I have a lot of anger.

[magus.immortalis1]

Greetings Brothers and Sisters,

as I have written before, I am going through a kundalini awakening. This process has been both blissful and unpleasant. Now, I have the issues of dealing with rage and fury that is coming up. I know it's not my meditations that are bringing up these repressed emotions. I also feel intuitively that it's from a past life, or lives, as I have looked into my childhood and it was on the whole, pleasant. I was abused a bit but I have forgiven my older brother (because we were both kids, and siblings have a tendency sometimes of hitting each other because they are going through their own hormones and angst.) So it cannot be that. My brother and I get along well now.

I was almost in tears the other day, while in the car going to lunch with my parents. It just came out of nowhere. My mind was void.

My brother knows my stance on the Jews, Christianity, and Islam. He also knows that I am a Spiritual Satanist and my stances on Satanism. He has mentioned to me that I cannot progress further in my life with so much hate in my life. I feel that I have justified hate towards the enemies of Satan. But this anger and hate is seeping into other aspects of my life, it comes out when I speak to others. At Costco, my dad mentioned that " 'god' gives us gifts that we must use." (He's an xian.) I became furious and stated as calmly as possible, "We have our own gifts. "God" gives us nothing. He should not be praised for it." Perhaps it was the way I said it. But yesterday in the car, I felt this rage and anger seeping at the corners of my consciousness. It felt like an ocean that I was keeping my head above for the time being.

I know the Kundalini Serpent brings up repressed emotions for us to deal with. My question is, what is the best way to deal with this rage and anger? Before it overwhelms me? And yes, I see a psychiatrist (a Gentile one) so I will mention it to him also and see what he says.

Hail Satan!
Hail Lilith!

 

[magus.immortalis1]

I forgot to mention that recently, in the past two weeks, I heavily cursed a LHP following occultist on Facebook who thought that Lord Satan and the Powers of Hell were "forces" and this person thought they were "god".
My curse was to damn them into the cycle of death and rebirth, never to see enlightenment, being no better then an animal (rutting and foraging for food forever). As I drew my oracle card deck recently, the cards spoke to me: my Guardians brought this cursing incident to my attention, because this person obviously did not deserve to be cursed like that. I did defend Lord Satan and try to get them to the truth, but they rejected my opinions. I felt such rage and fury and took it out on them.

I am seriously considering Anger Management classes. I feel this anger has to be dealt with before I take it out on more people, deserving or not.

Hail Satan! Hail the True Powers of Hell forever!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "magus.immortalis" <magus.immortalis@... wrote:

Greetings Brothers and Sisters,

as I have written before, I am going through a kundalini awakening. This process has been both blissful and unpleasant. Now, I have the issues of dealing with rage and fury that is coming up. I know it's not my meditations that are bringing up these repressed emotions. I also feel intuitively that it's from a past life, or lives, as I have looked into my childhood and it was on the whole, pleasant. I was abused a bit but I have forgiven my older brother (because we were both kids, and siblings have a tendency sometimes of hitting each other because they are going through their own hormones and angst.) So it cannot be that. My brother and I get along well now.

I was almost in tears the other day, while in the car going to lunch with my parents. It just came out of nowhere. My mind was void.

My brother knows my stance on the Jews, Christianity, and Islam. He also knows that I am a Spiritual Satanist and my stances on Satanism. He has mentioned to me that I cannot progress further in my life with so much hate in my life. I feel that I have justified hate towards the enemies of Satan. But this anger and hate is seeping into other aspects of my life, it comes out when I speak to others. At Costco, my dad mentioned that " 'god' gives us gifts that we must use." (He's an xian.) I became furious and stated as calmly as possible, "We have our own gifts. "God" gives us nothing. He should not be praised for it." Perhaps it was the way I said it. But yesterday in the car, I felt this rage and anger seeping at the corners of my consciousness. It felt like an ocean that I was keeping my head above for the time being.

I know the Kundalini Serpent brings up repressed emotions for us to deal with. My question is, what is the best way to deal with this rage and anger? Before it overwhelms me? And yes, I see a psychiatrist (a Gentile one) so I will mention it to him also and see what he says.

Hail Satan!
Hail Lilith!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

I find that I am very sensitive to somethings like nature.Like I find no joy in bass fishing like I use too.And its not because I feel there is anything wrong with it,because anything I catch I eat.But it just does not appeal to me for sport anymore.Plus I am lashing out at people to for no reason.My wife told me to start breathing a lot the water element during my meditations,because I have too much fire.So maybe that will help with you too sister.Just a thought for you. Hail Satan
Brian 

From: magus.immortalis <magus.immortalis@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, December 31, 2012 10:56 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I have a lot of anger.

