Everytime I meditate or do yoga or rtrs I have great energy but almost instantly it gets taken from me I've tried void meditation arua of protection but the Christians and Yehuborim in my city always punk me what should I do?
I dont know what you go through specifically. But regardless of your situation it is up to YOU to take a step forward and stop your suffering. Did you do the dedication ritual yet? If not, I suggest you take all your courage and do it.