i just do not understand...

[Allison Passino]

They all say here that Satan rewards those who serve and help him, and
this I do believe! yet, though i try to do my best to help in the
groups here, and do online warfare and educate people in public, and
also group rituals, he does not give me the one thing I want most of
all! I wish to be with my fiancee; he is also a dedicated Spiritual
Satanist. We are living apart at the moment; we met online about five
years ago. Though we've actually been together for two years. The
situation is, I am blind, and about 16 years younger than he is. The
age thing doesn't bother me personally, but he expresses concern, like
that, if we have kids, the age thing will be a problem because by the
time the first one is 16 or whatever, he'll be like 60. Well who
cares? I mean, really. Besides eventually he is going to do the magnum
opus, so won't the age thing be kinda moot? And, he has other doubts
too, more vague. I just don't know. I love him more than anything in
this world, besides Father of course, but I am scared I shall lose him
'cause he'll just give up. See, he has a not very good job, and he
doesn't wanna marry me unless he can get a better paying job; I do not
work right now. I am on sSI benefits. And really, I don't want to do
anything except somehow, make a career out of working for our father,
like I said in a previous post. Sorry for this long,rather incoherent
message, brethren. I am just feeling a bit low and discouraged right
now, and since I have already whined to Father satan about this more
than once, I thought I'd just throw it in here. I do hope he sends me
some sort of sign or directs me what to do,'cause right now I
seriously do not know. It is just so hard, sometimes! I try to be
patient, and work for our Lord Satan the best I can, but it is rather
frustrating, when I am not obtaining the one thing I truly want on
this earth! Okay, am done bitching now. Thanks to those of you who
read this whole mess! ^ Hail Father Satan always! Hail Lord Andras!
Hail Sorath, the one who burns!

 

[Light Yagami]

Tsk... I didn't read the whole message because I kind of got fucking pissed.Do you think that, just because someone meditates, they'll surely achieve the Magnum Opus? Do you know how many years that requires? I don't think you've truly understood Satan's nature... If Satan believes that this person will harm you (in some way, you won't be able to imagine now) then OBVIOUSLY, He will not "grant your wish" for obvious reasons!!!!! Don't connive yourself with the excuse that "hey I'm in love, we'll be happy together!" come on for fuck's sake...... I truly got pissed. I have nothing more to say. If you've been meditating (for how long?) and you still think that Satan would do anything that would hurt you or that He wouldn't give anything back to you... Then fuck girl, you're at the wrong place. Go pray to jewsus and wait for salvation or something... Satan has done so much for me, that it's really unbelievable when I read such posts... Use your fucking brain a little. Στις 3:56 π.μ. Κυριακή, 6 Απριλίου 2014, ο/η Allison Passino <apocalypseofjon@... έγραψε:
  They all say here that Satan rewards those who serve and help him, and
this I do believe! yet, though i try to do my best to help in the
groups here, and do online warfare and educate people in public, and
also group rituals, he does not give me the one thing I want most of
all! I wish to be with my fiancee; he is also a dedicated Spiritual
Satanist. We are living apart at the moment; we met online about five
years ago. Though we've actually been together for two years. The
situation is, I am blind, and about 16 years younger than he is. The
age thing doesn't bother me personally, but he expresses concern, like
that, if we have kids, the age thing will be a problem because by the
time the first one is 16 or whatever, he'll be like 60. Well who
cares? I mean, really. Besides eventually he is going to do the magnum
opus, so won't the age thing be kinda moot? And, he has other doubts
too, more vague. I just don't know. I love him more than anything in
this world, besides Father of course, but I am scared I shall lose him
'cause he'll just give up. See, he has a not very good job, and he
doesn't wanna marry me unless he can get a better paying job; I do not
work right now. I am on sSI benefits. And really, I don't want to do
anything except somehow, make a career out of working for our father,
like I said in a previous post. Sorry for this long,rather incoherent
message, brethren. I am just feeling a bit low and discouraged right
now, and since I have already whined to Father satan about this more
than once, I thought I'd just throw it in here. I do hope he sends me
some sort of sign or directs me what to do,'cause right now I
seriously do not know. It is just so hard, sometimes! I try to be
patient, and work for our Lord Satan the best I can, but it is rather
frustrating, when I am not obtaining the one thing I truly want on
this earth! Okay, am done bitching now. Thanks to those of you who
read this whole mess! ^ Hail Father Satan always! Hail Lord Andras!
Hail Sorath, the one who burns!

