I failed.. again..

This is social pressure, plus negative karma that doesn't want to let go off you. Essentially these are rotting influence and you are fighting them. Because you won, these came back to haunt you.

It's normal to feel bad, as you did bad to yourself; reverse loss to victory by getting back up again, and realizing that it's a normal part of life. Let it motivate you.

People are corrupting themselves, and they want you to corrupt and weaken yourself too. In many ways, the ugly reality, is that you are only 'friends' insofar you too corrupt yourself and engage in their miserable things.

You won against this addiction, you just need to keep battling that stuff, until you are a new being out of this. Even if you fall, just get up quickly. It's okay if you fall once, but don't keep doing this on purpose.

Also, don't let the past define who you are going to be in the future; essentially failures shouldn't be stressed upon that much, only seen as leverage for you to become better later.

These things are for the weak, and the herd. Satanism is not about the herd. Satanism is about people who have gut. You showed your gut. It's okay if you fell, just learn from it.

It must be understood there is negative 'karma' that deals with these matters in the first place. For example, choices of friends, and past self choices. When you are a Zevist, you need to focus on becoming better. You will lose battles, but focus on the war instead. When you will finally gain full control of yourself, know your mind, you will be blissful 24/7.

In ten years from now, all these people will be living failures, and you will be a far better being than they can even imagine. In twenty years, these people will have the brain of a shrimp, and you will be one hundred times better than them in everything. Thirty years from now, they will be rotting meat, or who knows what.

-High Priest Zevios Metathronos

Thank you Zevios Metathronos. I'm really waiting on when will be done my personal health from :) i feel better now, i will start again, but now stronger. 
Hail Satan!Hail Marchosias!Hail all Gods of Elysium!

This is social pressure, plus negative karma that doesn't want to let go off you. Essentially these are rotting influence and you are fighting them. Because you won, these came back to haunt you.

It's normal to feel bad, as you did bad to yourself; reverse loss to victory by getting back up again, and realizing that it's a normal part of life. Let it motivate you.

People are corrupting themselves, and they want you to corrupt and weaken yourself too. In many ways, the ugly reality, is that you are only 'friends' insofar you too corrupt yourself and engage in their miserable things.

You won against this addiction, you just need to keep battling that stuff, until you are a new being out of this. Even if you fall, just get up quickly. It's okay if you fall once, but don't keep doing this on purpose.

Also, don't let the past define who you are going to be in the future; essentially failures shouldn't be stressed upon that much, only seen as leverage for you to become better later.

These things are for the weak, and the herd. Satanism is not about the herd. Satanism is about people who have gut. You showed your gut. It's okay if you fell, just learn from it.

It must be understood there is negative 'karma' that deals with these matters in the first place. For example, choices of friends, and past self choices. When you are a Zevist, you need to focus on becoming better. You will lose battles, but focus on the war instead. When you will finally gain full control of yourself, know your mind, you will be blissful 24/7.

In ten years from now, all these people will be living failures, and you will be a far better being than they can even imagine. In twenty years, these people will have the brain of a shrimp, and you will be one hundred times better than them in everything. Thirty years from now, they will be rotting meat, or who knows what.

-High Priest Zevios Metathronos