i don't think i can do this anymore

[aquaprince666]

it's too much of a secret. i've already lived my life in secrecy far too long. coming out was the best decision i ever made. i promised myself i would never keep that big of a secret ever again.


being a satanist and not having anyone to rely on is worse than being in the closet. i literally have nobody. i've realized i'm starting to isolate myself from friends and family. nobody asks questions, it's as if they don't care.


i've stopped eating which is exactly what i did two years ago. i'm falling back into my self-destructive self. i figured taking a blade to my wrist will be much better than living in this shit household. the only scary thing is, i actually have the balls to do it this time.


i'd do anything just to drop it all and be with Father, i just don't want to disappoint him or the Gods anymore than i already have.


it's beginning to be too much.


x

 

[David Poston]

1) Do not slit your wrist. That will only send you away from Satan. 
You can have all the friends you want. Satan will help if you let him. Being depress can cause you to loose yourself. Don't be afraid to ask Satan for help. Be happy and enjoy life. That is what Satan wants for you over anything. Most depression comes about by so-call followers of that Jewus, that they think is real, praying for you.  Just tell them if you want them to pray for you, you will tell them. And if you remember right, you haven't said one word about it.
Above all, live right. Follow Satan and believe.

On Sun, Oct 6, 2013 at 2:24 AM, <aquaprince666@... wrote:

  it's too much of a secret. i've already lived my life in secrecy far too long. coming out was the best decision i ever made. i promised myself i would never keep that big of a secret ever again.

being a satanist and not having anyone to rely on is worse than being in the closet. i literally have nobody. i've realized i'm starting to isolate myself from friends and family. nobody asks questions, it's as if they don't care.

i've stopped eating which is exactly what i did two years ago. i'm falling back into my self-destructive self. i figured taking a blade to my wrist will be much better than living in this shit household. the only scary thing is, i actually have the balls to do it this time.

i'd do anything just to drop it all and be with Father, i just don't want to disappoint him or the Gods anymore than i already have.

it's beginning to be too much.

x

 

[call_me_something_else]

Light Yagami just spoke on this. Here: http://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joyo ... ics/108161

You're not alone. Suicide is the wrong answer. The enemy wants you to off yourself. If nothing else, stay alive to piss them off.

Hail Father Satan!

---In [email protected], <aquaprince666@... wrote:

it's too much of a secret. i've already lived my life in secrecy far too long. coming out was the best decision i ever made. i promised myself i would never keep that big of a secret ever again.


being a satanist and not having anyone to rely on is worse than being in the closet. i literally have nobody. i've realized i'm starting to isolate myself from friends and family. nobody asks questions, it's as if they don't care.


i've stopped eating which is exactly what i did two years ago. i'm falling back into my self-destructive self. i figured taking a blade to my wrist will be much better than living in this shit household. the only scary thing is, i actually have the balls to do it this time.


i'd do anything just to drop it all and be with Father, i just don't want to disappoint him or the Gods anymore than i already have.


it's beginning to be too much.


x

 

[James Makela]

I know that it can be very difficult for us because we don't get
any support and a lot of us are all by ourselves. You got to think past this and realize that this is only temporary, we are all fighting every single day to bring the truth to everyone so we can live in a Satanic World again.

I know for a fact that your strong enough to keep pushing through this because if you weren't strong enough you wouldn't be here to begin with. Your here for a reason if you just give up that would be a waste. Start talking to your friends and family again and go do stuff that will take your mind off of these negative thoughts. Keep your head up and don't give up.

Hail Satan!

On Oct 5, 2013, at 11:24 PM, aquaprince666@... wrote:

it's too much of a secret. i've already lived my life in secrecy far too long. coming out was the best decision i ever made. i promised myself i would never keep that big of a secret ever again.


being a satanist and not having anyone to rely on is worse than being in the closet. i literally have nobody. i've realized i'm starting to isolate myself from friends and family. nobody asks questions, it's as if they don't care.


i've stopped eating which is exactly what i did two years ago. i'm falling back into my self-destructive self. i figured taking a blade to my wrist will be much better than living in this shit household. the only scary thing is, i actually have the balls to do it this time.


i'd do anything just to drop it all and be with Father, i just don't want to disappoint him or the Gods anymore than i already have.


it's beginning to be too much.


x


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[shantikami]

You can do this. I know it's tough, especially when you're the only one in your house. But you can do this.
When I came out as queer, my grandmother flipped her lid and made all sorts of painful drama with me. I have been so down that I isolated, stopped eating, stopped drawing and writing (my passions) even considered suicide. So I can empathize, and tell you that it is possible to get better.

