I awoke this morning very early at around 4am after ANOTHER unsuccessful attempt at astral projection. I was very tired and still depressed [see my other post] and so I decided to have a - private moment (use your imagination)!
(BEFORE that I was just searching about the kundalini and listening to some classical and metal)
I decided to do some flame meditation. Though i did it differently from its description in JoS. I cupped my hands over the flame and did some breathing exercises. While my eyes were closed I could see the light flickering. I opened my eyes and stared at the flame till the only thing I could visually see was the flame (everything else was misty).
In my head I started to wonder if my GD could manipulate the flame so I call out in my head. The flame flickered. I tried to set up a yes and no system but I did not understand the responses (the swirled and expanded and contracted - it was not ordinary). I so I asked specific questions and asked them to flicker the flame for confirmation. I asked if my GD was present - it flickered [BTW - I AM WRITING THIS WHILE THE FLAME IS STILL LIT AND AS SOON AS I TYPED "I asked if my GD was present" IT FLICKERED WILDLY!] I asked counter questions to check but the flame didn't flicker meaning it was valid.
I started to ask questions orally but they did not get a strong response. All the questions I asked in thought got the most response [AGAIN - WHEN I TYPED "All the questions I asked in thought" IT FLICKERED WILDLY! IN PARTICULAR I WAS THINKING OF THE WORD 'TELEPATHIC' IN MY HEAD]
[AGAIN - I THOUGHT TO MYSELF "SHE'S ACTUALLY HELPING ME WRITE MY TESTIMONY" AND THE FLAME STARTED FLICKERING - I REPEATED IT WHILE WRITING IT AND IT WENT OF AGAIN! AND AGAIN!
Throughout the communications I could feel energy flowing in my hands and the heat from the flame would occasionally concentrate on my thumb (the heat sensation is different from the energy feeling). I think I would of got more stronger responses if I had a clearer mind (thoughts just kept flowing in - the questions I asked at some points were jumbled up aswell - ITS QUITE HORRIBLE)
[AGAIN - I THOUGHT TO MY SELF "I SHOULD DO MORE THOUGHT (VOID) MEDITATION AND THE FLAME FLICKERED" AND THEN I WAS THINKING THAT THE FLAME WAS FLICKERING AS STRONG - THEN IT FLICKERED STRONGER!]
The candle I used was NOT black, infact it was cream, it was the only candle in my house that could work without a holder (all of them are gold). [AGAIN - SAID TO MYSELF - "I SHOULD REALLY GET BLACK CANDLES" AND THE FLAME FLICKERED STRONGLY!]
It was amazing and I am going to use this method again [YOU GUESSED IT FOLKS - WHEN I WROTE "I am going to use this method again" THE CANDLE FLICKERED BABY!]
lol I really dont want to blow out the flame but I have to go to school [LIKEWISE WHEN I TYPED THAT IT FLICKERED - BUT IN MY HEAD I SAID I HAD TO GET READY FOR COLLEGE - LOL WHEN I TYPED THAT TOO IT FLICKERED! BUT IT DID IT FOR LONGER AND AS SOON AS IT STOPPED MY SISTER CAME OUT OF HER ROOM!]
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL MY GUARDIAN DEMON!
HAIL THE GODS OF DUAT!
(BEFORE that I was just searching about the kundalini and listening to some classical and metal)
I decided to do some flame meditation. Though i did it differently from its description in JoS. I cupped my hands over the flame and did some breathing exercises. While my eyes were closed I could see the light flickering. I opened my eyes and stared at the flame till the only thing I could visually see was the flame (everything else was misty).
In my head I started to wonder if my GD could manipulate the flame so I call out in my head. The flame flickered. I tried to set up a yes and no system but I did not understand the responses (the swirled and expanded and contracted - it was not ordinary). I so I asked specific questions and asked them to flicker the flame for confirmation. I asked if my GD was present - it flickered [BTW - I AM WRITING THIS WHILE THE FLAME IS STILL LIT AND AS SOON AS I TYPED "I asked if my GD was present" IT FLICKERED WILDLY!] I asked counter questions to check but the flame didn't flicker meaning it was valid.
I started to ask questions orally but they did not get a strong response. All the questions I asked in thought got the most response [AGAIN - WHEN I TYPED "All the questions I asked in thought" IT FLICKERED WILDLY! IN PARTICULAR I WAS THINKING OF THE WORD 'TELEPATHIC' IN MY HEAD]
[AGAIN - I THOUGHT TO MYSELF "SHE'S ACTUALLY HELPING ME WRITE MY TESTIMONY" AND THE FLAME STARTED FLICKERING - I REPEATED IT WHILE WRITING IT AND IT WENT OF AGAIN! AND AGAIN!
Throughout the communications I could feel energy flowing in my hands and the heat from the flame would occasionally concentrate on my thumb (the heat sensation is different from the energy feeling). I think I would of got more stronger responses if I had a clearer mind (thoughts just kept flowing in - the questions I asked at some points were jumbled up aswell - ITS QUITE HORRIBLE)
[AGAIN - I THOUGHT TO MY SELF "I SHOULD DO MORE THOUGHT (VOID) MEDITATION AND THE FLAME FLICKERED" AND THEN I WAS THINKING THAT THE FLAME WAS FLICKERING AS STRONG - THEN IT FLICKERED STRONGER!]
The candle I used was NOT black, infact it was cream, it was the only candle in my house that could work without a holder (all of them are gold). [AGAIN - SAID TO MYSELF - "I SHOULD REALLY GET BLACK CANDLES" AND THE FLAME FLICKERED STRONGLY!]
It was amazing and I am going to use this method again [YOU GUESSED IT FOLKS - WHEN I WROTE "I am going to use this method again" THE CANDLE FLICKERED BABY!]
lol I really dont want to blow out the flame but I have to go to school [LIKEWISE WHEN I TYPED THAT IT FLICKERED - BUT IN MY HEAD I SAID I HAD TO GET READY FOR COLLEGE - LOL WHEN I TYPED THAT TOO IT FLICKERED! BUT IT DID IT FOR LONGER AND AS SOON AS IT STOPPED MY SISTER CAME OUT OF HER ROOM!]
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL MY GUARDIAN DEMON!
HAIL THE GODS OF DUAT!
means i am strong btw try to relationate as much as u can with ur Gd or wife (if u have a demoness wife) becaouse the more u speak with them the easier will be to talk telepathicly.. i can do it now 
