I need a better AoP :( and I feel like giving up

[Ignisalas]

Anyone have any ideas for a powerful and quick AoP? Ive been using the Algiz rune for a while and I need a new AoP idea. Im getting burnt out on using algiz I guess. I have these awful thoughts about Satan and the gods, and I cant handle that anymore. I don't know if its a psychic attack, or if its just my own mind fucking with me because to tell the truth im not really happy here and im not making any progress at my own development.

I also want to know how exactly do I use the Munka working to free myself? Ive tried it before for a few days then I just gave up on it because I felt like it wasn't doing anything for me. I stay in such an unhappy state that its impossible for me to feel any type of freedom and happiness from these type working. Ive been destroyed by my natal chart. Poverty, sexual deprivation, unpopularity. I cant escape the shit I go through. I just cant bring myself out of it all and im about to give up on this shit. I know my sacral chakra is probably damaged into oblivion. Im doing everything I can to open up my upper chakras so I can get to my sacral chakra and start working on it.
To tell the truth I fucking hate these long ass meditations and sitting still for long periods of time. But I do atleast work on my third eye a little every day by doing 40 reps on thaum, and I work on my Sixth and solar chakras too. I don't want to fill my day up with more than 4 different types of meditaions.

I feel like my lower chakras are badly damaged, should I start working on them to remove the bad karma and energy attached to them and scrap the sixth chakra working? Like I said, im a hot headed person and I just cant find the focus and peace to do more than like 4 different workings everyday.
Maybe I do need to worry about trying to fix the negative karma and all the nasty shit wrong with me before I start working on my astral senses and other things.

Ive worked on my upper chakras a lot before, but ive done next to nothing with my lower chakras, other than my solar plexus. I feel like a lot of bad things that happen to me in life is because of my sacral and base chakra being damaged. Maybe I will start working on them and cleaning them and hold off on working on my sixth chakra, but I will keep doing my third eye meditation. I do have sexual hangups and a lot of issues that have to do with finding a partner and sex itself. I have pretty bad tooth decay and I have bad skin rashes that are all over my hands and fingers. Since the Sacral and Base chakras and their planets rule these things, maybe itll be best if I start working on them regardless if my upper chakras are opened or not.

You guys here are like a family to me, I cant even love my own personal family as much as I love you guys here. But the problem is that I cant really get any response from the gods when I try to talk with them. I don't know if they can hear me or not. I don't really do any ritual or anything, i'll just be sitting in my bedroom and start talking to them. I only hope that one day they will show up either with a blatant sign or show up in my dreams. The feeling of loneliness in all of this is what effects me deeply and It makes it so hard to keep going in this.

So i'll start doing working on cleaning and strengthening my lower chakras, since I feel like they are the cause of most of my problems in life and I think I just now found that out while typing all of this. Maybe it was the gods giving me an idea, or maybe it wasn't. I'll see where it goes from here after I start cleaning and working on my base and sacral chakras.

But heres another question, should I use munka, Uruz, or Ansuz for this? Should I use munka and affirm "The energy of munka is removing all negative karma, bindings and energies from my chakras" Or if I use Uruz, should I say something like "The energy of the rune Uruz is freeing my chakras from all negative karma and energies" are both of these affirmations good and valid to use? Also should I say the affirmations 8 times or 9 times for this type of thing? Im guessing 9 right?

My internet may be getting shut off in like 2 days, so i'll get back to you guys when I can.

 

[ZirGohed999]

There is nothing wrong with you. You're just being hysterical.
It's very logical to feel the pain and insanity in your soul when you're meditating on it. What you are feeling is very normal. What do you expect when you're cleaning bad energies that has accumulated in your soul? You should expect the bad energy to come to the surface, and the despair to feel real. It shows that your meditation is working. You should be happy, you're cleaning out.
At this time, you should work evenly on all the chakras. Clearing the blockages and cleaning them from head down.
Trust your gut and continue with the work on your soul. If your gut says you shouldn't do much then don't. Instead start with a low rep/count you can even out on all your chakras and increase it gradually until you get to the optimal rep you desire.
Don't affirm the difficulties you're going through, instead focus on your possibilities. They symptoms you're going through are the classical examples of cleaning the soul.
Stop the claims of being hot-headed, deprived and all that. Who doesn't get mad? Just work on your self, if the negativity won't stop then you can calm the hysteria with ISA rune, it doesn't take much rep. Having women as sexual partners isn't a big deal, the fear of approaching is an illusion once you clear your mind/soul. Work on your social skills, but have it in mind that nobody has this skill 100%. It can't be perfect at this level but it can be good.

Your meditation experience is teaching you how to take the dross from your soul. Once you know how, you can have sexual intimacy with the ones you like and still take their dross of your soul.
I will know you have joined me and others in the club of real Alpha males when you're posting your series of chivalry and romantic encounters on the group and encouraging others to do the same. It may happen soon, it may happen later but just keep at it.

 

[Nick Vabzircnila]

You should probably empower your base chakra. Apart from everything else you may be doing, start doing a substantial number of vibrations into it on Saturdays during one of the hours of Saturn. Every Saturday.

It seems you think parts of your soul are somehow defect. Maybe you need to drop this idea and empower these instead so they feel better. Your feeling may be caused by atrophy. Check out the sermon "Meditational Truth Time" by HP Mageson.

