Nearly 2 years Dedicated, need some guidance, Please Read.

[Satanic_viking]

Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.

 

[Mariana Mariana]

What you are experiencing happens to us all Brother. Like a tide We find ourselves moving forward and backwards, but always again forwards.

Sometimes this can be contributed to our desire to learn and to progress. In some areas We progress rapidly, in others We take more time. When We go through a time of great progress, a slower process to follow can seem like a withdrawal by comparison.

Another thing that can influence a feeling of loosing ground or "Spiritual Weariness" is a lack of meaningful repetition of the basics, and perhaps just as importantly someone else to talk to them about. When We are in communication with each other We discuss more frequently and Our thoughts are in tune with each other, We promote each others encouragement and We progress Faster this way. Covens work well for supporting individual strengths and working to remove individual weakness.

A good example of this is perhaps the last week or so while I have myself not been on the groups or reading through the posts due to personal reasons, outside influence. I have found myself distracted from my thoughts, forced through situation to deal with those things concerning the world Without. We become separated, the "group" conscious fades and through a process of divide and conquer, more often than not we conquer ourselves. I know I am My Greatest obstacle when I am divided by distraction.

Meditation, repetition of all you have learnt and continue to learn is the foundation of a strong Focus.

Another way to see this is for those of us who are perhaps a fair bit older, years from school or college. I know I learnt many things at school, but I do not remember the greater
majority. The reason for this is a lack of reinforcement, no repetition or continuous practice.
It is one thing to learn something, it is another to do something without having to remember.

As for your friends who are turning to xianity, this is not your doing or your failure. They are desperate in the Halls of the False Divinity. They are casting their hooks and their lures in every direction in a time of uncertainty and perceived hopelessness. You would not be surprised by the amount of people who turn to a fictional savior when stripped of the prospect of Life without chains, and so they chain themselves to a new master, a slave to a different Fear.

Couple this with tales of the Apocalypse and impending Doom for mankind, however real or perceived and the shepherd of slaves gathers new flock. But not with Faith, with Promise. There is a great difference. Faith holds, promises do not.

You are here, amongst friends Brother. When Our own Faith seems unsteady We are each others steadfast stability.

Hail Satan!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Satanic_viking" <hecktic_shadow@... wrote:

Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.

 

[whatshisface117]

I can relate to all of this with the exception of reaching the Kundali meditations.

I dedicated nearly two years ago aswell, and I have been rocky going on and off again with meditations... Tonight I plan to get more work done again, its all about self motivation I believe...

I do take alot of comfort in the fact Father mentioned to you he is not extremely sad or anrgy with you for falling out of focus, makes me feel alot better about myself and motivates me to try to stay consistnant with my meditations. For the longest time I've felt that I've really let Father down by not meditating frequently as I should, and the guilt has been tearing me up, maybe he really is extremely disapointed in me... I can only hope that the feelings of guilt and his disapointment will subside when I get farther and start working harder in my meditations again...

As far as the xtian friend problem goes... I wouldn't be hurt or suprised if any of my friends tried what they did to you, I would just be offended and tell them to knock it off or I would just stop communicating with them and being your friend. I don't have to many friends that are xtian actually, Fortunately most of my closest and most personal friends are agnostic or athiest. We have alot of laughs at the expence xtianity and its bullshit, despite the fact they don't really understand EVERYTHING that is wrong with it...


-Hail Father, Lord Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Satanic_viking" <hecktic_shadow@... wrote:

Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.

 

[Amanda Steiner]

<td val[/IMG]i understand this very well. it is the story of the past 3 years of my life. i know what it is like to fall out of focus, but don't let that discourage you. it was hard for me to get back to where i used to be, but with persistance you will achieve your old status.   as for your friend, i'm not sure what to tell you. i have made an effort to keep my beliefs hidden from most. i understand how damaging it can be not being able to trust your friends, but this is reality. the sad truth of the matter is that for some, no amount of reason can get them to change their ways or end their menipulation of your beliefs. the best you can do is stay true to yourself and stay true to Father Satan, the rest will follow suit.   its not much, but i hope this has helped you.   Hail Satan!

--- On Mon, 10/5/09, Satanic_viking <hecktic_shadow@... wrote:

From: Satanic_viking <hecktic_shadow@...
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Nearly 2 years Dedicated, need some guidance, Please Read.
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, October 5, 2009, 9:04 AM

  Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.

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[SLADE_666]

I agree completely,I find myself "slacking" sometimes too.
The thing is we sometimes forget the basics,while we should always do it again.Just like a musician never forgets his basics by repetition of it,every now and then.Its the same with every great martial art practitioner.

You have said it really good brother.
Inspirational even.

Hail Satan !

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Ouroboros" <ouroboros.anundr@... wrote:

What you are experiencing happens to us all Brother. Like a tide We find ourselves moving forward and backwards, but always again forwards.

