Allison Passino
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Who is Satan to me, and what has he done for me, in my life? Both very
good questions, which I will attempt to answer here. Though, it is
hard to put these things into words. That's why I write poetry to
Satan and some of the other Gods, because it's easier for me to
encapsulate my feelings thus.
I dedicated in 2008, on Beltane night. I did not feel anything
particularly earth-shattering upon dedicating my soul to Lord Satan;
those feelings came afterword. But I was certainly happy that I had
done it. I felt calm and peaceful, like part of my life had finally
slotted into place. I'd been several months deciding whether or not to
perform the rite; I wanted to make sure I was doing the right thing
for me. I'd played around with various religions in my childhood,
never really committing to any of them. Buddhism, wicca...none were
for me. I had though, as a young child, been fascinated with the idea
of magic, and my later interest in buddhism stemmed from a fascination
with psychic powers.
When I read the Jos site, something in me just clicked. I knew that
what Maxine said was all true, somehow. And as I read, and listened to
her audio sermons, I came to love Satan, though I didn't really know
him at that point. Looking back, I Now realize, though I didn't
before, that in all my long search, I had been seeking my God, my
deity. I wished to have a friend in whom I could confide, one who
would not judge me and who would offer me comfort and wisdom. This is
what Satan/Enki offered me. I see him as my Father, my Lord, and
Master. When I say "Master", I use it in the Oriental sense; he is my
teacher, and he has taught me things and will continue to do so. He is
my friend and my mentor. Satan, unlike the fictitious nazarene, is
truly the great counselor and comforter. He not only gives comfort and
solace, but also teaches us to rise above and become as he is,
deathless and eternal. He does not wish us to bow before him like
slaves, but to stand proudly and upright, at his side.
What changes has he wrought in my life? Well, for starters, he has
made me more confident, though I do still suffer from shyness. I have
been, and always will be I think, a bit of an introvert. But father
Satan has given me much more confidence than I once had, and for this
I am truly grateful. Also, he has opened me up to new facets of my
personality; because of him I now write poetry, where I used to
despise it. Now that I have something to write about from my soul,
however, I love it. It is a wonderful way of expressing my love for
him.
On the physical side, he has brought me together with my boyfriend. My
partner is not a Satanist, sadly, but I am ever hopeful that he will
one day come to know my Lord Enki as I do. I asked Father, informally
without a ritual, to lead me to the person who was right for me, and
this he has done. Satan has done other things for me, but they are
more subtle, and I will not go into them here. For all that he has
done for me, I am eternally grateful! He is truly the best Father and
friend that I could want, and I will always be at his side. There's a
reason Maxine named her ministry the "Joy of Satan". It is because, in
the end, Satan is about joy and love, living one's life to its
fullest, and growing into the person we were meant to be. That is the
Joy of Satan.
good questions, which I will attempt to answer here. Though, it is
hard to put these things into words. That's why I write poetry to
Satan and some of the other Gods, because it's easier for me to
encapsulate my feelings thus.
I dedicated in 2008, on Beltane night. I did not feel anything
particularly earth-shattering upon dedicating my soul to Lord Satan;
those feelings came afterword. But I was certainly happy that I had
done it. I felt calm and peaceful, like part of my life had finally
slotted into place. I'd been several months deciding whether or not to
perform the rite; I wanted to make sure I was doing the right thing
for me. I'd played around with various religions in my childhood,
never really committing to any of them. Buddhism, wicca...none were
for me. I had though, as a young child, been fascinated with the idea
of magic, and my later interest in buddhism stemmed from a fascination
with psychic powers.
When I read the Jos site, something in me just clicked. I knew that
what Maxine said was all true, somehow. And as I read, and listened to
her audio sermons, I came to love Satan, though I didn't really know
him at that point. Looking back, I Now realize, though I didn't
before, that in all my long search, I had been seeking my God, my
deity. I wished to have a friend in whom I could confide, one who
would not judge me and who would offer me comfort and wisdom. This is
what Satan/Enki offered me. I see him as my Father, my Lord, and
Master. When I say "Master", I use it in the Oriental sense; he is my
teacher, and he has taught me things and will continue to do so. He is
my friend and my mentor. Satan, unlike the fictitious nazarene, is
truly the great counselor and comforter. He not only gives comfort and
solace, but also teaches us to rise above and become as he is,
deathless and eternal. He does not wish us to bow before him like
slaves, but to stand proudly and upright, at his side.
What changes has he wrought in my life? Well, for starters, he has
made me more confident, though I do still suffer from shyness. I have
been, and always will be I think, a bit of an introvert. But father
Satan has given me much more confidence than I once had, and for this
I am truly grateful. Also, he has opened me up to new facets of my
personality; because of him I now write poetry, where I used to
despise it. Now that I have something to write about from my soul,
however, I love it. It is a wonderful way of expressing my love for
him.
On the physical side, he has brought me together with my boyfriend. My
partner is not a Satanist, sadly, but I am ever hopeful that he will
one day come to know my Lord Enki as I do. I asked Father, informally
without a ritual, to lead me to the person who was right for me, and
this he has done. Satan has done other things for me, but they are
more subtle, and I will not go into them here. For all that he has
done for me, I am eternally grateful! He is truly the best Father and
friend that I could want, and I will always be at his side. There's a
reason Maxine named her ministry the "Joy of Satan". It is because, in
the end, Satan is about joy and love, living one's life to its
fullest, and growing into the person we were meant to be. That is the
Joy of Satan.
