hotstudman95@... wrote:

sorry if the subject i put is too dramatic but as long as the message is clear i am sure its fine.

okay so here it is

i went shopping for dedication supplies today.

i got 2 red candles, 3 black ones, and like 4 blue ones.

question 1:

is this enough candles?

or too much?

is just fine?

and a candle lighter the kind for specifically lighting candles.

item 2:

a thumbtack for finger pricking. and yes i cleaned it so
it is sterile just so you all know.

item 3:
1 pack on blank paper. think this kind of paper is designed for copiers but its blank and i pretty sure its large enough for the prayer.

Item 4 and this i had at home already:

a feather. i think its from a crow or some kind of black bird of some type. i figured that would be easier than drying out a pen.

i love with multiple people by the way so i may have to wait until like 11pm or later. i figure as long as i do it before sunrise im okay.

if anything here i listed needs to be corrected tell me and SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Hot Guy]

well i got good news and bad news.
good news is that even though it was kinda painful i was able to draw blood with the thumbtack like item, lite the candles, say the words, and burn it and say hail Satan at the end of it.
bad news is i before that night lived in an adult family home in Redmond and apparently the burning set off the smoke detector.  i had to tell them what the heck i was doing as it felt like to me they were interrogating me when they asked me what i was doing.  my problem is i have anger issues and mood swings and that is basically what got me thrown out as when it comes to certain situations in life i am not good at handling tough situations well.  the problem is they took/saw me as threatening may have had something to do with it.
i was able to basically burn the paper and say hail satan before the smoke detector so even though the ritual was shorter than i thought i hope it still counted.

i am probably have to go to counseling and at some point for my anger issues and mood swings and find out an alternative to going online after next Wednesday is over as because of all this my only place of living is a hotel my family is temporarily paying for.  at this point if i do not do what others/ the state says for all i know they could take away various benefits (well as far as i know anyway) so i basically have to put up with allot of crap right now but for now i am making do okay.
my family like many families do not understand the concept of satanism and they think father is quote unquote evil.  so yeah me like many people cannot seem to convince others of the truth.  i only had to try and come clean about it all cuz i am under a tight leash with the state right now and all i really do not have a whole lot of options right now.  i do not care if certain family members hate me.  whether they do or not i still care about them a great deal.

to make matters worse as a result the care people at the place i live in are catholic so there is no chance in the world they are planning on giving me my candles and candle lighter back.  good news there is that those were hella cheap and can easily be replaced.  bad news here is that i do not know what the future holds for me as far as being financially stable goes so i do not know when i can replace it all anyhow.
also one thing i may mention in the future if where ever i end up in the future ever lets me go online again or lets me get a library card so i can do it at one of those places.  either that or seek the nearest internet cafe is another thing im considering.
anyway the thing i was thinking/mentioning is that at some point i should probably look into getting one of those astral temple things your site mentions.  i mean i hear you can even have them outside if you want i think (correct me if i am wrong).

so overall i have been going through some tough times right now and i could use all the support i can get right now.  anything from a few prayers to pretty much everything and whatever else is greatly appreciated.
thanks a bunch and remember whatever happens with me in the future i will never forget you all here at the wonderful place that is the JOS.


HAIL SATAN

From: anaxium <anaxium@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, December 19, 2011 11:28 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: need help/advice on dedication and i need it like SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  You can do the ritual at any time you like. You need to remember that its your intentions that count. It's okay to make a mistake here and there, so don't panic if you mess up a couple words or anything like that.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hotstudman95" <hotstudman95@... wrote:

sorry if the subject i put is too dramatic but as long as the message is clear i am sure its fine.

okay so here it is

i went shopping for dedication supplies today.

i got 2 red candles, 3 black ones, and like 4 blue ones.

question 1:

is this enough candles?

or too much?

is just fine?

and a candle lighter the kind for specifically lighting candles.

item 2:

a thumbtack for finger pricking. and yes i cleaned it so
it is sterile just so you all know.

item 3:
1 pack on blank paper. think this kind of paper is designed for copiers but its blank and i pretty sure its large enough for the prayer.