 

[Allison Passino]

That was extremely unhelpful, my friend. I know how long the magnum
opus bloody takes! Hell, Maxine hasn't even done it yet! But the
process, once started, cannot be undone, yes?

On 4/6/14, Light Yagami <tapapakiastinseira@... wrote:
Tsk... I didn't read the whole message because I kind of got fucking
pissed.
Do you think that, just because someone meditates, they'll surely achieve
the Magnum Opus? Do you know how many years that requires? I don't think
you've truly understood Satan's nature... If Satan believes that this person
will harm you (in some way, you won't be able to imagine now) then
OBVIOUSLY, He will not "grant your wish" for obvious reasons!!!!! Don't
connive yourself with the excuse that "hey I'm in love, we'll be happy
together!" come on for fuck's sake...... I truly got pissed. I have nothing
more to say. If you've been meditating (for how long?) and you still think
that Satan would do anything that would hurt you or that He wouldn't give
anything back to you... Then fuck girl, you're at the wrong place. Go pray
to jewsus and wait for salvation or something... Satan has done so much for
me, that it's really unbelievable when I read such posts... Use your fucking
brain a little.
Στις 3:56 π.μ. Κυριακή, 6 Απριλίου 2014, ο/η Allison Passino
<apocalypseofjon@... έγραψε:


They all say here that Satan rewards those who serve and help him, and
this I do believe! yet, though i try to do my best to help in the
groups here, and do online warfare and educate people in public, and
also group rituals, he does not give me the one thing I want most of
all! I wish to be with my fiancee; he is also a dedicated Spiritual
Satanist. We are living apart at the moment; we met online about five
years ago. Though we've actually been together for two years. The
situation is, I am blind, and about 16 years younger than he is. The
age thing doesn't bother me personally, but he expresses concern, like
that, if we have kids, the age thing will be a problem because by the
time the first one is 16 or whatever, he'll be like 60. Well who
cares? I mean, really. Besides eventually he is going to do the magnum
opus, so won't the age thing be kinda moot? And, he has other doubts
too, more vague. I just don't know. I love him more than anything in
this world, besides Father of course, but I am scared I shall lose him
'cause he'll just give up. See, he has a not very good job, and he
doesn't wanna marry me unless he can get a better paying job; I do not
work right now. I am on sSI benefits. And really, I don't want to do
anything except somehow, make a career out of working for our father,
like I said in a previous post. Sorry for this long,rather incoherent
message, brethren. I am just feeling a bit low and discouraged right
now, and since I have already whined to Father satan about this more
than once, I thought I'd just throw it in here. I do hope he sends me
some sort of sign or directs me what to do,'cause right now I
seriously do not know. It is just so hard, sometimes! I try to be
patient, and work for our Lord Satan the best I can, but it is rather
frustrating, when I am not obtaining the one thing I truly want on
this earth! Okay, am done bitching now. Thanks to those of you who
read this whole mess! ^ Hail Father Satan always! Hail Lord Andras!
Hail Sorath, the one who burns!

 

[Light Yagami]

No, even if one starts performing the meditations for the Magnum Opus, it does not mean anything... He may be so violently attacked by the enemy that he'll give up or something. One must be strong.
Anyway, whether you found my answer helpful or not; it's up to you. Thing is Satan would not deny your happiness for NO reason; unless it would not make you happy. Στις 8:47 μ.μ. Κυριακή, 6 Απριλίου 2014, ο/η Allison Passino <apocalypseofjon@... έγραψε:
That was extremely unhelpful, my friend. I know how long the magnum
opus bloody takes! Hell, Maxine hasn't even done it yet! But the
process, once started, cannot be undone, yes?