  Greetings Brothers and Sisters,

as I have written before, I am going through a kundalini awakening. This process has been both blissful and unpleasant. Now, I have the issues of dealing with rage and fury that is coming up. I know it's not my meditations that are bringing up these repressed emotions. I also feel intuitively that it's from a past life, or lives, as I have looked into my childhood and it was on the whole, pleasant. I was abused a bit but I have forgiven my older brother (because we were both kids, and siblings have a tendency sometimes of hitting each other because they are going through their own hormones and angst.) So it cannot be that. My brother and I get along well now.

I was almost in tears the other day, while in the car going to lunch with my parents. It just came out of nowhere. My mind was void.

My brother knows my stance on the Jews, Christianity, and Islam. He also knows that I am a Spiritual Satanist and my stances on Satanism. He has mentioned to me that I cannot progress further in my life with so much hate in my life. I feel that I have justified hate towards the enemies of Satan. But this anger and hate is seeping into other aspects of my life, it comes out when I speak to others. At Costco, my dad mentioned that " 'god' gives us gifts that we must use." (He's an xian.) I became furious and stated as calmly as possible, "We have our own gifts. "God" gives us nothing. He should not be praised for it." Perhaps it was the way I said it. But yesterday in the car, I felt this rage and anger seeping at the corners of my consciousness. It felt like an ocean that I was keeping my head above for the time being.

I know the Kundalini Serpent brings up repressed emotions for us to deal with. My question is, what is the best way to deal with this rage and anger? Before it overwhelms me? And yes, I see a psychiatrist (a Gentile one) so I will mention it to him also and see what he says.

Hail Satan!
Hail Lilith!

 

[magus.immortalis1]

Thanks Brother, I will give it a try, breathing in more of the water element. I love anything water-related, like taking showers and swimming in the sea. It's one of my favorite pastimes.

Hail Satan! Hail the Powers of Hell forever!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

I find that I am very sensitive to somethings like nature.Like I find no joy in bass fishing like I use too.And its not because I feel there is anything wrong with it,because anything I catch I eat.But it just does not appeal to me for sport anymore.Plus I am lashing out at people to for no reason.My wife told me to start breathing a lot the water element during my meditations,because I have too much fire.So maybe that will help with you too sister.Just a thought for you.
 
Hail Satan
Brian 



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From: magus.immortalis <magus.immortalis@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Monday, December 31, 2012 10:56 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I have a lot of anger.


 
Greetings Brothers and Sisters,

as I have written before, I am going through a kundalini awakening. This process has been both blissful and unpleasant. Now, I have the issues of dealing with rage and fury that is coming up. I know it's not my meditations that are bringing up these repressed emotions. I also feel intuitively that it's from a past life, or lives, as I have looked into my childhood and it was on the whole, pleasant. I was abused a bit but I have forgiven my older brother (because we were both kids, and siblings have a tendency sometimes of hitting each other because they are going through their own hormones and angst.) So it cannot be that. My brother and I get along well now.

I was almost in tears the other day, while in the car going to lunch with my parents. It just came out of nowhere. My mind was void.

My brother knows my stance on the Jews, Christianity, and Islam. He also knows that I am a Spiritual Satanist and my stances on Satanism. He has mentioned to me that I cannot progress further in my life with so much hate in my life. I feel that I have justified hate towards the enemies of Satan. But this anger and hate is seeping into other aspects of my life, it comes out when I speak to others. At Costco, my dad mentioned that " 'god' gives us gifts that we must use." (He's an xian.) I became furious and stated as calmly as possible, "We have our own gifts. "God" gives us nothing. He should not be praised for it." Perhaps it was the way I said it. But yesterday in the car, I felt this rage and anger seeping at the corners of my consciousness. It felt like an ocean that I was keeping my head above for the time being.

I know the Kundalini Serpent brings up repressed emotions for us to deal with. My question is, what is the best way to deal with this rage and anger? Before it overwhelms me? And yes, I see a psychiatrist (a Gentile one) so I will mention it to him also and see what he says.

Hail Satan!
Hail Lilith!

