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Well I guess its about time to kill myself. I asked abigor if he could help me out on my SSI benefits, but I guess he didn't hear me or want to help me. Ive been struggling so bad the past 2 years. With so much rage and pure jealousy at the world around me. You guys always having fun experiences, while I'm stuck here in this redneck shithole and cant do any work on myself because of a chaotic area and home I live in. Everyone is addicted to some kind of drug and theres absolutely no money, so everyone is always screaming and hateful at each other because they cant get their fix.Now I have to pay money back that I absolutely cant. I cant get a job in this place I llive. To tell the truth I don't want a job either I cant stand the thought of working for hours on end while other people in this world have it so easy. It makes me want to murder everything that moves. And to make it worse I never finished highschool so getting a good job in this bullshit world is out of the question. I've noticed that a lot of our warriors and other Satanists here are stuck in shitholes too. Many of us come to Satan because our lives are full bullshit. I admit that I first came to Satanism with the thought of 'selling my soul' so I could escape poverty and this reality that I'm stuck in. Its a shame that I struggle to do RTR's the best I can and I get nothing in return. For fucks sake, my teeth are even rotting out, I need dental implants and all that. Cant afford it though. Cant even vibrate some words properly anymore.I had a damaging childhood. No father figure in my life, and a doped out abusive mother. In astrology I also have a 12th house retrograde mars, added to the psychological damage I had when I was a child. I'm a total wreck of a person. I just hide myself away from everyone, hoping it would all get better one day.I need a miracle from Satan. I see people going through so much suffering on the groups. Don't think for a second that I don't have these people on my mind. I makes me cry, actually. If I had the power, I would without a doubt help you guys out. I just cant advance myself right now with this life I'm forced to live. I wish Satan, Andras or someone would kill my mother. I have no love for her. I want her to die so badly in the worst possible way. Ive been abused so bad in my life.I want to escape. Id rather ask Satan to kill me than to live another day of this life.I'll ask Satan for help, one last time. If no help comes, i'll end my life. Hopefully he destroys my soul, too. I refuse to exist while seeing other people so happy, all while I suffer so much. The good die young.



 

 

[kieithnightmare0]

I'm sorry to hear you're in such a bad situation. How often do you meditate? Are you able to secure enough privacy to do a money working, or any other working with runes and such to free yourself from your situation? How often do you clean your aura? Do you do void meditation?
Suicide is NEVER the answer. Especially in Satanism. Don't give up so soon!

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

Your situation doesn't have to do with your dedication to Satan directly, so you don't need to blame the Gods for this. Most of these mistakes are made by human beings and they make us suffer. Sometimes others, sometimes us, the list goes. It's very bad, but what can do is persist. If you let go now and let the trailer overtake you, you will be overtaken, and you will fall into a lower lever of existence. If you push forward, which you can more than likely do as you're forged from this life more than other people, you will be able to raise into a better level.

These are karmic issues on your behalf. The universe doesn't give freebies either. The fact you have a place to turn to, meditations to do, and the ability to know what is going on rather than resort to useless things such as suicide (Which make the karmic outcome even worse in the next life in some cases since the issues remain unresolved).

However Satan found you and you found him. This is important and now you have the opportunity to work.

There are hundreds of millions of people who are into far worse situations than the ones described. There is a lot of pain into the world. The majority of people does not have an 'easy' life, nor a good existence, or one without anxiety and stress, or worse.

However this cannot be fixed by some external entity with a magic wand but only by you, meditation and working. The Gods can help you, but there are also other forces that you need, and must overcome. Now it will feel bad but after this you will be stronger than the majority of other people.

You definitely feel bad about this situation, but remember that everything comes and goes into this world. Your pains now that may be unbearable, if you persist, you will become stronger.

The Gods cannot help you if you do not allow them any space from them to do so. It may be close to impossible now but you need to tune in to positive thoughts to start piling up positivity in your life. The change cannot be immidiate as you and others have piled up a lot of crap on you, which is understandable. If you want a full change, it will need time.
 
Also, no other entity can change your whole karma and your whole life with the touch of a hand, moreso permanently. This is something you can only do yourself. Since you reached up to now, you can definitely go the extra miles and you WILL improve. In some cases, depending on the negativeness involved, this may take years. But Satan offers the permanent solution which is soul re-working.

Daily meditation is the key. Focusing on what others have done and are doing is useless now, these people will be sucked in the crap. You don't have to follow their fate by dwelling on them.

Your SSI issues may be with your credidentials and/or the state. You need to seek out help on how to fill them out properly. There are state officials that can help you, and you should not turn down help. Ask 100 times over and do not quit.


---In [email protected], <pinkteabunny@... wrote :

I'm sorry to hear you're in such a bad situation. How often do you meditate? Are you able to secure enough privacy to do a money working, or any other working with runes and such to free yourself from your situation? How often do you clean your aura? Do you do void meditation?
Suicide is NEVER the answer. Especially in Satanism. Don't give up so soon!

