Hi again brothers and sisters,
I'm sure I will find useful answers here, so let's start:
I read an article on your site about astral projection (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ction.html). Since I've bee n struggling to find a good method to AP, I tried that one; right the first time I used it, seemed to work..,
Anyway, after 2 years of various techniques and tries to lucid dream and astral projection, I had several vivid dreams, about 7 lucid dreams and ONLY 1 real astral projection (in which I FELT my astral body leaving the physical body)...I don't know whether fears are the main problem, because after about 7 YEARS of frightening experiences I think I can handle those...
I first had a frightening experience during one night when I was about 12 (now I'm 20) didn't knew ANYTHING at all about astral projection or dreams: some strange shadow was next to my bed, I couldn't move and saw inside my field of vision, with my eyes CLOSED, a flash of light and a shadow of a dark Medievval "knight" inside it.
From then on, I have had a few other frightening expperiences during the night (last happened THIS NIGHT), with strange shadows, UFOs and ghosts.. And I also went into depression.
But going to th einteresting part, I think that some part of my mind or body want to rebel against my will to have OBEs: my nostrils are a bit obstructed though I practice nose cleansing, I feel lazy toward almost everything, I just would want to sleep all day and all night, I feel itchy when I try to relax my body...
HERE'S THE IMPORTANT PART: I' ve been very confused lately and feel quite angry even when I try to clean my aura... After some months of practicing self-hypnosis, meditation and kundalini yoga, I started practicing Satanic meditations: the results are amazing, I can see some sparks of light on my hands and feel some of my energy moving where I want It to go; I can sense my energy on the part of my body I look at; yET, I still can't get my astral body out??
Also, I masturbated a lot during the last days (especially for meditation) and I used the PC muscle a lot. LAst night I awoke and it kept contracting; I "asked" the muscle what it wanted to tell me (sounds silly? XD) and it did 3 little contractions; then I felt some energy going from the muscle to my intestines, and then out of my body as air...
so the questions are:
1. Should I keep on trying to astral Project or should I take care of other aspects for the moment? I really WANT TO be in and see the Astral World especially for self-gratification, but also to learn what I should do in this moment of my life
2.as regards sexual and physical stress, do You think my experiences are something to worry about?
Thank You .:.
Hail SATAN!!
I'm sure I will find useful answers here, so let's start:
I read an article on your site about astral projection (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ction.html). Since I've bee n struggling to find a good method to AP, I tried that one; right the first time I used it, seemed to work..,
Anyway, after 2 years of various techniques and tries to lucid dream and astral projection, I had several vivid dreams, about 7 lucid dreams and ONLY 1 real astral projection (in which I FELT my astral body leaving the physical body)...I don't know whether fears are the main problem, because after about 7 YEARS of frightening experiences I think I can handle those...
I first had a frightening experience during one night when I was about 12 (now I'm 20) didn't knew ANYTHING at all about astral projection or dreams: some strange shadow was next to my bed, I couldn't move and saw inside my field of vision, with my eyes CLOSED, a flash of light and a shadow of a dark Medievval "knight" inside it.
From then on, I have had a few other frightening expperiences during the night (last happened THIS NIGHT), with strange shadows, UFOs and ghosts.. And I also went into depression.
But going to th einteresting part, I think that some part of my mind or body want to rebel against my will to have OBEs: my nostrils are a bit obstructed though I practice nose cleansing, I feel lazy toward almost everything, I just would want to sleep all day and all night, I feel itchy when I try to relax my body...
HERE'S THE IMPORTANT PART: I' ve been very confused lately and feel quite angry even when I try to clean my aura... After some months of practicing self-hypnosis, meditation and kundalini yoga, I started practicing Satanic meditations: the results are amazing, I can see some sparks of light on my hands and feel some of my energy moving where I want It to go; I can sense my energy on the part of my body I look at; yET, I still can't get my astral body out??
Also, I masturbated a lot during the last days (especially for meditation) and I used the PC muscle a lot. LAst night I awoke and it kept contracting; I "asked" the muscle what it wanted to tell me (sounds silly? XD) and it did 3 little contractions; then I felt some energy going from the muscle to my intestines, and then out of my body as air...
so the questions are:
1. Should I keep on trying to astral Project or should I take care of other aspects for the moment? I really WANT TO be in and see the Astral World especially for self-gratification, but also to learn what I should do in this moment of my life
2.as regards sexual and physical stress, do You think my experiences are something to worry about?
Thank You .:.
Hail SATAN!!
