I thought I would give you a different look at things.
Being a parent myself (mother of two teenage girls), I too worry about how they do in school, what they want to become, if I have taught them enough to get through life, etc.
I also worry (in this economy) about not being able to provide enough for them, losing our home to higher property tax, increase in mortgage payments, medical bills, food, clothing, utilities, etc.
Parents have a lot to deal with. Mostly on the financial end. Some parents are losing sleep over whether they will even have a job the next day. Alot of this leads to anger and frustration because these are all things that we cannot control.
However, even with these worries and the added money stress, I must state that I do not agree with your parents laying a hand on you in any physical way as a form of their "discipline". That is just my opinion though. Unfortunately, there are parents out there who take their anger and fear out on their children. This is wrong, because all the parent ends up doing is making the child feel as if it is their fault and that this is the normal way life is.
Always remember, Father Satan looks out for his own. If you feel you can't turn to your parents, then late at night, turn to Satan. He does hear you. Sometimes, the best help is just being able to speak what is in your heart and soul. Whether the one you are talking to is there in form or not. It is simply a need to "get it out".
Do not give up, for while you may feel right now it is unbearable, remember that one day you will be able to leave their control. While it may seem far off right now, the time will pass faster than you know.
My best suggestion right now is to avoid any type of confrontations, even if it means swollowing your pride and telling a lie. Such as "Dad, I am worried about school just as much as you are, but please remember that I'm just a kid and don't know everything you may want me to know,and I need you to understand that. I know you are worried about us and our future, but sometimes I feel as if you are taking that worry out on me."
Sometimes we parents do not realize we have done this to our children, and a gentle reminder that you are still kids with feelings can make all the difference.
Either way you decide to handle your situation, never forget, your life is worth it, your life does matter to Satan and others out here (including myself because I do not like to hear about children in this type of situation), you will get through this, and don't be afraid to ask Satan for help and protection. Work on protection meditations, maybe even creating a "barrier" in your room that will make them not want to go in there so you will have a "safe room".
Sorry this is so long, but I hope I at least help give you some ideas and a possibility as to why your parents may be so upset and angry. They are just handling it the wrong way.
Hail Satan always!!!!!
--- In , "hafischer9501" <hafischer9501@... wrote:
I am crying as I write this. Me and my dad got into a big fight about school. He asked whats my motivation/drive. I told him that I diddent know because im scared of what he will do if I tell him. Im scared of what hell say. I dont know how to approach it, he asked for my goals in life. I again said I dont know. He came up and slapped me on the face. He asked the same question, Once again I said I dont know. He tried to slap me again but I blocked and rolled back on the bed. He just stared at me. Im scared, im alone. I cant chat online for another 4-6 years. I need people, I need face to face deep intelluctual conversations with people I trust and know. I need people that can understand and listen. I never trusted my parents. In any matters to be kept a secret. I need help. I have nothing to vent with and i end up bottleing it. When it starts too leak, l have bad mood swings. I end up wanting to take my life or others. When I crry I want to hurt myself Im scared of what will happen.. But I cant stop it. Its getting out of control I see everything and i want it gone i want it dead! I cant stop it