Sometimes this can be contributed to our desire to learn and to progress. In some areas We progress rapidly, in others We take more time. When We go through a time of great progress, a slower process to follow can seem like a withdrawal by comparison.

Another thing that can influence a feeling of loosing ground or "Spiritual Weariness" is a lack of meaningful repetition of the basics, and perhaps just as importantly someone else to talk to them about. When We are in communication with each other We discuss more frequently and Our thoughts are in tune with each other, We promote each others encouragement and We progress Faster this way. Covens work well for supporting individual strengths and working to remove individual weakness.

A good example of this is perhaps the last week or so while I have myself not been on the groups or reading through the posts due to personal reasons, outside influence. I have found myself distracted from my thoughts, forced through situation to deal with those things concerning the world Without. We become separated, the "group" conscious fades and through a process of divide and conquer, more often than not we conquer ourselves. I know I am My Greatest obstacle when I am divided by distraction.

Meditation, repetition of all you have learnt and continue to learn is the foundation of a strong Focus.

Another way to see this is for those of us who are perhaps a fair bit older, years from school or college. I know I learnt many things at school, but I do not remember the greater
majority. The reason for this is a lack of reinforcement, no repetition or continuous practice.
It is one thing to learn something, it is another to do something without having to remember.

As for your friends who are turning to xianity, this is not your doing or your failure. They are desperate in the Halls of the False Divinity. They are casting their hooks and their lures in every direction in a time of uncertainty and perceived hopelessness. You would not be surprised by the amount of people who turn to a fictional savior when stripped of the prospect of Life without chains, and so they chain themselves to a new master, a slave to a different Fear.

Couple this with tales of the Apocalypse and impending Doom for mankind, however real or perceived and the shepherd of slaves gathers new flock. But not with Faith, with Promise. There is a great difference. Faith holds, promises do not.

You are here, amongst friends Brother. When Our own Faith seems unsteady We are each others steadfast stability.

Hail Satan!!


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Satanic_viking" <hecktic_shadow@ wrote:

Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.

 

[kk_kkk55]

greetings,brother in Satan
I want to tell you that as soon as I dedicated myself to Father,I wanted my friends to know,I wanted to share with them my new life.The result?Most of them turned away from me,some with fear,some laughing at me,like I was some kind of freak.(although they are freaks in so many ways,ways that I used to accept as a friend-that's what are friends for)
I don't give a lousy fuck about this fact,and you should do the same.We all have,after all,the best friend there is:Father Satan.

HAIL SATAN

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Satanic_viking" <hecktic_shadow@... wrote:

Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.

 

[sarah_deesse]

I feel for you. I went through a similiar experience last year as far as falling off on my meditations and feeling unworthy to be called a Satanist. Part of it was also feeling abandoned by the Gods, since I had been evicted from my room-share situation due to the roommate being a Christian, and I'd thought I was protected in that matter. I went into a period of severe depression because of these guilty and negative feelings. After a while it lifted enough for me to start going again to a local Satanist meetup. The friends I made there made me realize that Satan had forgiven me, and I did a thanksgiving ritual painting to celebrate that. I am right now meditating and talking to the Gods as much as I can. One thing that helped was a dream I had a month or so ago where Lucifer told me I was getting stronger and therefore would face attacks from outside. And that made me realize that a lot of the negative thoughts I'd believed were mine were actually coming from outside of me.

There was a time in my life several years ago where I meditated for hours every day and was very, very close to raising the Kundalini--I wasn't a Satanist yet at that time--I backed down and stopped meditating for a while out of fear--biggest regret of my life. But I am getting back to that point.

The moral of this story? Well, first of all, the other posters are right on the money--hooking up with other Satanists is crucial. A community of faith draws power from each other. And second of all, steady meditation practice brings the fastest progress, but what is lost can be regained--it's just frustrating because it takes more time. And third of all, you will get attacked by the enemy because of your dedication to Satan, but if you stay focused and don't believe the lies you can defend yourself and give back as good as you get.

As for your friend: he is not respecting what you believe. You were right to give him that ultimatum. The next time he tries that shit I'd say fight fire with fire--show him the proof that Christianity is poisonous bullshit. And send him Satanic energy to break through the chains. I have a feeling that his conversion won't last--it's hard to keep believing in patent bullshit. In the meantime stay strong and know that there is a deep bond of love between us and Satan. Your friend will see that in you. It will help him to break free.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Satanic_viking" <hecktic_shadow@... wrote:

Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.

 

[Satanic_viking]

Thanks alot, these messages have been really uplifting and helpful. I don't have any Satanists around me that i can meet up with, Only being 18 (in 2 days lol) and living in a quiet area. But coming here and talking things out on these forums is still good.