Item 4 and this i had at home already:

a feather. i think its from a crow or some kind of black bird of some type. i figured that would be easier than drying out a pen.

i love with multiple people by the way so i may have to wait until like 11pm or later. i figure as long as i do it before sunrise im okay.

if anything here i listed needs to be corrected tell me and SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Matt Kresel Kresel]

Get through this however you need to, say what they want to hear, its what's truly in your heart that Father cares about. 
Words barely mean shit, its the action and the honest-to-heart intentions that count. I do hope you make it through this.
And while (if) ur in counseling for your anger issues, you should also practice 'void meditation'. It's easy, can be done anywhere, and can help one gain control of their emotions and remain calm in situations while others panic. 
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html
Hope this helps!!
Keep faith in Satan always and forever.
HAIL SATAN!!!!

 

[Hot Guy]

well i do have anger issues/impulse control problems with some situations in life and that's no lie.
hey just tellin the truth here
i am going to check the jos site on this i am not only new to meditation but new to spirituality and all that but know this.  i am doing my best in using all my free time i got left ot research more on this part to start with.  so for me i am going to later check that out and see what i can do and start with beginners meditation and work my way up from there.
i gotta sleep now but by the time i wake up and everyone responded to this reply i will be researching this more have no doubt.
i am doing my best to start learning the basics of everything so far and by the time i wake up this is what i be researching/doing.  well that and listening to some tunes online.

From: Matt Kresel Kresel <kreselm.lhs@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, December 25, 2011 3:41 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: good news and bad news

  Get through this however you need to, say what they want to hear, its what's truly in your heart that Father cares about. 
Words barely mean shit, its the action and the honest-to-heart intentions that count. I do hope you make it through this.
And while (if) ur in counseling for your anger issues, you should also practice 'void meditation'. It's easy, can be done anywhere, and can help one gain control of their emotions and remain calm in situations while others panic. 
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html
Hope this helps!!
Keep faith in Satan always and forever.
HAIL SATAN!!!!

 

[Matt Kresel Kresel]

Yes, of course, start a begginners meditation program, i did the same thing. Also, if you ever find yourself having difficulties starting meditations, understand that it's completely normal and you should push through it as HP Baghie says here: http://www.vovimbaghie.com/satanic-serm ... on-magick/
*When you do something 21 days in a row with no break, it becomes a habit

Music is a good way to vent as well. Try physical excercise as well, like running or boxing (b4 coming to Satan, sometimes when I got angry I punched the wall....still got some holes in it, and I wouldn't recomend the wall cuz i broke my knuckle doing such, so that's why I suggest a punching bag or something of equivalence) 

 

[Hot Guy]

my homework for now is as follows.  read over JOS group messages and write as many as possible down as i am not sure if i will have online access in the future and plus to boot even if i do i am not sure if i will have printer access (not like i ever had printer access anyhow so that may not be too big of a deal).
someone here mentioned to me in messenger chat that i should get a journal.  well i am thinking of doing two things in response to that.  one is to get something to use as a journal and two is to get another thing i can use as a notebook.
i may be able to copy and paste some of the group topics and jos site stuff onto documents so i can read over it later which in turn will be of great use to me incase im offline in the future or in my case if im online but the state thinks i need fucking supervision like some damn kid (pardon my french lolz).
but if i can do that with the meditation stuff then i can probably get started on that sooner than anything else.

From: Matt Kresel Kresel <kreselm.lhs@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, December 26, 2011 8:19 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: good news and bad news

  Yes, of course, start a begginners meditation program, i did the same thing. Also, if you ever find yourself having difficulties starting meditations, understand that it's completely normal and you should push through it as HP Baghie says here: http://www.vovimbaghie.com/satanic-sermons/reasons-for-beginning-struggles-with-meditation-magick/
*When you do something 21 days in a row with no break, it becomes a habit

Music is a good way to vent as well. Try physical excercise as well, like running or boxing (b4 coming to Satan, sometimes when I got angry I punched the wall....still got some holes in it, and I wouldn't recomend the wall cuz i broke my knuckle doing such, so that's why I suggest a punching bag or something of equivalence)