Health i think im loosing my mind

Greetings Brother.

From what you describe, you are experiencing nightmares and sleep paralysis. Sleep paralysis is a known phenomenon that can cause extremely vivid and frightening experiences, including the sensation of being touched or physically harmed. However, this does not mean that what you experienced was actually happening.

I would suggest that you temporarily stop meditating right before going to bed and instead perform your meditations earlier in the day. Also, make sure you are getting enough sleep and maintaining a regular sleeping schedule.

There is no reason to immediately assume that you are performing the Prayer of Protection incorrectly, or that these experiences have a spiritual cause.

If these episodes continue, especially considering how much distress they are causing you, I would also recommend consulting a healthcare professional.

Take care of yourself.

This can be a situation where you are overly excited, mentally stimulated, and a bit worried about it. One's mind when they start meditating and experiencing spirituality, can at first be reactive, but there's nothing to truly fear. You aren't losing your mind at all.

This will typically pass after a few weeks. Basically just be really calm, move through with this anyway, and also do the deprogramming of the mind from Christianity and Islam, as programming of the mind react and subconscious fear can manifest.

This is called "Alchemical chaos" and in the beginning of the Great Work (the work of the soul) one can be a little overall upset; this one changing and moving on for the first time, and there can be reactions. These can be positive in their result but you give yourself new experience and stimulus, causing reaction.

Today during meditation I started to fear myself. As if something powerful and strong would burst out of me.

I had a few episodes of sleep paralysis when I was a teen it is very scary I vividly thought someone was breaking in and was going to murder my family and me. I even slept with a knife for awhile. It wasn't real but I thought it was it was scary and I also a couple of times felt like an entity entered my blood stream etc. My best advice is don't let something like this get to you.

I would advise that you read about the oracle of Trophonius. Pausanias and Plutarch describe accounts that basically come down to this: first you experience fear, darkness, etc, but then you get your answers. Seems like you're in stage 1.

What kind of music made for meditation? Most of the stuff on YT about meditation, like frequencies, fake titles about frequencies audios and chakras, and the like. That's basically trash, basically none of them knows anything of what they are doing, the implications, ecc...

It's like puting random liquids together you found casually outhere, and call it a drink. Since they know that culturally water is a drink and that's it.

So it can be dangerous, it's not a playground topic.

Hello, I’m sorry you’ve been going through this.🙏

To add to the amazing advice given.

Maybe you can do a hymn before sleep for Goddess night.

Her hymn is said to help with the following

Prayer to Night for repose, release from care, and protection from nocturnal terrors. It honours her as a divine source of dreams and the mother of Gods and mortals.

Use independently before rest or during a vigil devoted to Night. It may supplement an established rite seeking peaceful sleep or protection through the night, with attention to the closing request that fears be sent away.

Great luck brother/sister let nothing stop you🙏

Nightmares and sleep paralysis in most cases have a psychological aspect.

It is quite possible that in life you encounter situations that cause you anxiety and anxiety for a long time, or in a short period of time you are in situations that cause you great anxiety.

Sleep paralysis is an unpleasant sensation, sometimes it may seem that you are suffocating, or turning over inside your own body, but you cannot wake up or turn around. In most cases, sleep paralysis is safe and when you cope with the fear of sleep paralysis, which should not frighten you, sleep paralysis usually does not appear.

Regarding nightmares, they can be created by current life situations that cause you anxiety and anxiety. Resolving or eliminating these situations, when the anxiety in your life disappears, also eliminates nightmares that may appear due to unresolved life situations that cause severe anxiety.