magus.immortalis1
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This was brought to my attention right now. It is something subconscious that I need to deal with. It has been going on for a few years now.
My parents harp on about people of the same race, and generally have nothing good to say about them, and the region they come from. They talk about how these new immigrants come to the church and use people, just to get disability or welfare, and then drop away from sight forever. Because the church offers these services. My mum complains a lot. Their whole social circle is of the church.
We shop at the supermarket, and these same regional people are rude, selfish, and generally of a hive mindset of "me, me, me." They cut in line, are loud and obnoxious. My parents oftentimes have stories to share at the dinner table about them.
They come from a country with a communist government. When I hear these stories I become angry and ashamed that my people are like this.
My brother is in the Canadian army and is one of the few there who are of a visible minority. The Canadian army is still of the same mindset of the 60s and 70s when there were even fewer racial minorities around. The army is fucking racist still. My brother doesn't really talk about his experiences but what he has mentioned left this impression on me.
I know this is a sidenote and not really related to my post, but I thought I would mention it. I have asked him if he's proud to be the race he is and he just shrugs and says he deals with it. That's what I remember. I will ask him again when he wakes up from his sleep.
I am looking into taking language classes. I was told by my Guardians to look into the history of my country and it will help me rebuild my pride in myself, in my race, in my people.
But is there something else I am missing here? Is there anything else I can do? I don't think about it too much on a day to day basis but I now know it's hangup I have.
Hail Satan and the Gods of Elysium forever!
My parents harp on about people of the same race, and generally have nothing good to say about them, and the region they come from. They talk about how these new immigrants come to the church and use people, just to get disability or welfare, and then drop away from sight forever. Because the church offers these services. My mum complains a lot. Their whole social circle is of the church.
We shop at the supermarket, and these same regional people are rude, selfish, and generally of a hive mindset of "me, me, me." They cut in line, are loud and obnoxious. My parents oftentimes have stories to share at the dinner table about them.
They come from a country with a communist government. When I hear these stories I become angry and ashamed that my people are like this.
My brother is in the Canadian army and is one of the few there who are of a visible minority. The Canadian army is still of the same mindset of the 60s and 70s when there were even fewer racial minorities around. The army is fucking racist still. My brother doesn't really talk about his experiences but what he has mentioned left this impression on me.
I know this is a sidenote and not really related to my post, but I thought I would mention it. I have asked him if he's proud to be the race he is and he just shrugs and says he deals with it. That's what I remember. I will ask him again when he wakes up from his sleep.
I am looking into taking language classes. I was told by my Guardians to look into the history of my country and it will help me rebuild my pride in myself, in my race, in my people.
But is there something else I am missing here? Is there anything else I can do? I don't think about it too much on a day to day basis but I now know it's hangup I have.
Hail Satan and the Gods of Elysium forever!
