dark_pagan_666
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My apologies for bringing my life problems and sob story to you guys. Really no need to read this. But I am desperate for help and I honestly have no clue to what I am about to do with my life anymore. To me, this is the worst crisis I've ever had.
So...I just found out I won't get anymore financial support from the educational system from my country any more. So fair and the smell of justice. YAY! You know, how the society really works to help elevating people in every matter, it's getting mindblowing ya'll. Anyways...
Because of this, the real mess starts. I have to pay rent, yes I could get a job nr.2, but this is NOT easy in my country. You need 5 Olympian gold medals and 500 years in experience. Or the fucking raghead got the job instead cuz they in need.
In english, this would be explained like, I did not complete high school. I failed one class, a foreign language, german. No offence, I hate that language. But I wanted to try and see if I could finally manage to succeed and pass it. Well, being the dumbass I am. I couldn't... So I wanted to take up spanish, but that costs a lot of money, but as I said. I won't get anymore money because of missing Schooling points. Oh yeah, this can be seen astrologically as well, yaaaay.
I have a part-time job, just enough to pay rent, and with the financial educational support, I had enough to take care of other essential needs. But hey, not anymore. I need a new job, but I'll only get the shitty ones cause I don't have any diploma. As thus, I earn way less than the average person.
One side of it is sort of positive yes, I can now find another place to live, and finally live alone and have full privacy 24/7 for meditation and RTRs. But of course, it is SHIT expansive, and I need a full-time job in order to be able topay for a rent that huge. Including have enough money to even MOVE OUT. My parents are "education is important for family pride, happiness and shit like that". I feel like the bad seed and the biggest failure in my family. I am the first to not even be able to finish high school in my family. I feel so stupid......I sound like a teenager (I'm in my early twenties).
I don't even wanna ask Satan or the gods for help, because I know how busy they are, and already helped me so much with other issues. Now this? No!
Sorry, this post got too long.
But does anyone of you had a similar experience? Some advice what to do? I feel like my whole life falls apart. Now I know what the Tarot reading meant though. At least I am good with that *miserably laughing*.
Thanks,
HAIL SATAN!!!
So...I just found out I won't get anymore financial support from the educational system from my country any more. So fair and the smell of justice. YAY! You know, how the society really works to help elevating people in every matter, it's getting mindblowing ya'll. Anyways...
Because of this, the real mess starts. I have to pay rent, yes I could get a job nr.2, but this is NOT easy in my country. You need 5 Olympian gold medals and 500 years in experience. Or the fucking raghead got the job instead cuz they in need.
In english, this would be explained like, I did not complete high school. I failed one class, a foreign language, german. No offence, I hate that language. But I wanted to try and see if I could finally manage to succeed and pass it. Well, being the dumbass I am. I couldn't... So I wanted to take up spanish, but that costs a lot of money, but as I said. I won't get anymore money because of missing Schooling points. Oh yeah, this can be seen astrologically as well, yaaaay.
I have a part-time job, just enough to pay rent, and with the financial educational support, I had enough to take care of other essential needs. But hey, not anymore. I need a new job, but I'll only get the shitty ones cause I don't have any diploma. As thus, I earn way less than the average person.
One side of it is sort of positive yes, I can now find another place to live, and finally live alone and have full privacy 24/7 for meditation and RTRs. But of course, it is SHIT expansive, and I need a full-time job in order to be able topay for a rent that huge. Including have enough money to even MOVE OUT. My parents are "education is important for family pride, happiness and shit like that". I feel like the bad seed and the biggest failure in my family. I am the first to not even be able to finish high school in my family. I feel so stupid......I sound like a teenager (I'm in my early twenties).
I don't even wanna ask Satan or the gods for help, because I know how busy they are, and already helped me so much with other issues. Now this? No!
Sorry, this post got too long.
But does anyone of you had a similar experience? Some advice what to do? I feel like my whole life falls apart. Now I know what the Tarot reading meant though. At least I am good with that *miserably laughing*.
Thanks,
HAIL SATAN!!!