For your AOP, do the one on the JoS website. Returning Curses - part 1 and 2. Both of them, everyday, using the SURYA.

Gold advice here (to be modest), you should take it ^

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Kundalini yoga, then returning curses 1 and 2, then Ritual.

 

[NinRick]

Yo!
Regarding those bad thoughts. It is actually quite simple. You are a dedicaded Satanist, you are a family member of Satans family, you have no fear of them, you love them and you are very thankful, you are probably doing the Rituals and you are working to become stronger.
These thoughts are just thoughts, you don‘t really mean what you think. Just ignore them and you will feel improvement. As you progress these thoughts will fade away. Especially when you find your guardian.
When you get upset about these thought while meditating or doing the Ritual you are not efficiently doing them because your thoughts will cause negative emotions because you are upset with your thoughts, you may jump up, hit your head, bite ur arm and think stuff like „you ungreatful bastard! How can you think sonwthing like that!“, see while you are meditating/doing Rituals you are supposed to focus.

I am in a similar situation, but since I ignore them, because it is not really what I feel, it got better and better.

Idk wheter it is the enemy or not. But these thoughts come while meditating/doing Rituals and I got fucken upset, thus getting distracted. It might be the enemy because sometimes a thought says „this Ritual doesnt do anything, you are making the hebrew letters stronger“ but I was like „nope I litterly just tore one of them in my mind in Thousands of pieces, I am pretty sure its dead“
Just ignore them and your situation will automatically improve

 

[NinRick]

Anyone have any ideas for a powerful and quick AoP? Ive been using the Algiz rune for a while and I need a new AoP idea. Im getting burnt out on using algiz I guess. I have these awful thoughts about Satan and the gods, and I cant handle that anymore. I don't know if its a psychic attack, or if its just my own mind fucking with me because to tell the truth im not really happy here and im not making any progress at my own development.

I also want to know how exactly do I use the Munka working to free myself? Ive tried it before for a few days then I just gave up on it because I felt like it wasn't doing anything for me. I stay in such an unhappy state that its impossible for me to feel any type of freedom and happiness from these type working. Ive been destroyed by my natal chart. Poverty, sexual deprivation, unpopularity. I cant escape the shit I go through. I just cant bring myself out of it all and im about to give up on this shit. I know my sacral chakra is probably damaged into oblivion. Im doing everything I can to open up my upper chakras so I can get to my sacral chakra and start working on it.
To tell the truth I fucking hate these long ass meditations and sitting still for long periods of time. But I do atleast work on my third eye a little every day by doing 40 reps on thaum, and I work on my Sixth and solar chakras too. I don't want to fill my day up with more than 4 different types of meditaions.

I feel like my lower chakras are badly damaged, should I start working on them to remove the bad karma and energy attached to them and scrap the sixth chakra working? Like I said, im a hot headed person and I just cant find the focus and peace to do more than like 4 different workings everyday.
Maybe I do need to worry about trying to fix the negative karma and all the nasty shit wrong with me before I start working on my astral senses and other things.

Ive worked on my upper chakras a lot before, but ive done next to nothing with my lower chakras, other than my solar plexus. I feel like a lot of bad things that happen to me in life is because of my sacral and base chakra being damaged. Maybe I will start working on them and cleaning them and hold off on working on my sixth chakra, but I will keep doing my third eye meditation. I do have sexual hangups and a lot of issues that have to do with finding a partner and sex itself. I have pretty bad tooth decay and I have bad skin rashes that are all over my hands and fingers. Since the Sacral and Base chakras and their planets rule these things, maybe itll be best if I start working on them regardless if my upper chakras are opened or not.

You guys here are like a family to me, I cant even love my own personal family as much as I love you guys here. But the problem is that I cant really get any response from the gods when I try to talk with them. I don't know if they can hear me or not. I don't really do any ritual or anything, i'll just be sitting in my bedroom and start talking to them. I only hope that one day they will show up either with a blatant sign or show up in my dreams. The feeling of loneliness in all of this is what effects me deeply and It makes it so hard to keep going in this.

So i'll start doing working on cleaning and strengthening my lower chakras, since I feel like they are the cause of most of my problems in life and I think I just now found that out while typing all of this. Maybe it was the gods giving me an idea, or maybe it wasn't. I'll see where it goes from here after I start cleaning and working on my base and sacral chakras.

But heres another question, should I use munka, Uruz, or Ansuz for this? Should I use munka and affirm "The energy of munka is removing all negative karma, bindings and energies from my chakras" Or if I use Uruz, should I say something like "The energy of the rune Uruz is freeing my chakras from all negative karma and energies" are both of these affirmations good and valid to use? Also should I say the affirmations 8 times or 9 times for this type of thing? Im guessing 9 right?

My internet may be getting shut off in like 2 days, so i'll get back to you guys when I can.

Bump

 

[Alexander666]

Kundalini yoga, then returning curses 1 and 2, then Ritual.

Why is rc1 and rc 1 done before th Ritual ??

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Kundalini yoga, then returning curses 1 and 2, then Ritual.

Why is rc1 and rc 1 done before th Ritual ??

You could do in either order.