I need to get back on track

[Valeska]

My boyfriend and I are on vacation and this had completely thrown me for a loop. I feel depressed and anxious. I find it hard to stick to meditations because I don't really have a normal routine right now. I feel like I'm avoiding it in a way because I don't want to feel how I feel which is shitty. Any advice on getting back on track and not shame spiraling further? I've been listening to sermons but I feel afraid to face my feelings in meditation.
Thank you for your time
Hail Zeus

 

[Valeska]

I guess another thing I'm curious about, what some of your schedules look like/how much meditation? And other activities? I find it inspiring that some people are so busy yet manage to meditate a substantial amount

 

[OrionKrieger]

Don’t be afraid to face your emotions while meditating because that’s something everyone goes through and it’s part of growing

I suggest waking up very early (me personally i wake up around 5 AM, though sometimes i wake up much later) and doing the meditations like that, at least the AoP and cleaning. It saves you time and you have the rest of the day to plan other works or just do the necessities