But suicide won't help you feel better. It will take away any chance to find joy at all. Starving yourself will only make you feel worse, both mentally and physically; please try to push yourself back to eating as a way to lift yourself back up. Instead of cutting yourself, try holding ice in your hand, or wearing a rubber band around your wrist so you can snap it when you want to cut. These things do help.

Remember that, while you cannot share your faith/religion/spirituality with your family & friends, you always have people in this group who are willing to talk. Remember that you will not always be stuck in the household in which you now dwell. Even though your family and friends don't know about your interest in Satan, there are all the other things you've already shared, and still share, with them. Don't forget the happy times, okay?
Hold tight.

---In [email protected], <amaracer113@... wrote:

I know that it can be very difficult for us because we don't get
any support and a lot of us are all by ourselves. You got to think past this and realize that this is only temporary, we are all fighting every single day to bring the truth to everyone so we can live in a Satanic World again.

I know for a fact that your strong enough to keep pushing through this because if you weren't strong enough you wouldn't be here to begin with. Your here for a reason if you just give up that would be a waste. Start talking to your friends and family again and go do stuff that will take your mind off of these negative thoughts. Keep your head up and don't give up.

Hail Satan!

On Oct 5, 2013, at 11:24 PM, aquaprince666@... wrote:

it's too much of a secret. i've already lived my life in secrecy far too long. coming out was the best decision i ever made. i promised myself i would never keep that big of a secret ever again.


being a satanist and not having anyone to rely on is worse than being in the closet. i literally have nobody. i've realized i'm starting to isolate myself from friends and family. nobody asks questions, it's as if they don't care.


i've stopped eating which is exactly what i did two years ago. i'm falling back into my self-destructive self. i figured taking a blade to my wrist will be much better than living in this shit household. the only scary thing is, i actually have the balls to do it this time.


i'd do anything just to drop it all and be with Father, i just don't want to disappoint him or the Gods anymore than i already have.


it's beginning to be too much.


x


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[Jon1]

Don't give up. Start contributing as soon as possible. Here's a quote by American tank general George Patton

"I don't measure a man's success by how high he climbs but how high he bounces when he hits the bottom."

George Patton was sympathetic toward Nazi Germany at the end of the war and He knew America should have gone to war with communist Russia instead. This is probably why he was found dead in a smashed up jeep.

From: "aquaprince666@..." <aquaprince666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, October 6, 2013 2:24 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i don't think i can do this anymore

  it's too much of a secret. i've already lived my life in secrecy far too long. coming out was the best decision i ever made. i promised myself i would never keep that big of a secret ever again.

being a satanist and not having anyone to rely on is worse than being in the closet. i literally have nobody. i've realized i'm starting to isolate myself from friends and family. nobody asks questions, it's as if they don't care.

i've stopped eating which is exactly what i did two years ago. i'm falling back into my self-destructive self. i figured taking a blade to my wrist will be much better than living in this shit household. the only scary thing is, i actually have the balls to do it this time.

i'd do anything just to drop it all and be with Father, i just don't want to disappoint him or the Gods anymore than i already have.

it's beginning to be too much.

x

 

[elizabeth fedden]

 I really feel for you. I know it must feel hard but please just keep cleansing your aura and chakras. It will help balance you out, and as you open more you will come to realise you really are never alone. OK you might not have a satanist friend nearby but theres all of us here online, and like i said once you start to become more aware you'll scenes (feel, hear, see) those who are guiding you like your GD. You are not alone.  From: "aquaprince666@..." <aquaprince666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, October 6, 2013 2:24 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i don't think i can do this anymore

  it's too much of a secret. i've already lived my life in secrecy far too long. coming out was the best decision i ever made. i promised myself i would never keep that big of a secret ever again.

being a satanist and not having anyone to rely on is worse than being in the closet. i literally have nobody. i've realized i'm starting to isolate myself from friends and family. nobody asks questions, it's as if they don't care.

i've stopped eating which is exactly what i did two years ago. i'm falling back into my self-destructive self. i figured taking a blade to my wrist will be much better than living in this shit household. the only scary thing is, i actually have the balls to do it this time.

i'd do anything just to drop it all and be with Father, i just don't want to disappoint him or the Gods anymore than i already have.

it's beginning to be too much.

x