just had a major realization!

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Last year I met a girl who was working at a local butchery. I was immediately attracted to her but too shy to do anything about it. I was still xtian back then, but in October, something happened and I lost faith in "god". I started learning about wicca and paganism and eventually decided I'd be a naturist paganism. I was also learning about energy and figured that I had the power to control my life (something I'd never have believed as a xtian - god had a plan for me and that was that, so just sit tight and try to survive the ride!).

I gained confidence as a pagan that things would go my way if I just dedicated my energy to an outcome I wanted, and so, I went to find this girl. It turned out she was part of a xtian youth group my little brother had joined, and so I decided to go and meet her again. At this point I'd just started researching satanism and I was just there for her. I even work hard that night to block my chakras so as to protect myself while the youth leader was preaching. I successfully asked her out the next day.

As the days went on, we got comfortable with each other and I told her I was considering a move to satanism (telling turned out to be a grievous error in judgement, but we'll get there soon enough). Initially she decided that if I was to be a satanist, we couldn't be together, but later bbm'd me to say that she doesn't care about all that, she just wanted me and it could work as long as we respected the other's beliefs. I was overjoyed!

Well it didn't last long because my choice of what to believe was always a sore point in the relationship and so, to prove to her that I was serious about us being together, I went to church with her one day. I kept going and eventually put satanism aside and participated in the praise and worship, made notes about the sermons, etc. She'd restored the faith I'd lost barely 6 months earlier.

Then out of nowhere, she broke up with me, citing matric stress and parents who didn't like me, etc. I decided that were she to leave me, I'd dedicate myself to satan and that would be it. In reality, my decision to dedicate had nothing to do with her; I decided for my own reasons. I've spent the better part of 3 months trying to figure out why she broke up with me. She said she loved me, but that it could never work because we just weren't right for each other. I never believed it because we had awesome chemistry.

Earlier this evening I was lying in the bath and I figured it out. Its jehovah's fault. He sent her into my life to "save" me from a dark path I was unsure about taking, knowing that, if I'd gotten started on that path, he'd no longer be able to control me.
So he sent this fabulous girl as his puppet to turn me back into his control and it worked. Then, when he saw that I had done what he wanted to, he took her from me like we meant nothing to him - because we don't!

So now I have resolved to do my very best for Father always and thwart that foul nazarene wherever he may come for me. I refuse to ever let him control me again.

 

[the_fire_starter666]

I think she was just manipulative and using you. Because jokehova is a fictitious being and doesn't exist. Unless you mean the enemy greys, nordics, reptilains thoughtforms and other extraterrestirals collectively referred as "jewhova" by some people.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ortund@..." <ortund@... wrote:

Last year I met a girl who was working at a local butchery. I was immediately attracted to her but too shy to do anything about it. I was still xtian back then, but in October, something happened and I lost faith in "god". I started learning about wicca and paganism and eventually decided I'd be a naturist paganism. I was also learning about energy and figured that I had the power to control my life (something I'd never have believed as a xtian - god had a plan for me and that was that, so just sit tight and try to survive the ride!).

I gained confidence as a pagan that things would go my way if I just dedicated my energy to an outcome I wanted, and so, I went to find this girl. It turned out she was part of a xtian youth group my little brother had joined, and so I decided to go and meet her again. At this point I'd just started researching satanism and I was just there for her. I even work hard that night to block my chakras so as to protect myself while the youth leader was preaching. I successfully asked her out the next day.

As the days went on, we got comfortable with each other and I told her I was considering a move to satanism (telling turned out to be a grievous error in judgement, but we'll get there soon enough). Initially she decided that if I was to be a satanist, we couldn't be together, but later bbm'd me to say that she doesn't care about all that, she just wanted me and it could work as long as we respected the other's beliefs. I was overjoyed!

Well it didn't last long because my choice of what to believe was always a sore point in the relationship and so, to prove to her that I was serious about us being together, I went to church with her one day. I kept going and eventually put satanism aside and participated in the praise and worship, made notes about the sermons, etc. She'd restored the faith I'd lost barely 6 months earlier.

Then out of nowhere, she broke up with me, citing matric stress and parents who didn't like me, etc. I decided that were she to leave me, I'd dedicate myself to satan and that would be it. In reality, my decision to dedicate had nothing to do with her; I decided for my own reasons. I've spent the better part of 3 months trying to figure out why she broke up with me. She said she loved me, but that it could never work because we just weren't right for each other. I never believed it because we had awesome chemistry.

Earlier this evening I was lying in the bath and I figured it out. Its jehovah's fault. He sent her into my life to "save" me from a dark path I was unsure about taking, knowing that, if I'd gotten started on that path, he'd no longer be able to control me.
So he sent this fabulous girl as his puppet to turn me back into his control and it worked. Then, when he saw that I had done what he wanted to, he took her from me like we meant nothing to him - because we don't!

So now I have resolved to do my very best for Father always and thwart that foul nazarene wherever he may come for me. I refuse to ever let him control me again.

