I apologize for wasting your time. Today is the anniversary of the Dedication of my soul to Satan. It is actually the eighth year for me. It is not the exact day. Eight years ago I wanted to research Satan. Whenever I typed "Satanism" on the web or in the cell phone app store, I always came up with macabre and nonsensical things.
One morning I turned my attention to Satan and prayed to him and asked if he could manifest himself to me because I was tired of only being able to find stupid things by searching Satanism online. At that moment the name of the (old) Italian itajos site came up in my mind. I remembered that it was not a random name, but a name of a Satanism site that when I was a kid I saw mentioned in one of the many Yahoo! Answer questions. The Yahoo post was about a method for remembering dreams. It was nothing macabre or bad so I googled and read a few basic things about the site.
I didn't really understand anything about what was written in it because I read it in a really superficial and hasty way. Some of it was totally at odds with what I always thought I knew about Satan and so I didn't even believe it. But that was mentally speaking. On a soul level it was completely different. On a soul level what the site contained was so attractive, beautiful and sacred to me that even without really understanding anything about it, I rushed out and bought a blue birthday candle (I was not a candle expert, I didn't know there was anything other than the candles my mother used for cakes) and dedicated my soul that very evening.
After some time studying more I discovered that by coincidence I had dedicated exactly on the day of Imbolc that is used for initiations. But at that time I had no idea. And nothing more. Even on my birthdays I don't feel so happy. Today is really a day of active happiness for me. I feel VERY joyful.
THANK YOU GODS FOR ACCEPTING ME!
THANK YOU SATANISTS FOR BEING MY FAMILY!