 

[Paul Pseudonym]

I used to get so angry when people would speak about xtianity, jews or anything related to them. This would occur as torrents of anger and hate that I would then direct to the people who brought up anything xtian or jewish. These feelings even occurred when I saw xtian or jewish filth. Even after directing it at people, the anger wouldn't be quenched. I felt so wronged by xtians and jews and all the things that they've done and are doing that the remaining anger would spin round in my head creating a tempest in a teacup. I would even focus on the feeling later, beating my anger like a dead horse in some twisted idea that focusing on it did anything to fix the way I was feeling. It didn't. What I learned to do was a mechanism that I had been using for a very long time to handle emotions but had forgotten since I dedicated.

1. I would recognize how I'm feeling and ask myself why I was feeling that way.

2. I would decide what I was going to do about it.

3. I would dismiss the emotion, realizing it was merely to show me to take an action.

4. I would carry out the action with delight and elation.

For me completing the action normally removes the negative feelings and stops them from returning. The action can be to do a ritual to get back at the person or to bring knowledge about the way things are or something more in the physical realm.

I have recently had to use this method with dealing with my mother this holiday. I've cut her out of my life but some subconscious feelings came up when I realized I was holding onto some things she made me from my childhood. Dreams occurred that brought more light to the subject [the things symbolized the mom she had lied to me into believing I had but never did] and I decided to just burn them. It healed a good amount of the feeling but not all of it is finished. It is my mother after all and it's more complex than most other things.

How have I changed with xtianity? I give a good laugh at jews and xtianity. I work against xtianity and the jews more frequently now. I don't really look down on people who have been partially brainwashed. I now see them as people with potential inside them because I was just like them at one time. I don't get angry when my family does any foolish xtian things like they did this yule when they prayed over the food. I focus on being happy that I know Satan and look at how much better I am now than back then.

You have every right to be angry at the jews and xtians - especially those that know what the fuck they're doing. They are filth. They are disgusting things that don't deserve to be called human. But don't let them plague you with too much anger. In my experience it does alot more harm than good when its in large amounts and indiscriminate. I hope this helps.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "magus.immortalis" <magus.immortalis@... wrote:


I forgot to mention that recently, in the past two weeks, I heavily cursed a LHP following occultist on Facebook who thought that Lord Satan and the Powers of Hell were "forces" and this person thought they were "god".
My curse was to damn them into the cycle of death and rebirth, never to see enlightenment, being no better then an animal (rutting and foraging for food forever). As I drew my oracle card deck recently, the cards spoke to me: my Guardians brought this cursing incident to my attention, because this person obviously did not deserve to be cursed like that. I did defend Lord Satan and try to get them to the truth, but they rejected my opinions. I felt such rage and fury and took it out on them.

I am seriously considering Anger Management classes. I feel this anger has to be dealt with before I take it out on more people, deserving or not.

Hail Satan! Hail the True Powers of Hell forever!
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "magus.immortalis" <magus.immortalis@ wrote:

Greetings Brothers and Sisters,

as I have written before, I am going through a kundalini awakening. This process has been both blissful and unpleasant. Now, I have the issues of dealing with rage and fury that is coming up. I know it's not my meditations that are bringing up these repressed emotions. I also feel intuitively that it's from a past life, or lives, as I have looked into my childhood and it was on the whole, pleasant. I was abused a bit but I have forgiven my older brother (because we were both kids, and siblings have a tendency sometimes of hitting each other because they are going through their own hormones and angst.) So it cannot be that. My brother and I get along well now.

I was almost in tears the other day, while in the car going to lunch with my parents. It just came out of nowhere. My mind was void.

My brother knows my stance on the Jews, Christianity, and Islam. He also knows that I am a Spiritual Satanist and my stances on Satanism. He has mentioned to me that I cannot progress further in my life with so much hate in my life. I feel that I have justified hate towards the enemies of Satan. But this anger and hate is seeping into other aspects of my life, it comes out when I speak to others. At Costco, my dad mentioned that " 'god' gives us gifts that we must use." (He's an xian.) I became furious and stated as calmly as possible, "We have our own gifts. "God" gives us nothing. He should not be praised for it." Perhaps it was the way I said it. But yesterday in the car, I felt this rage and anger seeping at the corners of my consciousness. It felt like an ocean that I was keeping my head above for the time being.

I know the Kundalini Serpent brings up repressed emotions for us to deal with. My question is, what is the best way to deal with this rage and anger? Before it overwhelms me? And yes, I see a psychiatrist (a Gentile one) so I will mention it to him also and see what he says.

Hail Satan!
Hail Lilith!

 

[Magus Immortalis]

I feel the same way too, Paul.

From: Paul Pseudonym <paulpseudonym@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, December 31, 2012 2:54:06 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I have a lot of anger.