 

[jeremy montoya]

Brooo.............. You really need to read all of joyofsatan.org and exposingchristianity.com .... Satan is God. "jehovah" is nothing more then a lie. same as the narazene.
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On Sun, Jul 29, 2012 2:44 PM PDT ortund@... wrote:

Last year I met a girl who was working at a local butchery. I was immediately attracted to her but too shy to do anything about it. I was still xtian back then, but in October, something happened and I lost faith in "god". I started learning about wicca and paganism and eventually decided I'd be a naturist paganism. I was also learning about energy and figured that I had the power to control my life (something I'd never have believed as a xtian - god had a plan for me and that was that, so just sit tight and try to survive the ride!).

I gained confidence as a pagan that things would go my way if I just dedicated my energy to an outcome I wanted, and so, I went to find this girl. It turned out she was part of a xtian youth group my little brother had joined, and so I decided to go and meet her again. At this point I'd just started researching satanism and I was just there for her. I even work hard that night to block my chakras so as to protect myself while the youth leader was preaching. I successfully asked her out the next day.

As the days went on, we got comfortable with each other and I told her I was considering a move to satanism (telling turned out to be a grievous error in judgement, but we'll get there soon enough). Initially she decided that if I was to be a satanist, we couldn't be together, but later bbm'd me to say that she doesn't care about all that, she just wanted me and it could work as long as we respected the other's beliefs. I was overjoyed!

Well it didn't last long because my choice of what to believe was always a sore point in the relationship and so, to prove to her that I was serious about us being together, I went to church with her one day. I kept going and eventually put satanism aside and participated in the praise and worship, made notes about the sermons, etc. She'd restored the faith I'd lost barely 6 months earlier.

Then out of nowhere, she broke up with me, citing matric stress and parents who didn't like me, etc. I decided that were she to leave me, I'd dedicate myself to satan and that would be it. In reality, my decision to dedicate had nothing to do with her; I decided for my own reasons. I've spent the better part of 3 months trying to figure out why she broke up with me. She said she loved me, but that it could never work because we just weren't right for each other. I never believed it because we had awesome chemistry.

Earlier this evening I was lying in the bath and I figured it out. Its jehovah's fault. He sent her into my life to "save" me from a dark path I was unsure about taking, knowing that, if I'd gotten started on that path, he'd no longer be able to control me.
So he sent this fabulous girl as his puppet to turn me back into his control and it worked. Then, when he saw that I had done what he wanted to, he took her from me like we meant nothing to him - because we don't!

So now I have resolved to do my very best for Father always and thwart that foul nazarene wherever he may come for me. I refuse to ever let him control me again.

 

[[email protected]]

I have to be honest, I have focused my learning on anything to do with them, so you're probably right. What I was getting at is that I feel she was probably being used by those who would have the human race enslaved or destroyed - those that oppose father and would much rather his work with us be left incomplete.

That or you're also right and she was just using me... In either case, I feel like I can now, finally put it behind me and focus on all my energy on my meditation and opening my chakras. A good first step on my way to godhead I think

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

I think she was just manipulative and using you. Because jokehova is a fictitious being and doesn't exist. Unless you mean the enemy greys, nordics, reptilains thoughtforms and other extraterrestirals collectively referred as "jewhova" by some people.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ortund@" <ortund@ wrote:

Last year I met a girl who was working at a local butchery. I was immediately attracted to her but too shy to do anything about it. I was still xtian back then, but in October, something happened and I lost faith in "god". I started learning about wicca and paganism and eventually decided I'd be a naturist paganism. I was also learning about energy and figured that I had the power to control my life (something I'd never have believed as a xtian - god had a plan for me and that was that, so just sit tight and try to survive the ride!).

I gained confidence as a pagan that things would go my way if I just dedicated my energy to an outcome I wanted, and so, I went to find this girl. It turned out she was part of a xtian youth group my little brother had joined, and so I decided to go and meet her again. At this point I'd just started researching satanism and I was just there for her. I even work hard that night to block my chakras so as to protect myself while the youth leader was preaching. I successfully asked her out the next day.

As the days went on, we got comfortable with each other and I told her I was considering a move to satanism (telling turned out to be a grievous error in judgement, but we'll get there soon enough). Initially she decided that if I was to be a satanist, we couldn't be together, but later bbm'd me to say that she doesn't care about all that, she just wanted me and it could work as long as we respected the other's beliefs. I was overjoyed!

Well it didn't last long because my choice of what to believe was always a sore point in the relationship and so, to prove to her that I was serious about us being together, I went to church with her one day. I kept going and eventually put satanism aside and participated in the praise and worship, made notes about the sermons, etc. She'd restored the faith I'd lost barely 6 months earlier.

Then out of nowhere, she broke up with me, citing matric stress and parents who didn't like me, etc. I decided that were she to leave me, I'd dedicate myself to satan and that would be it. In reality, my decision to dedicate had nothing to do with her; I decided for my own reasons. I've spent the better part of 3 months trying to figure out why she broke up with me. She said she loved me, but that it could never work because we just weren't right for each other. I never believed it because we had awesome chemistry.

Earlier this evening I was lying in the bath and I figured it out. Its jehovah's fault. He sent her into my life to "save" me from a dark path I was unsure about taking, knowing that, if I'd gotten started on that path, he'd no longer be able to control me.
So he sent this fabulous girl as his puppet to turn me back into his control and it worked. Then, when he saw that I had done what he wanted to, he took her from me like we meant nothing to him - because we don't!

So now I have resolved to do my very best for Father always and thwart that foul nazarene wherever he may come for me. I refuse to ever let him control me again.