This article is personal in nature and discusses matters that may not be suitable for everyone.
Greetings, everyone.
Well, for the past few days, I have been trying to improve myself spiritually. My meditation routine was going quite well, and I was also following the practices recommended by the High Priest. I was trying to resist certain things, as you probably understand...
Today, however, I had a serious setback.
I am a university student, and for the past few days, I had been making good progress with both my studies and my physical and mental well-being.
(Sorry for bringing up these personal matters. That is why I chose to post this in the private section.)
Today, I encountered a problem and found myself unable to control my urges regarding a particular act of self-release. I immediately went to my altar, prayed to Zeus, and meditated. I repeatedly told Zeus that I couldn't control myself and asked Him to please help me. I knew I would feel terrible afterward, but I just couldn't seem to control my urges.
However, even after meditating, I still felt the urge to go back to that act. I knew I was going to regret it...
Unfortunately, I ended up doing something I had been trying to avoid.
I understand that feelings of regret are generally natural, especially when something happens against our own wishes. But beyond the regret, I felt as though no one was there to help me.
Everyone I know at university is an atheist or a non-believer, and sometimes their views make me question my own beliefs. Honestly, this has left me feeling a little upset and uncertain.
What do you think I should do? What advice would you give me?
Thank you all for your time and understanding.