theop.chipyx
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3 years by now that I'm in Spiritual satanism and I'm sure as existence itself that I must continue on it. For this reason I'm fighting and asking help from those who are much more experienced. So I feel profoundly in touch with Satan and even my subconscious mind drags me to Him when I'm in trouble...now ...I know He wants me to destroy my doubts infused in the last period by enemy influence , it just cuts me into pieces mentally, and with some certain planets in this moment passing some nevralgic points in my life , Now more than ever I need to have the mental kick necesary to destroy doubt. What I have doubts in reguard to is simply what Maxine Dietrich wrote on the website, and by that I don't mean all the things , they make sense , too much so that I could take whatever piece of trash from the internet and with a simple analisys based on the info on joy of Satan , debunk it or understand the mechanism behind...One single thing kicks me in the crouch... The ''Freeing the Demons'' section. Now I Do Not Put A single doubt that Miss Maxine Detrich (and here I swear only if I could have a way to put into words the respect I personally have for her and the work she made...if it wasn't for the site I would be dead , and gone from existence , if not phisically ,at least for sure mentally) says and writes what she KNOWS is true.. I don't have much life experience (in this lifetime for now) but as fear kicked in , I wanted to be sure , and for a simple hypothtical situation I tooked an outside point of view just to be sure that I wasn't lying to myself , after all if Satan is true all the things converge back to Him , no matter what stand point you're looking from , it's enough to be sincere with yourself, right? And they do for fuck sake (sry for the expression) everything from the astrological point of view to the dailly routine , there is allways an element that recounduces me to Satan, I could just stare at a tree for hours now , It's not anymore ''just a tree'' ,it's alive and it's a energy conductor, other than a rapresentation of the human soul , it has prana , and only something that makes me more or less Godlike permits me to see it and experience it that way , and that all because of me beeing a Spiritual Satanist ... nothing else did opened this for me , nothing...What else could it be ? Self-suggestion? what a blah , no self suggestion brings this type of evolution in such short period of time, and this can be seen with those ppl dragging tones of shit and spending years uppon years in the hope of experiencing something paranormal...other than that all the pages made for ''debunking'' the Joy of Satan , be it forums, be it whathever sites, facebook pages ,etc, ALL use one simple tactic , the same old ''you're nuts'' stamp. Simple and to the core they present the joy of Satan just like whatever else piece of filth , with the same old ''ah YOU KNOW (the empire of the status quo ''you MUST conform'' in two words) just a bunch of silly teens thinking they're Superman , and that want to kill all the jews by the way...'' ,simple to understand that , but though that is the norm , one thing got stuck in my brain , and whenever I think I make progressess , my mind brings me back to that one piece of puzzle...
I must be sincere here with myself , I felt attacked by this statement and given all the above I shouldn't even had to give a damn about that statement, but it was more than just that, I was feeling in danger that the slightest possible reality of the existence of that single piece of trash could destroy the trust I've gained in myself and the Gods. Thats all , that only single element. I soon lost the quote as I retreated in an ignorant type of defense , trying not to mind about it , but I was lying to myself , it was and it is trivial for me to prove it's just nonesense like all the other things. For this I ask the help of those who might know what I'm talking about and help me kick the truth out of it...I don't have any ideea from where I could start looking for it, and I'm sure that my gut feeling it's allways right, other than just following Superman's advice. Thank you in advance to all of you , AND HEIL TO THE ANCIENT GODS!I can't find nor the exact quote and not even the piece of filth that posted it , but it gave information that the Freeing the Demons part of the joy of Satan , in reality, is just a story from a biography of a xtian magus doing operations for freeing the ''Demons'' or whatever and that the book it's written long before Maxine did put up the site.<<<