What is the best way to stay safe and the best ways to strike back inside a church? a pentacostal church to be specific. I have already dedicated myself years ago.
Im infiltrating it to disrupt its growth and trying to save a girl that was adopted by the reverend just a couple weeks ago. she can tell im different and comes to sit beside me every chance she has. she isnt fucked up yet but she has had a hard life and doesnt deserve their bullshit and doesnt want it...yet. although the fucks are insidious.
I can tell they feel one that isnt theirs in their midst but im positively sure they dont know its me or if they understand it past a uncomfortable sensation.
the rest is hard to explain so please excuse my lack of articulation.-
when I was there they were all praying in a circle and I was hanging back observing when they brought me to the front and I "let" them annoint me. this is when they stand in a circle and pray while touching each other towards one person in the center(me) through the reverend. as they were doing this I closed my eyes and went inside my "meditation place"(what I see when I meditate) to steel myself against whatever they were trying to do. It was the only time I ever "felt" darkness there, and my thoughts slowly started becoming staticy(almost like the snow on a tv channel with no input) until I almost lost myself. I couldnt remeber what I liked or didnt and felt like...I was slipping away from myself. it got so bad all I could do was recite words like freedom or willpower and picturing them in my head and they slowed down the process but didnt stop it, until I embraced all the hate for them and the crimes their kind commit and thought of Satan, Erobos, and Hagenti and threw as much strength as I could muster into calling him and whatever demons I carry with me for help. I came back to myself and my mindscape was red-hued and full of fire, wind and my mind felt free and crystal clear(I hope thats a good sign). after about 15 or 20 seconds the pastor and a few others were stumbling and choking over their "words"(all 18 of them and the reverend and head preacher were praying in tongues) and I noticed less people were touching me(could touch me?).
So can anybody shed light on what happened and what it means? am I compromised? cursed(by "heaven")? blessed(by hell)?
something else I recently have done which I believe may have bearing on this event: I and 2 "christians"(un-devout, dont pray or worship or go to church) used an ouji board and during the session christian #1 asked if demons were in the room and it responded yes. christian #2 asked if it was only one and it said no. I asked politely if they were attached to one of the people in the room. it said yes, and christian #1 asked the name of who they were attached to and it spelled out charl befoe christian #1 stopped it(my name is charles). then christian #2 asked the names of the demons and it spelled out legion. christian #1 ran and #2 swiftly followed. I stayed and asked politely if any were willing to reveal their names to me. The first was Orobas. I looked him up on the list and my birtday and sign(capricorn) coincides perfectly(bday is on 24th).I dont think its coincidence. the second name was Hagenti, and when I later came to sleep downstairs all 9 cats were huddled around the exact center of where the ouji borad was. (I didnt get any further because a mormon bitch came dowstairs and broke the board and threw it away right after I got Hagentis name.)
any opinions and insights on the above ouji board incident would be greatly appreciated as well.
Im infiltrating it to disrupt its growth and trying to save a girl that was adopted by the reverend just a couple weeks ago. she can tell im different and comes to sit beside me every chance she has. she isnt fucked up yet but she has had a hard life and doesnt deserve their bullshit and doesnt want it...yet. although the fucks are insidious.
I can tell they feel one that isnt theirs in their midst but im positively sure they dont know its me or if they understand it past a uncomfortable sensation.
the rest is hard to explain so please excuse my lack of articulation.-
when I was there they were all praying in a circle and I was hanging back observing when they brought me to the front and I "let" them annoint me. this is when they stand in a circle and pray while touching each other towards one person in the center(me) through the reverend. as they were doing this I closed my eyes and went inside my "meditation place"(what I see when I meditate) to steel myself against whatever they were trying to do. It was the only time I ever "felt" darkness there, and my thoughts slowly started becoming staticy(almost like the snow on a tv channel with no input) until I almost lost myself. I couldnt remeber what I liked or didnt and felt like...I was slipping away from myself. it got so bad all I could do was recite words like freedom or willpower and picturing them in my head and they slowed down the process but didnt stop it, until I embraced all the hate for them and the crimes their kind commit and thought of Satan, Erobos, and Hagenti and threw as much strength as I could muster into calling him and whatever demons I carry with me for help. I came back to myself and my mindscape was red-hued and full of fire, wind and my mind felt free and crystal clear(I hope thats a good sign). after about 15 or 20 seconds the pastor and a few others were stumbling and choking over their "words"(all 18 of them and the reverend and head preacher were praying in tongues) and I noticed less people were touching me(could touch me?).
So can anybody shed light on what happened and what it means? am I compromised? cursed(by "heaven")? blessed(by hell)?
something else I recently have done which I believe may have bearing on this event: I and 2 "christians"(un-devout, dont pray or worship or go to church) used an ouji board and during the session christian #1 asked if demons were in the room and it responded yes. christian #2 asked if it was only one and it said no. I asked politely if they were attached to one of the people in the room. it said yes, and christian #1 asked the name of who they were attached to and it spelled out charl befoe christian #1 stopped it(my name is charles). then christian #2 asked the names of the demons and it spelled out legion. christian #1 ran and #2 swiftly followed. I stayed and asked politely if any were willing to reveal their names to me. The first was Orobas. I looked him up on the list and my birtday and sign(capricorn) coincides perfectly(bday is on 24th).I dont think its coincidence. the second name was Hagenti, and when I later came to sleep downstairs all 9 cats were huddled around the exact center of where the ouji borad was. (I didnt get any further because a mormon bitch came dowstairs and broke the board and threw it away right after I got Hagentis name.)
any opinions and insights on the above ouji board incident would be greatly appreciated as well.