Hello everyone.
Usually I like to search for answers on my own rather than asking them but this is a kinda delicate matter, so I decided to ask the knowledgeable community about this, rather than trusting myself for information on different sites.
Lets start with myself.
I was unable to find my way, a meaning in my life, a reason to live for, for a long time. I felt empty. After some time I found out that I am really interested about occult science, more specifically, where occult meets the history of mankind. I usually encountered writings where the church is nice and good, and one should only be committed to God. What I always felt about these that something isn't right. I could go on that if God wishes us joy, why forbid things like having sex for joy for example, the list could be endless. I always felt that why almost every advanced ancient civilizations worshipped multiple gods?
Along this path I found LaVey Satanism first. It was good at some points, but my opinion that it is more like "survival of the fittesmism" as I say. But even this was way more acceptable for me than any other previously found ones. And lastly I found Spiritual Satanism, Joy of Satan to be more exact, and after reading a great part of the website I found that logically this is the only true religion.
I mentioned that I am very interested about occult, I was always a deep thinker even as a young person - which was deepened when I met a girl who showed me that supernatural is real, she was corrupted by the church though, unfortunately. Anyway, I am about to dedicate myself to Satan - beleive it or not, the only thing why I did not so that it is horribly hard to find black candles in my area, and as I live alone, I cannot afford international order for some candles. In due time...
I have some concerns though, and I hope that I will not receive answers like "YOU ARE A WEAKLING YOU ARE UNWORTHY OF THE BLESSINGS OF OUR LORD IF YOU ARE AFRAID" and so on.
Currently, I am renting the future residence of my parents. I definitely would like to communicate with Demons, since even without commitment to Satan, I feel that Gremory smiled on me, as during my night meditation I concentrated on her sigil, and have thoughts about being so lonely. The next day, almost every women I met was strangely friendly, one childhood "almost was girlfriend" called me that we should meet, in an unmistakable voice.
Anyway back to the point, my concern is: will Demons I made contact with have any bonds to this house? I mean I definitely do not want that my parents will have any kind of contact with them. As they surely does not beleive in the supernatural, they would be frightened. I would also feel a lot of guilt if my expereiences would leave such behind when they move in to the lot and I move out.
I admit this post was a bit long and I am not a native English speaker, sorry for any mistakes. Please let me if my concerns are unfounded.
Thanks in advance.
Usually I like to search for answers on my own rather than asking them but this is a kinda delicate matter, so I decided to ask the knowledgeable community about this, rather than trusting myself for information on different sites.
Lets start with myself.
I was unable to find my way, a meaning in my life, a reason to live for, for a long time. I felt empty. After some time I found out that I am really interested about occult science, more specifically, where occult meets the history of mankind. I usually encountered writings where the church is nice and good, and one should only be committed to God. What I always felt about these that something isn't right. I could go on that if God wishes us joy, why forbid things like having sex for joy for example, the list could be endless. I always felt that why almost every advanced ancient civilizations worshipped multiple gods?
Along this path I found LaVey Satanism first. It was good at some points, but my opinion that it is more like "survival of the fittesmism" as I say. But even this was way more acceptable for me than any other previously found ones. And lastly I found Spiritual Satanism, Joy of Satan to be more exact, and after reading a great part of the website I found that logically this is the only true religion.
I mentioned that I am very interested about occult, I was always a deep thinker even as a young person - which was deepened when I met a girl who showed me that supernatural is real, she was corrupted by the church though, unfortunately. Anyway, I am about to dedicate myself to Satan - beleive it or not, the only thing why I did not so that it is horribly hard to find black candles in my area, and as I live alone, I cannot afford international order for some candles. In due time...
I have some concerns though, and I hope that I will not receive answers like "YOU ARE A WEAKLING YOU ARE UNWORTHY OF THE BLESSINGS OF OUR LORD IF YOU ARE AFRAID" and so on.
Currently, I am renting the future residence of my parents. I definitely would like to communicate with Demons, since even without commitment to Satan, I feel that Gremory smiled on me, as during my night meditation I concentrated on her sigil, and have thoughts about being so lonely. The next day, almost every women I met was strangely friendly, one childhood "almost was girlfriend" called me that we should meet, in an unmistakable voice.
Anyway back to the point, my concern is: will Demons I made contact with have any bonds to this house? I mean I definitely do not want that my parents will have any kind of contact with them. As they surely does not beleive in the supernatural, they would be frightened. I would also feel a lot of guilt if my expereiences would leave such behind when they move in to the lot and I move out.
I admit this post was a bit long and I am not a native English speaker, sorry for any mistakes. Please let me if my concerns are unfounded.
Thanks in advance.