Welcome.
Well aside from all that you mentioned I do believe you are here for a reason, like the many who come here looking for answers and an inner sense of freedom, justice and the chance to experience something "higher".
Have you visited the JoyofSatan.org website? If you have not, you really should as that is the foundation of our organization. Many of your questions will be answered there.
The Joyofsatan has been going strong for many years and we are growing in numbers for a reason. Satan and the other original pre-christian pagan gods have been guiding us, teaching us and keeping all of us together for all this time, which is why we have lasted. You will see that they are indeed real beings, many people who have come here who were atheists have experienced Satan for REAL. They are usually shocked because they have believed that spirituality is non existent.
Satanism is the real deal.
About 5 years ago, I met this guy who was a fellow metal head but atheist...we started discussing satanism and Satan and long story short, he was open to Spiritual satanism and he read the JoyofSatan website constantly. He mentioned how he felt as if something positive was with him as he studied the site, he also mentioned days where he would wake up energized and feeling good. Among other things.
Although what I mentioned is anecdotal, the same thing happened to me when I was new. I felt reborn, energized and positive and the facts started making sense. All of our members here can verify this and share experiences. When we asked for answers and needed to prove to ourselves that the gods are real, we received real responses. And I'm not talking about some hours praying to same fake shit entity like the Xians do and hoping to get answers.
The fact that you are here and looking for answers show that you are drawn to spiritual satanism/knowledge/truth in a deeper way. The Joyofsatan also stands with science and spirituality, which are connected. Even Science today is showing that the soul and spirituality exists. Quantum physics, more specifically.
I'll tell you this, please study and read the Joyofsatan website, you will be pleasantly surprised. On this path, you prove and validate these experiences to yourself. Just like we all did. You have nothing to lose at this point.
The groups are here for support and answers. There are senior members here, as well as the clergy who have worked very hard to dig through facts, science, articles, history and related to uncover all of these things. The JoyofSatan has made tremendous strides and breakthroughs on proving Satan and the gods are humanity's original gods over the years.
High priestess Shannon