 

[alpha one]

Suicide should not be an option ...there are other ways to handle ur situation...one of them being magick squares...they are extremely powerful and can change the tide of war...perform magick squares till u have got ur situation fixed....now would be the correct time to perform a jupiter square and sun square...try ur best to pronounce the words of power...what ever u do just dnt give up

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On Fri, 13 Oct 2017 at 14:13, thesatanictruth666@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Well I guess its about time to kill myself. I asked abigor if he could help me out on my SSI benefits, but I guess he didn't hear me or want to help me. Ive been struggling so bad the past 2 years. With so much rage and pure jealousy at the world around me. You guys always having fun experiences, while I'm stuck here in this redneck shithole and cant do any work on myself because of a chaotic area and home I live in. Everyone is addicted to some kind of drug and theres absolutely no money, so everyone is always screaming and hateful at each other because they cant get their fix.Now I have to pay money back that I absolutely cant. I cant get a job in this place I llive. To tell the truth I don't want a job either I cant stand the thought of working for hours on end while other people in this world have it so easy. It makes me want to murder everything that moves. And to make it worse I never finished highschool so getting a good job in this bullshit world is out of the question. I've noticed that a lot of our warriors and other Satanists here are stuck in shitholes too. Many of us come to Satan because our lives are full bullshit. I admit that I first came to Satanism with the thought of 'selling my soul' so I could escape poverty and this reality that I'm stuck in. Its a shame that I struggle to do RTR's the best I can and I get nothing in return. For fucks sake, my teeth are even rotting out, I need dental implants and all that. Cant afford it though. Cant even vibrate some words properly anymore.I had a damaging childhood. No father figure in my life, and a doped out abusive mother. In astrology I also have a 12th house retrograde mars, added to the psychological damage I had when I was a child. I'm a total wreck of a person. I just hide myself away from everyone, hoping it would all get better one day.I need a miracle from Satan. I see people going through so much suffering on the groups. Don't think for a second that I don't have these people on my mind. I makes me cry, actually. If I had the power, I would without a doubt help you guys out. I just cant advance myself right now with this life I'm forced to live. I wish Satan, Andras or someone would kill my mother. I have no love for her. I want her to die so badly in the worst possible way. Ive been abused so bad in my life.I want to escape. Id rather ask Satan to kill me than to live another day of this life.I'll ask Satan for help, one last time. If no help comes, i'll end my life. Hopefully he destroys my soul, too. I refuse to exist while seeing other people so happy, all while I suffer so much. The good die young.



 

 

[Andrienne Ng]

Greetings Comrade,
If you think that killing yourself is going to make things easier for you, you are wrong.
Your life is NOT in shambles, it may seem hopeless now, but with faith and hardwork, things WILL get better.
I also had a very difficult life, plus, I have children to feed. It was very difficult at first, but things eventually got better.
But it took A LOT of hardworking on my side, I have to make sure I do an hour of meditations everyday, this includes full chakra, hatha and kundalini yoga, merkabah, pineal, Clairaudience and clairvoyance.
And at least 2 hours of AOP everyday, from voiceofenki super AOP, HP Maxine return curses, Byarkan, Eihwaz, Wunjo, Jera and Munka. Day and night.
Then, I use to do the minimum RTRs given by HP Commander Cobra, which is 4, but I now do a minimum of 9, if I miss, I add on tomorrow.
I also had urges to kill myself, but, if we do that, the enemy wins. Its easy to die. But its the brave and strong that chooses to live. Don't give up. Satan NEVER leaves his children, his warrior elite.
I am not asking you to compare what I doing, I am only telling you that this is what I do everyday to fight. Not to mention, the enemy constantly attacks me in my sleep. Just had an attack yesterday.
Keep doing the RTRs, but at the same time, you NEED to protect yourself, clean your aura and meditate. HP Lucius Oria said that while doing RTRs sublimates the curses from the jews to our soul, since we were born, meditation helps us to remove our karmic past lives.
Find a meditation program, and do AOPs to protect yourself. You just need to make time for yourself on this, and your life WILL get better. Make the time, and place for yourself. And Father Satan will help you.
Stay Strong Comrade.
Hail Satan