Thanks again all.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "sarah_deesse" <rockharp@... wrote:

I feel for you. I went through a similiar experience last year as far as falling off on my meditations and feeling unworthy to be called a Satanist. Part of it was also feeling abandoned by the Gods, since I had been evicted from my room-share situation due to the roommate being a Christian, and I'd thought I was protected in that matter. I went into a period of severe depression because of these guilty and negative feelings. After a while it lifted enough for me to start going again to a local Satanist meetup. The friends I made there made me realize that Satan had forgiven me, and I did a thanksgiving ritual painting to celebrate that. I am right now meditating and talking to the Gods as much as I can. One thing that helped was a dream I had a month or so ago where Lucifer told me I was getting stronger and therefore would face attacks from outside. And that made me realize that a lot of the negative thoughts I'd believed were mine were actually coming from outside of me.

There was a time in my life several years ago where I meditated for hours every day and was very, very close to raising the Kundalini--I wasn't a Satanist yet at that time--I backed down and stopped meditating for a while out of fear--biggest regret of my life. But I am getting back to that point.

The moral of this story? Well, first of all, the other posters are right on the money--hooking up with other Satanists is crucial. A community of faith draws power from each other. And second of all, steady meditation practice brings the fastest progress, but what is lost can be regained--it's just frustrating because it takes more time. And third of all, you will get attacked by the enemy because of your dedication to Satan, but if you stay focused and don't believe the lies you can defend yourself and give back as good as you get.

As for your friend: he is not respecting what you believe. You were right to give him that ultimatum. The next time he tries that shit I'd say fight fire with fire--show him the proof that Christianity is poisonous bullshit. And send him Satanic energy to break through the chains. I have a feeling that his conversion won't last--it's hard to keep believing in patent bullshit. In the meantime stay strong and know that there is a deep bond of love between us and Satan. Your friend will see that in you. It will help him to break free.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Satanic_viking" <hecktic_shadow@ wrote:

Hails Brothers and Sisters!

It's been a while since I wrote on these forums. I just feel I need to talk, or let stuff out. (sorry for the length)

I dedicated my soul to Father Enki on my 16th birthday, woah! thats 2 years this sunday. At about December 2007 I did a ritual and prayer to Satan to help me with my progression, to give me power, I prayed for guidance on what I was ment to do. He told me "It shall be done".
About a month later I had found who my Guardian was (Enlil), was freaquently communicating with them and other Gods, and was meditating every night. I remember I was working on practicing sending energy up my spine in preperation for the Kundalini serpent. What I'm getting at is that I was progressing fast and rather well.
Then by about mid 2008, I started to stop meditating every so often, and then that became more frequent, and got to the point where I would try one night and fall asleep and feel frustrated, and not do it again for another week, and then into the terrible habit of not doing it at all. This has been going on ever since. Sometimes I try to meditate but or work with energy, but get nowhere, only loosing my concentration or falling asleep.

I have tried talking to Satan, and I did get a message from him through a dream telling me that he is not sad in me for falling out of focus (seeing I had been worrying about it alot, and asked him about it). But when I try to hold a conversation with him or any of the Gods, I can't seem to concentrate for long enough and can't keep the connection with him. And it is very frustrating concidering where I used to be at.
I've recently started saying "Hail Satan And Praise all the Trued Gods of Old" every night before I go to sleep. And have been noticing that i've started to be attacked again everynow and then.

Another thing that has happened, Satan braught to me, or at least I beleive it was Satan, a girl, whome I now love very much, as much as Satan, and would do anything for her. But it gets hard at times becuase I feel the enemy are trying to attack me through her. The other night she wasnt feeling well and was feeling drained and tired. So I asked her about anything going on, she told me that her brother had recently started getting heavily into christianity and had found him early one morning reading a bible. And this worried me and so I was able to put a weak protective aura around her to stop those negative influences. But I know soon it wont be enough.

Tonight one of my close friends, well at least I thought, who has recently decided that christianity is where is life is, and I agreed to respect that as long as he respected me and my beleifs. Tonight he sent me some stupid youtube video of some disgusting christian sending out a warning message about how 'Satan is decieving' and their sacrifice of a saviour will save them, and was tell me how he was worried about me. And then he sent me another video of some guy who had joined some BS cult as a teen and had apparently gotten 'demons put in him' and how 'god' saved him and all that shit. I was really hurt that my really close friend would do this to me, and its upset me that he wants me to turn away from Satan. I've told him that he has to choose between having me as a friend or trying to force me to turn away from my True Creator Satan. He said he wants to respect what I beleive. But its only a matter of time before he starts again.

Anyway, I don't honestly know what this message's purpose is, I suppose I just wanted to get that off my chest and to get it out to some people that might understand how I feel. Any replys will be greatly appreciated.

Always in Satan's Name, En Haradren Amlug.

Hail Satan! Hail Enlil! Praise the True Gods of Old!

I just feel really bad that I've fallen out of focus of my progression and away from Father Satan. And I don't know what I can do to get back to it, I really want to, but just can't seem to get it working.