I want some advice

[brandonmoreno321]

Hey, it's been a long time since I've come to these groups.  Checked my message history and my last post was on the December 13th destruction ritual back in 2013 lol.  Not sure who remembers me, if it matters, but I've come here to ask for a little insight.  I've been dedicated since 2010 but my advancement remains in a stalemate.  Every year since 2010, I go through 2-3 periods of absolute and total motivational drive loss.  During these periods, everything stops.  My meditations, my faith, my service, my drive, my confidence, everything.  I sink into mild-depression, nothing else matters anymore and all the while on my mind is how much I am disgracing the gods, and myself.  So on top of feeling ashamed of myself for literally stopping everything, I feed myself with thoughts of negativity and how much the gods much hate me now.  Not good. 
Then..my spirit and drive returns to me one day literally randomly and I say to myself, like all the other times, "NO MORE! I GOTTA GET BACK ON THE PATH!!"  and then proceed to bust my ass off in attempt to make up for my stupidity and stand-stillness during the downtime.   Which after a period of about 4-5 months, I'll be met with the same total and complete drive loss.  As I said, this happens every year, usually within the same 4-5 months, and the 'downtime" usually lasts anywhere between 2 weeks-2 months, depending on how 'low' I feel. 
What is this? I just recently (5 days ago) came out of another down-time and am freshly anew on the path..again :'[  I am literally fed-the-fuck-up with this endless loophole.  I must say, it's not like I haven't tried the Go-To solutions: Void meditation: AC+AP, affirmations, banishing rituals, cleansing my room, etc. because the first culprit that pops in mind naturally is "enemy!".  Despite the time I put into raising and keeping my energies up, empowering my AoP, cleansing my aura, and affirmations on top of it all, it. still. comes. 

 

[Sims Motal]

We all have our ups and downs, but it is up to us to keep going. Still, Father Satan has done so MUCH for me and my family.
I was kind of down this morning, and then it hit me -- I began thinking about all Father Satan has done for me, and I chided myself
on being down. HE IS BUSY! Especially now. I can't expect HIM or the DEMONS to be here at my every down moment. Besides

the war raging, there are thousands of Father's Children here that they oversee and assist. I realize that I was being silly and
maybe even selfish. NOT saying you are. But I was. Quit beating yourself up. Just be glad you are back into the groove and
be determined to stick with it through the good and the not so good. Be stubborn on your down days and don't let it stop you from
your spiritual growth. Not sure this will help, but I sincerely hope it does.
Hail Satan! Hail all the Demons of Hell!
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On Tue, 1/5/16, brandonmoreno321@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com]JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com[/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I want some advice
To: [url=mailto:JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com]JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com[/url]
Date: Tuesday, January 5, 2016, 7:09 AM


 









Hey, it's been a long time since
I've come to these groups.  Checked my message history
and my last post was on the December 13th destruction ritual
back in 2013 lol.  Not sure who remembers me, if it
matters, but I've come here to ask for a little
insight.  I've been dedicated since 2010 but my
advancement remains in a stalemate.  Every year since 2010,
I go through 2-3 periods of absolute and total motivational
drive loss.  During these periods, everything stops.  My
meditations, my faith, my service, my drive, my confidence,
everything.  I sink into mild-depression, nothing else
matters anymore and all the while on my mind is how much I
am disgracing the gods, and myself.  So on top of feeling
ashamed of myself for literally stopping everything, I feed
myself with thoughts of negativity and how much the gods
much hate me now.  Not good. 
Then..my spirit and drive returns to
me one day literally randomly and I say to myself, like all
the other times, "NO MORE! I GOTTA GET BACK ON THE
PATH!!"  and then proceed to bust my ass off in
attempt to make up for my stupidity and stand-stillness
during the downtime.   Which after a period of about 4-5
months, I'll be met with the same total and complete
drive loss.  As I said, this happens every year, usually
within the same 4-5 months, and the 'downtime"
usually lasts anywhere between 2 weeks-2 months, depending
on how 'low' I feel. 

What is this? I just recently (5
days ago) came out of another down-time and am freshly anew
on the path..again :'[  I am literally fed-the-fuck-up
with this endless loophole.  I must say, it's not like
I haven't tried the Go-To solutions: Void meditation:
AC+AP, affirmations, banishing rituals, cleansing my room,
etc. because the first culprit that pops in mind naturally
is "enemy!".  Despite the time I put into raising
and keeping my energies up, empowering my AoP, cleansing my
aura, and affirmations on top of it all, it. still. comes. 















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[garciaeric268]

Don't worry it happens to a lot of us you see thing is the enemy will do whatever it takes to stop us from meditating be it distractions,lack of motivation,negative thoughts etc.
it all comes from the enemy, I'm go in thru the same thing you are although you have been dedicated way longer then I have. I've dedicated on may of 2015 so not to long ago.
I'll work hard for my advancement and perform reverse Torah rituals and then suddenly "poof" out of know where I stop performing reverse Torah rituals and meditated less ,BUT even when I didn't feel like meditating I at least did the most important meditations that will not cause me to go into depression. Like yoga,void meditation.
But to completely shut off all meditations could lead you into a serious depression leaving you vulnerable to the enemy.
Remember this path is for the strong not for the weak your not alone brother.
A true warrior will never give up no matter how many times you get knocked out you will always get right back up and fight. One day you will become a god and achieve immortaly this defeating death it's your Destiny as much has it is mine.
Keep fighting for your advancement and for the sake of humanity.
Satan's will is our will!

 

[aldric.strickland88]

I know how ya feel, I struggle with consistency. Try invoking Earth Element. Also remember Master sloth and do not push yourself. A good thtime no to start with is 108x Suraye with 9 Affirmations. Just start with that, so you can build a powerful aura and find consistency in ONE thing. Get a couple forty day workings under your belt and see how you feel. 

 

[elephant255]

Use the runes+affirmations (create your personal ones)

Futhark/Odin  
Tell us how it goes

Hail Satan
Hail the Gods
Hail the Demons of Hell

 

[hiroaugust1986]

You have a lot in your life! I for one am not an expertise in this but it seems you suffer from depression ? Are you the emotional type?

What am getting at its seems that your going through something . However you have been doing the right thing and exhausting your options here.

All I can say is keep on fighting. Also try to watch what you do/say. What I mean is did you perhaps have connection with the enemy, like sympathetic toward religion?

Just saying you know. I cant read your facial expression nor do I know you personally.

Just trying to give a listening ear and keep up the fight! I believe if you make yourself more useful to the gods even by telling them they should give an answer. Like gusion, he gives hard answers. But eh, least you know the underlying problem.

 

[midnightoceanstar]

It's hard to dedicate time every day. Your situation describes me too. I never forget about Father Satan, but I don't give him his due, considering how much he has done for me. I told myself that this is a new year, and I will empower myself so that I am not always dependent on Satan and the Demons. I will overcome my weaknesses. Whenever I have had depression in the past, it was during a period when I wasn't doing my meditations. I think that we become depressed when we're spiritually stagnant. Maybe when you can feel yourself slipping out of the habit, do something that you haven't done in a while, whether it be pendulum work or invoking the elements or some other kind of witchcraft. I like to recite the prayer to Satan for protection as a kind of affirmation to keep me strong.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... rayer.html

At the very least, tell yourself to at least clean your aura and do one power meditation. I'm starting back from square one and juggling two kids at home, but when I get them down for naps or bed, I like to do the energy foundation meditation or read sermons.

I wish you the best of luck, brother, and stay strong. It's okay to have off days, but pick yourself back up and keep up the meditations.