I think i need advice i'm not to sure if i'm honest

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Hiya everyone  Well im 18 now, but when i was 17 i dedicated myself to satan, for some reason i didnt think it was vaild, every speaks of they felt so much more happier ect. i just felt sad? and every night i would have these horrid nightmares of me constantly dieing a different death each time. im not being funny i didnt know there was so many ways to die. after a while i decided it was Father Satans thought, someone convinced me some how. i shouldnt have let me messed with my beliefs and im happy that person is out of my life now. but I hope Father Satan can forgive me?
I recently forced myself to go back to my beliefs i dont know why i left or how people of different beliefs try so hard to twist your mind..
I know you have to be open spiritually but currently i am having so much trouble i cant meditate my mind just keeps talking and talking it wont shut up! sometimes the most random thought "i might get a cuppa tea" 
Last night i actually tried "Astral Projecting" to my surprise nothing happened  I didn'tbelieve in it but on my 2nd attempt right after my first with my eyes closed i saw stars? like the constulations the exact stars where they were, just this made my heart go crazy and i woke up i think i was overly happy that i could say to myself it was real. 
If anyone has any advice for me please please feel free to tell me If i spelt some stuff wrong of got punctuation wrong im sorry i am dyslexic Looking forward to talking to you all

 

[en_haradren_amlug]

Meditation, persistence and patience. These are the keys to spiritual success in Satanism. Practice Void Meditation. This will help greatly with your attention span and ability to concentrate. And just keep practicing. You won't get any better at something if you wait and do nothing. -En Haradren Amlug.

 

[Light Yagami]

You are dyslexic? You didn't make any mistake at all, so don't worry. (and even if you did, as long as we can understand what you're writing, that's what matters. xD)
About the stars that you saw, I believe that it was a vision. I do not know exactly what it meant, or what it symbolized (to you; this is personal), but write this down (and always, write down the meditations you do, etc, things you notice, new experiences and the like).Now, I know it's really hard when our minds are so damn random (I know the feeling!) but don't give up! I advice you to do lots of Void Meditation, and yes, it needs extreme patience...You could even work with the Runes, for example vibrate Isa in your aura for stilling the mind etc.
Also, talk to your Guardian and/or Satan, if you feel that the problem is persisting; but I advice you to try on your own to solve it first.
Oh lastly, what you experienced about the nightmares etc, I believe, without a doubt, that it was the enemy trying to fuck you up; and obviously, the fact that you are here now, means that the enemy didn't do such a good job. So, welcome back, and this time, stay permanently!
Απο: "jackathorr@..." <jackathorr@...
Προς: [email protected]
Στάλθηκε: 12:41 μ.μ. Δευτέρα, 14 Οκτωβρίου 2013
Θέμα: [JoyofSatan666] I think i need advice i'm not to sure if i'm honest

  Hiya everyone  Well im 18 now, but when i was 17 i dedicated myself to satan, for some reason i didnt think it was vaild, every speaks of they felt so much more happier ect. i just felt sad? and every night i would have these horrid nightmares of me constantly dieing a different death each time. im not being funny i didnt know there was so many ways to die. after a while i decided it was Father Satans thought, someone convinced me some how. i shouldnt have let me messed with my beliefs and im happy that person is out of my life now. but I hope Father Satan can forgive me?
I recently forced myself to go back to my beliefs i dont know why i left or how people of different beliefs try so hard to twist your mind..
I know you have to be open spiritually but currently i am having so much trouble i cant meditate my mind just keeps talking and talking it wont shut up! sometimes the most random thought "i might get a cuppa tea" 
Last night i actually tried "Astral Projecting" to my surprise nothing happened  I didn'tbelieve in it but on my 2nd attempt right after my first with my eyes closed i saw stars? like the constulations the exact stars where they were, just this made my heart go crazy and i woke up i think i was overly happy that i could say to myself it was real. 
If anyone has any advice for me please please feel free to tell me If i spelt some stuff wrong of got punctuation wrong im sorry i am dyslexic Looking forward to talking to you all

 

[mancunianninja]

Meditate everyday And read in the yahoo groups and on the JOS sites.
HAIL SATAN AND THE GODS!

---In [email protected], <tapapakiastinseira@... wrote:

You are dyslexic? You didn't make any mistake at all, so don't worry. (and even if you did, as long as we can understand what you're writing, that's what matters. xD)
About the stars that you saw, I believe that it was a vision. I do not know exactly what it meant, or what it symbolized (to you; this is personal), but write this down (and always, write down the meditations you do, etc, things you notice, new experiences and the like).Now, I know it's really hard when our minds are so damn random (I know the feeling!) but don't give up! I advice you to do lots of Void Meditation, and yes, it needs extreme patience...You could even work with the Runes, for example vibrate Isa in your aura for stilling the mind etc.
Also, talk to your Guardian and/or Satan, if you feel that the problem is persisting; but I advice you to try on your own to solve it first.
Oh lastly, what you experienced about the nightmares etc, I believe, without a doubt, that it was the enemy trying to fuck you up; and obviously, the fact that you are here now, means that the enemy didn't do such a good job. So, welcome back, and this time, stay permanently!
Απο: "jackathorr@..." <jackathorr@...
Προς: [email protected]
Στάλθηκε: 12:41 μ.μ. Δευτέρα, 14 Οκτωβρίου 2013
Θέμα: [JoyofSatan666] I think i need advice i'm not to sure if i'm honest

  Hiya everyone  Well im 18 now, but when i was 17 i dedicated myself to satan, for some reason i didnt think it was vaild, every speaks of they felt so much more happier ect. i just felt sad? and every night i would have these horrid nightmares of me constantly dieing a different death each time. im not being funny i didnt know there was so many ways to die. after a while i decided it was Father Satans thought, someone convinced me some how. i shouldnt have let me messed with my beliefs and im happy that person is out of my life now. but I hope Father Satan can forgive me?
I recently forced myself to go back to my beliefs i dont know why i left or how people of different beliefs try so hard to twist your mind..
I know you have to be open spiritually but currently i am having so much trouble i cant meditate my mind just keeps talking and talking it wont shut up! sometimes the most random thought "i might get a cuppa tea" 
Last night i actually tried "Astral Projecting" to my surprise nothing happened  I didn'tbelieve in it but on my 2nd attempt right after my first with my eyes closed i saw stars? like the constulations the exact stars where they were, just this made my heart go crazy and i woke up i think i was overly happy that i could say to myself it was real. 
If anyone has any advice for me please please feel free to tell me If i spelt some stuff wrong of got punctuation wrong im sorry i am dyslexic Looking forward to talking to you all