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On Fri, Oct 13, 2017 at 4:43 PM, thesatanictruth666@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Well I guess its about time to kill myself. I asked abigor if he could help me out on my SSI benefits, but I guess he didn't hear me or want to help me. Ive been struggling so bad the past 2 years. With so much rage and pure jealousy at the world around me. You guys always having fun experiences, while I'm stuck here in this redneck shithole and cant do any work on myself because of a chaotic area and home I live in. Everyone is addicted to some kind of drug and theres absolutely no money, so everyone is always screaming and hateful at each other because they cant get their fix.Now I have to pay money back that I absolutely cant. I cant get a job in this place I llive. To tell the truth I don't want a job either I cant stand the thought of working for hours on end while other people in this world have it so easy. It makes me want to murder everything that moves. And to make it worse I never finished highschool so getting a good job in this bullshit world is out of the question. I've noticed that a lot of our warriors and other Satanists here are stuck in shitholes too. Many of us come to Satan because our lives are full bullshit. I admit that I first came to Satanism with the thought of 'selling my soul' so I could escape poverty and this reality that I'm stuck in. Its a shame that I struggle to do RTR's the best I can and I get nothing in return. For fucks sake, my teeth are even rotting out, I need dental implants and all that. Cant afford it though. Cant even vibrate some words properly anymore.I had a damaging childhood. No father figure in my life, and a doped out abusive mother. In astrology I also have a 12th house retrograde mars, added to the psychological damage I had when I was a child. I'm a total wreck of a person. I just hide myself away from everyone, hoping it would all get better one day.I need a miracle from Satan. I see people going through so much suffering on the groups. Don't think for a second that I don't have these people on my mind. I makes me cry, actually. If I had the power, I would without a doubt help you guys out. I just cant advance myself right now with this life I'm forced to live. I wish Satan, Andras or someone would kill my mother. I have no love for her. I want her to die so badly in the worst possible way. Ive been abused so bad in my life.I want to escape. Id rather ask Satan to kill me than to live another day of this life.I'll ask Satan for help, one last time. If no help comes, i'll end my life. Hopefully he destroys my soul, too. I refuse to exist while seeing other people so happy, all while I suffer so much. The good die young.



 

 

[Andrienne Ng]

Oh, before I forget, I also keep an eye out for Lydia's awesome chart for monthly workings to spells to attract money and wealth. This  Fehu, Sun, Jupiter and Venus squares and other money spells found in the JOS website.
I sleep only four to six hours a day. And I exercise as well, just to stay fit. It took a lot of discipline and effort on my part, but I do see results. 
Johnson Akemi mentioned much in her FAQ guide for new Satanist on AOP so I just follow it. I don't think. I just do.
" Until you are broken, you don't know what you are made of. It gives you the ability to build yourself all over again, but Stronger than ever "

Keep fighting Comrade
Hail Satan 
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On Fri, Oct 13, 2017 at 5:24 PM, Andrienne Ng<ngandkk@... wrote: Greetings Comrade,
If you think that killing yourself is going to make things easier for you, you are wrong.
Your life is NOT in shambles, it may seem hopeless now, but with faith and hardwork, things WILL get better.
I also had a very difficult life, plus, I have children to feed. It was very difficult at first, but things eventually got better.
But it took A LOT of hardworking on my side, I have to make sure I do an hour of meditations everyday, this includes full chakra, hatha and kundalini yoga, merkabah, pineal, Clairaudience and clairvoyance.
And at least 2 hours of AOP everyday, from voiceofenki super AOP, HP Maxine return curses, Byarkan, Eihwaz, Wunjo, Jera and Munka. Day and night.
Then, I use to do the minimum RTRs given by HP Commander Cobra, which is 4, but I now do a minimum of 9, if I miss, I add on tomorrow.
I also had urges to kill myself, but, if we do that, the enemy wins. Its easy to die. But its the brave and strong that chooses to live. Don't give up. Satan NEVER leaves his children, his warrior elite.
I am not asking you to compare what I doing, I am only telling you that this is what I do everyday to fight. Not to mention, the enemy constantly attacks me in my sleep. Just had an attack yesterday.
Keep doing the RTRs, but at the same time, you NEED to protect yourself, clean your aura and meditate. HP Lucius Oria said that while doing RTRs sublimates the curses from the jews to our soul, since we were born, meditation helps us to remove our karmic past lives.
Find a meditation program, and do AOPs to protect yourself. You just need to make time for yourself on this, and your life WILL get better. Make the time, and place for yourself. And Father Satan will help you.
Stay Strong Comrade.
Hail Satan

