I felt the same way. Still do. I love children but if a criminal did something to my kid or someone close to me, I wouldn't be able to control myself and I would most certainly kill them and in a very sadistic manner. "Pleasurable" survival is the game on earth. There are many ways to survive. The imaginary "dangerous environment" that the criminals consistently manufacture keeps people surviving only for themselves. You need to survive for yourself, for your family, for your groups, for mankind, for the planet, for the universe, for yourself "spiritually" and for your God. That is the natural order in which people engage in survival activities. They begin to crumble in the opposite order and you are only as strong as the weakest link. You can always tell where someone is at survival wise by looking at how that is handled. When you make decisions you make survival decisions. Always. Even though spiritually, you are immortal i.e. you do not die. You’re not a one-life organism. So, you want to make the optimal survival decision. That is done by embracing all forms of survival together. Consider each one and how it relates to what you are trying to accomplish. Christians and the other spiritual negation religions know this. They eliminated your ability to understand that you are an immortal spiritual being. So, that's why you don't want to survive. That's why marriages often end in divorce. I don't want to survive either. But there is another component to survival. Destruction. Sometimes it becomes necessary to destroy something in order to put something better in its place or “social" in its place. Antisocial is simply insanity. They are one in the same. Practicing Satanism (truth) destroys the insanity and puts in its place truth. Antisocial people are insane. They do not have reality. Reality consists of agreements with others. That means they are by themselves. We are not. F*****'s will pay…