  I used to get so angry when people would speak about xtianity, jews or anything related to them. This would occur as torrents of anger and hate that I would then direct to the people who brought up anything xtian or jewish. These feelings even occurred when I saw xtian or jewish filth. Even after directing it at people, the anger wouldn't be quenched. I felt so wronged by xtians and jews and all the things that they've done and are doing that the remaining anger would spin round in my head creating a tempest in a teacup. I would even focus on the feeling later, beating my anger like a dead horse in some twisted idea that focusing on it did anything to fix the way I was feeling. It didn't. What I learned to do was a mechanism that I had been using for a very long time to handle emotions but had forgotten since I dedicated.

1. I would recognize how I'm feeling and ask myself why I was feeling that way.

2. I would decide what I was going to do about it.

3. I would dismiss the emotion, realizing it was merely to show me to take an action.

4. I would carry out the action with delight and elation.

For me completing the action normally removes the negative feelings and stops them from returning. The action can be to do a ritual to get back at the person or to bring knowledge about the way things are or something more in the physical realm.

I have recently had to use this method with dealing with my mother this holiday. I've cut her out of my life but some subconscious feelings came up when I realized I was holding onto some things she made me from my childhood. Dreams occurred that brought more light to the subject [the things symbolized the mom she had lied to me into believing I had but never did] and I decided to just burn them. It healed a good amount of the feeling but not all of it is finished. It is my mother after all and it's more complex than most other things.

How have I changed with xtianity? I give a good laugh at jews and xtianity. I work against xtianity and the jews more frequently now. I don't really look down on people who have been partially brainwashed. I now see them as people with potential inside them because I was just like them at one time. I don't get angry when my family does any foolish xtian things like they did this yule when they prayed over the food. I focus on being happy that I know Satan and look at how much better I am now than back then.

You have every right to be angry at the jews and xtians - especially those that know what the fuck they're doing. They are filth. They are disgusting things that don't deserve to be called human. But don't let them plague you with too much anger. In my experience it does alot more harm than good when its in large amounts and indiscriminate. I hope this helps.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "magus.immortalis" <magus.immortalis@... wrote:


I forgot to mention that recently, in the past two weeks, I heavily cursed a LHP following occultist on Facebook who thought that Lord Satan and the Powers of Hell were "forces" and this person thought they were "god".
My curse was to damn them into the cycle of death and rebirth, never to see enlightenment, being no better then an animal (rutting and foraging for food forever). As I drew my oracle card deck recently, the cards spoke to me: my Guardians brought this cursing incident to my attention, because this person obviously did not deserve to be cursed like that. I did defend Lord Satan and try to get them to the truth, but they rejected my opinions. I felt such rage and fury and took it out on them.

I am seriously considering Anger Management classes. I feel this anger has to be dealt with before I take it out on more people, deserving or not.

Hail Satan! Hail the True Powers of Hell forever!
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "magus.immortalis" <magus.immortalis@ wrote:

Greetings Brothers and Sisters,

as I have written before, I am going through a kundalini awakening. This process has been both blissful and unpleasant. Now, I have the issues of dealing with rage and fury that is coming up. I know it's not my meditations that are bringing up these repressed emotions. I also feel intuitively that it's from a past life, or lives, as I have looked into my childhood and it was on the whole, pleasant. I was abused a bit but I have forgiven my older brother (because we were both kids, and siblings have a tendency sometimes of hitting each other because they are going through their own hormones and angst.) So it cannot be that. My brother and I get along well now.

I was almost in tears the other day, while in the car going to lunch with my parents. It just came out of nowhere. My mind was void.

My brother knows my stance on the Jews, Christianity, and Islam. He also knows that I am a Spiritual Satanist and my stances on Satanism. He has mentioned to me that I cannot progress further in my life with so much hate in my life. I feel that I have justified hate towards the enemies of Satan. But this anger and hate is seeping into other aspects of my life, it comes out when I speak to others. At Costco, my dad mentioned that " 'god' gives us gifts that we must use." (He's an xian.) I became furious and stated as calmly as possible, "We have our own gifts. "God" gives us nothing. He should not be praised for it." Perhaps it was the way I said it. But yesterday in the car, I felt this rage and anger seeping at the corners of my consciousness. It felt like an ocean that I was keeping my head above for the time being.

I know the Kundalini Serpent brings up repressed emotions for us to deal with. My question is, what is the best way to deal with this rage and anger? Before it overwhelms me? And yes, I see a psychiatrist (a Gentile one) so I will mention it to him also and see what he says.

Hail Satan!
Hail Lilith!