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On Fri, Oct 13, 2017 at 4:43 PM, thesatanictruth666@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Well I guess its about time to kill myself. I asked abigor if he could help me out on my SSI benefits, but I guess he didn't hear me or want to help me. Ive been struggling so bad the past 2 years. With so much rage and pure jealousy at the world around me. You guys always having fun experiences, while I'm stuck here in this redneck shithole and cant do any work on myself because of a chaotic area and home I live in. Everyone is addicted to some kind of drug and theres absolutely no money, so everyone is always screaming and hateful at each other because they cant get their fix.Now I have to pay money back that I absolutely cant. I cant get a job in this place I llive. To tell the truth I don't want a job either I cant stand the thought of working for hours on end while other people in this world have it so easy. It makes me want to murder everything that moves. And to make it worse I never finished highschool so getting a good job in this bullshit world is out of the question. I've noticed that a lot of our warriors and other Satanists here are stuck in shitholes too. Many of us come to Satan because our lives are full bullshit. I admit that I first came to Satanism with the thought of 'selling my soul' so I could escape poverty and this reality that I'm stuck in. Its a shame that I struggle to do RTR's the best I can and I get nothing in return. For fucks sake, my teeth are even rotting out, I need dental implants and all that. Cant afford it though. Cant even vibrate some words properly anymore.I had a damaging childhood. No father figure in my life, and a doped out abusive mother. In astrology I also have a 12th house retrograde mars, added to the psychological damage I had when I was a child. I'm a total wreck of a person. I just hide myself away from everyone, hoping it would all get better one day.I need a miracle from Satan. I see people going through so much suffering on the groups. Don't think for a second that I don't have these people on my mind. I makes me cry, actually. If I had the power, I would without a doubt help you guys out. I just cant advance myself right now with this life I'm forced to live. I wish Satan, Andras or someone would kill my mother. I have no love for her. I want her to die so badly in the worst possible way. Ive been abused so bad in my life.I want to escape. Id rather ask Satan to kill me than to live another day of this life.I'll ask Satan for help, one last time. If no help comes, i'll end my life. Hopefully he destroys my soul, too. I refuse to exist while seeing other people so happy, all while I suffer so much. The good die young.



 

 

[centurion_666881]

You are making a mistake. By committing suicide so early in the journey you will only have to repeat the same karmic disturbances in the next life. Life is about work. There are working you can do to find a job that suits your needs and interests. As a matter of fact magick can basically fix almost all problems. All of Satan's teachings are easily applicable to all times abd all conditions. Now as for money, life is about work. By working and saving money you can buy a house, dentistry, etc... What you need to do is aggressively get your energies up and fight back. No matter what you say or do, you are wrong to deny that raising your energies through power meditation and yoga and using your powers to defend your existence is impossible. My advice is start right now in getting your energies way up and usng your. powers. Do 2 sessions of hatha yoga a day with breathing exercises and start a meditation program. Make the right decision.

 

[ANDREW GRAY]

Exactly what HP hooded cobra said!!!! 

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On Oct 13, 2017, at 6:55 AM, hoodedcobra666@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Your situation doesn't have to do with your dedication to Satan directly, so you don't need to blame the Gods for this. Most of these mistakes are made by human beings and they make us suffer. Sometimes others, sometimes us, the list goes. It's very bad, but what can do is persist. If you let go now and let the trailer overtake you, you will be overtaken, and you will fall into a lower lever of existence. If you push forward, which you can more than likely do as you're forged from this life more than other people, you will be able to raise into a better level.

These are karmic issues on your behalf. The universe doesn't give freebies either. The fact you have a place to turn to, meditations to do, and the ability to know what is going on rather than resort to useless things such as suicide (Which make the karmic outcome even worse in the next life in some cases since the issues remain unresolved).

However Satan found you and you found him. This is important and now you have the opportunity to work.

There are hundreds of millions of people who are into far worse situations than the ones described. There is a lot of pain into the world. The majority of people does not have an 'easy' life, nor a good existence, or one without anxiety and stress, or worse.

However this cannot be fixed by some external entity with a magic wand but only by you, meditation and working. The Gods can help you, but there are also other forces that you need, and must overcome. Now it will feel bad but after this you will be stronger than the majority of other people.

You definitely feel bad about this situation, but remember that everything comes and goes into this world. Your pains now that may be unbearable, if you persist, you will become stronger.

The Gods cannot help you if you do not allow them any space from them to do so. It may be close to impossible now but you need to tune in to positive thoughts to start piling up positivity in your life. The change cannot be immidiate as you and others have piled up a lot of crap on you, which is understandable. If you want a full change, it will need time.
 
Also, no other entity can change your whole karma and your whole life with the touch of a hand, moreso permanently. This is something you can only do yourself. Since you reached up to now, you can definitely go the extra miles and you WILL improve. In some cases, depending on the negativeness involved, this may take years. But Satan offers the permanent solution which is soul re-working.

Daily meditation is the key. Focusing on what others have done and are doing is useless now, these people will be sucked in the crap. You don't have to follow their fate by dwelling on them.

Your SSI issues may be with your credidentials and/or the state. You need to seek out help on how to fill them out properly. There are state officials that can help you, and you should not turn down help. Ask 100 times over and do not quit.


---In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], <pinkteabunny@... wrote :

I'm sorry to hear you're in such a bad situation. How often do you meditate? Are you able to secure enough privacy to do a money working, or any other working with runes and such to free yourself from your situation? How often do you clean your aura? Do you do void meditation?
Suicide is NEVER the answer. Especially in Satanism. Don't give up so soon!