I'm going to die at this rate

[Veron]

Please help me. I'm going to die at this rate. This isn't a joke or anything. I've had these stomach and intestinal problems for two years. I don't trust the doctors. They left me like this, horrible, terrible. They hurt me, they performed an AWAKE endoscopy on me, leaving me with a horrific trauma.

They made me spend money on tests that didn't work. My liver is fine, my kidneys too. But they filled me with antibiotics, they destroyed me, damaged my stomach and my flora. Now I have no money. My family supports me, but there are so many of us that it's either medication or food. I have nothing.

I'm sick, very sick. I haven't been able to meditate properly; I haven't been able to eat well, I only eat a little white rice and it irritates me, my throat is sore. I'm sick. I don't want to die. I don't want to die. I'm losing strength. I don't know what to do. I have a lot of social anxiety, a lot of anxiety.

I haven't stopped crying today. I'm skin and bones. I can see my ribs, my chest sinking, touching the bones. Help me, I beg you, I beg you. I don't want to die. I've been dedicated for almost five years. I know it's irrelevant, but my own energy isn't enough to heal. I don't know what to do. I endured trying to overcome everything alone; today I couldn't. I'm broken. I'm so ashamed to ask for help. But please, believe me. I need your help. At this rate, I'll die.
I don't speak English, so I make mistakes when translating, and I am a man, a weak man.

 

[CBTS]

Don't be ashamed of asking out for help. I have been through a similar experience 8 years ago, where 5 days of antibiotics destroyed me for more than 5 years.

My advice is to be really really patient and know that it will take time to recover and there is no magic pill for this, and btw I too chose to not go to the doctor anymore after that.

What can you do physically:
- Stay away from carbohydrates as much as you can. If your diet is based on a lot of them slowly reduce the intake.

 

[Mint666]

What steps are you taking to recover? Do you know anything about recovering your gut flora? I think that would be a good place to start. You can get a liquid Humic and Fulvic acid supplement which helps with that.

 

[Umun]

There is nothing shameful in asking for help. Try to eat as much as you can to regain your strength so that you can then fight and gradually return to health.

There's the first instance - asking your Guardian for advice and help. Even if you don't know who they are, it doesn't matter. Just open up and honestly present your case. The second one would be doing a ritual either to

Lord Valefor

or to

Lord Asclepius

Do not despair, do not fear, just do your best for the day trying to heal. Do the basic practices of our way as much as you can. Learn more about true medicine and apply.

Good luck and do inform us about your progress. You got this.

SWP

 

[CBTS]

Don't be ashamed of asking out for help. I have been through a similar experience 8 years ago, where 5 days of antibiotics destroyed me for more than 5 years.

My advice is to be really really patient and know that it will take time to recover and there is no magic pill for this, and btw I too chose to not go to the doctor anymore after that.

What can you do physically:
- Stay away from carbohydrates as much as you can. If your diet is based on a lot of them slowly reduce the intake.

I have erroneously submitted the post, I'll continue here.

What can you do physically:
- Stay away from carbohydrates as much as you can. If your diet is based on a lot of them slowly reduce the intake. This includes fruits and vegetables too
- Possibly base your diet on meat, fish and eggs.
- Supplement with magnesium (bisglycinate or threonate, other types are less absorbable), if you want also supplement with iodine (the most effective is the Lugol %5 formulation)
- Rest as much as you need
- Meditate on your entire gastrointestinal system
- Throughout the day take 5 minutes to re-establish your breath doing several rounds of the Yogic Breath
- As soon as you start feeling better, do workouts (I strongly advice calisthenics to build strenght)

What meditation are useful in this situation:
- Clean your aura and chakras every day and build your aura of protection. While building the aura of protection also program it to extract and expel negative energies from you all the time. This has to be done everyday for a long time in order to become automatic.
- Perform the healing meditation. If you feel you can't concentrate enough, try the meditation below.
- Breathe white-gold energy into your chakras. Empower them as much as you are comfortable doing it. Then redirect the energy to your intestins, visualize it being permeated with white-gold brilliant energy. Visualize it healing while using an affirmation such as: "My entire gastrointestinal system is totally and completely strong and healthy and recovering from any and all injuries permanently".

Also, don't forget to ask your Guardian or Zeus for help, even if you don't hear/see Them, They will guide you, as I was guided to your post from Them.

One last thing, do understand that saying and believing that you are "weak" or "you can't" is self sabotaging. You are a part of Zeus and so you have His power in you, find a way to grow and express it.

 

[Aquarius]

You need to heal your gut flora. What I suggest, and I believe you REALLY should do, is start eating a lot of probiotic food, especially raw milk and kefir. For kefir I don't mean store bought, as that's basically glorified pasteurized yogurt, I mean the real deal, the one you make yourself at home. You need to get yourself kefir grains, which you can find for free from communities that share it, or can buy it online, you will feed those grains with raw milk, and the result will be basically a super food that will heal your stomach. Learn to make fermented vegetables, like sauerkraut and also start using raw honey. You need a drastic diet change, and it will not be a mainstream diet, white rice can feel like the only thing that you can eat, but that's because it's not damaging you, you need fermented food. Start brewing kombucha, it is similar to kefir, just with black tea and sugar that feeds the fungus that makes it.

If you will apply my advice, you will get better, what I told you has made my stomach much more strong and healthy. And don't act in 2 months, start actinf as soon as you see this reply I'm sending you right now.