On 4/6/14, Light Yagami <tapapakiastinseira@... wrote:
Tsk... I didn't read the whole message because I kind of got fucking
pissed.
Do you think that, just because someone meditates, they'll surely achieve
the Magnum Opus? Do you know how many years that requires? I don't think
you've truly understood Satan's nature... If Satan believes that this person
will harm you (in some way, you won't be able to imagine now) then
OBVIOUSLY, He will not "grant your wish" for obvious reasons!!!!! Don't
connive yourself with the excuse that "hey I'm in love, we'll be happy
together!" come on for fuck's sake...... I truly got pissed. I have nothing
more to say. If you've been meditating (for how long?) and you still think
that Satan would do anything that would hurt you or that He wouldn't give
anything back to you... Then fuck girl, you're at the wrong place. Go pray
to jewsus and wait for salvation or something... Satan has done so much for
me, that it's really unbelievable when I read such posts... Use your fucking
brain a little.
Στις 3:56 π.μ. Κυριακή, 6 Απριλίου 2014, ο/η Allison Passino
<apocalypseofjon@... έγραψε:


They all say here that Satan rewards those who serve and help him, and
this I do believe! yet, though i try to do my best to help in the
groups here, and do online warfare and educate people in public, and
also group rituals, he does not give me the one thing I want most of
all! I wish to be with my fiancee; he is also a dedicated Spiritual
Satanist. We are living apart at the moment; we met online about five
years ago. Though we've actually been together for two years. The
situation is, I am blind, and about 16 years younger than he is. The
age thing doesn't bother me personally, but he expresses concern, like
that, if we have kids, the age thing will be a problem because by the
time the first one is 16 or whatever, he'll be like 60. Well who
cares? I mean, really. Besides eventually he is going to do the magnum
opus, so won't the age thing be kinda moot? And, he has other doubts
too, more vague. I just don't know. I love him more than anything in
this world, besides Father of course, but I am scared I shall lose him
'cause he'll just give up. See, he has a not very good job, and he
doesn't wanna marry me unless he can get a better paying job; I do not
work right now. I am on sSI benefits. And really, I don't want to do
anything except somehow, make a career out of working for our father,
like I said in a previous post. Sorry for this long,rather incoherent
message, brethren. I am just feeling a bit low and discouraged right
now, and since I have already whined to Father satan about this more
than once, I thought I'd just throw it in here. I do hope he sends me
some sort of sign or directs me what to do,'cause right now I
seriously do not know. It is just so hard, sometimes! I try to be
patient, and work for our Lord Satan the best I can, but it is rather
frustrating, when I am not obtaining the one thing I truly want on
this earth! Okay, am done bitching now. Thanks to those of you who
read this whole mess! ^ Hail Father Satan always! Hail Lord Andras!
Hail Sorath, the one who burns!




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[filipch]

Light Yagami has a perfect point. I have been in a very similar situation, very recently. Father helped me in the past, but this time he didn't and any of my own workings towards achieving the greatly desired goal were just plain failing, despite being performed and timed adequately. Soon enough, my emotions subsided and I could view the entire situation rationally. I could see why Satan didn't let my desire come true - because it would just end up causing far more trouble and pain than it's worth, and not just for me. A while ago I was feeling very, very depressed, somehow I managed to question whether the spiritual advancements I made were real or just all in my mind. Probably an enemy attack. So I went into a trance and just asked Father to let me know he's with me and surely, I started perceiving white flashing with my astral sight and a second later, I was overwhelmed with a surge of powerful energy, it felt like my entire soul was burning. It wasn't painful or even mildly unpleasant. It felt exhilarating and powerful, I was completely hyperactive, bursting with energy, for hours after that. I no longer doubt his existence and I trust him. I realized myself why he didn't let my desire come true, maybe you should try to as well, even though you may not like the idea of that. I know I didn't, at least while emotions still had me on their leash.