Lost at Sea?

[mmlozza]

Hi all,

I'm 40 next year and have consciously been on this journey of self optimisation for 12 years now. In that time I have experienced a brush mental health, of which happened in 2015 but I have mostly recovered from in the last few years. I am prey to my vices and feel that I am lacking faith/belief in myself, and although knowing is more powerful than believing, it seems to be necessary to make progress on this plane.

I have tried to achieve this on my own without any community to lean on. Lots of online groups have previously been unreliable and divided, which has been disillusioning. I feel like time is running out and I need to reach the grail before I have to repeat this cycle over, but I don't know where to start. I know I'm capable of great things but I really need some advice if possible.

Happy to answer any questions further. Thanks to you all for reading this.

 

[mmlozza]

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Meditation will actually help you

https://www.templeofzeus.org/Satanic_Meditation.html

Please, read this quote of mine



The Joy of Satan will always be here for all Satanist brothers and sisters. You can always count on us. Here the children of Satan, the true children of Satan, are truly united to ADVANCE!

May the Gods bless you!!

Thank you so much for your reply!

I need to revisit meditation. This may sound farfetched, but when I first attempted to focus on an object I "felt the light", which I guess was the presence of my soul. But from there I believed I had achieved godhood, became more and more delusional and eventually was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. It has taken a long time to recover from the idea of having bipolar disorder, and I know now that my feeling of "satori" or my soul, a feeling I have never felt since and fear I may never again(!), due to my lack of knowledge and understanding I paid the price. I feel I am ready to try again now. I just don't want the feeling to override my reasoning, you know?

 

[Symmachos-ZEUS/SHAITAN]

Thank you so much for your reply!

I need to revisit meditation. This may sound farfetched, but when I first attempted to focus on an object I "felt the light", which I guess was the presence of my soul. But from there I believed I had achieved godhood, became more and more delusional and eventually was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. It has taken a long time to recover from the idea of having bipolar disorder, and I know now that my feeling of "satori" or my soul, a feeling I have never felt since and fear I may never again(!), due to my lack of knowledge and understanding I paid the price. I feel I am ready to try again now. I just don't want the feeling to override my reasoning, you know?

One piece of advice that works well in my social relationships that I can give you because I believe it works in this too is to analyze the thing in a cold and logical way, as if you were objectively evaluating the external situation. So you don't let yourself be influenced by the illusions that your mind generates. This advice is difficult to delve into, but if you understand it well I think it can help you. More objective and less involved in things when you analyze them logically.

 

[mmlozza]

One piece of advice that works well in my social relationships that I can give you because I believe it works in this too is to analyze the thing in a cold and logical way, as if you were objectively evaluating the external situation. So you don't let yourself be influenced by the illusions that your mind generates. This advice is difficult to delve into, but if you understand it well I think it can help you. More objective and less involved in things when you analyze them logically.

I think you're right there. It's so hard to unlearn the fact that external impressions are not truth, especially when similarities appear, you know? There's a tendency to overthink a lot of things.

Thank you for your input, I'm really grateful for the time. Do you have any other advice that might be useful towards practical application on this path?

 

[AFODO]

Thank you so much for your reply!

I need to revisit meditation. This may sound farfetched, but when I first attempted to focus on an object I "felt the light", which I guess was the presence of my soul. But from there I believed I had achieved godhood, became more and more delusional and eventually was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. It has taken a long time to recover from the idea of having bipolar disorder, and I know now that my feeling of "satori" or my soul, a feeling I have never felt since and fear I may never again(!), due to my lack of knowledge and understanding I paid the price. I feel I am ready to try again now. I just don't want the feeling to override my reasoning, you know?

Work on sour lower chakras to be grounded, and read HPZM's sermons because these are to open your eyes up to reality.

 

[Symmachos-ZEUS/SHAITAN]

I think you're right there. It's so hard to unlearn the fact that external impressions are not truth, especially when similarities appear, you know? There's a tendency to overthink a lot of things.

Thank you for your input, I'm really grateful for the time. Do you have any other advice that might be useful towards practical application on this path?

I think that rather than giving you other advice, it would be better if you had your own experiences, and when you make mistakes, you will recognize your ability to correct yourself and learn from the situation. I truly believe this is worth more than all the other advice I can give you.

 

[mmlozza]

Work on sour lower chakras to be grounded, and read HPZM's sermons because these are to open your eyes up to reality.

Thank you for this reply! Is there a specific link to these sermons?

 

[mmlozza]

I think that rather than giving you other advice, it would be better if you had your own experiences, and when you make mistakes, you will recognize your ability to correct yourself and learn from the situation. I truly believe this is worth more than all the other advice I can give you.

Thanks again for your replies. I guess individuality is important, and there are no right or wrong answers.

 

[mmlozza]

Work on sour lower chakras to be grounded, and read HPZM's sermons because these are to open your eyes up to reality.

Update: I've found the sermons now thanks again!

 

[AFODO]

Update: I've found the sermons now thanks again!

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