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[email protected], "vanessa" <dilandau_albatou666@... wrote:
I'm in the same boat!
i really don't know what to do ... i have been a year looking for a job after i went to school for a new career but it has taken me nowhere! my original goal was to move out of my house, since i good part of why i cant develop spiritually is cause of the constant stress in my family.
on top of that i have seriously fallen off the wagon (meditation wise) and cant focus for crap!! what with all the personal financial stress. on top of all this, my family is now in a financial pickle and i could be earning money to help out! but i cant even help my self!!
its not like i haven't gone for a good career either, 9-1-1 emergency service communicator(9-1-1 operator), and its not like i haven't done everything i possibly can to get a job, i have gone to every agency and used every government funded program to fix my resume and help me get a job.
i have decided that i need to try to get focused so i have been doing my meditation and a bit of yoga to try to catch up but if it hasn't been hard enough already!! i get attack every time i even attempt to go to the astral! last night i got strangled by something in the astral... it may seem trivial to most but i have a habit of calling for help in my sleep from the astral to the physical when i get attacked, it scares me that they have caught on to this.
i would ask for help from Enki, but it seems a bit much to ask when you, your self haven't been meditating regularly and doing your part in general. besides, i already bug the guy EVERY TIME I GO TO THE ASTRAL! i seriously think this is over-kill want with the constant attack after attack every time! and i already feel bad asking him for help for this.
so ... in short... i understand your situation completely! it hard to meditate for more then a minute with all this stress racing threw your head and i hope some one who has gone threw this can give some unique advice.
HAIL SATAN!!