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Hello higher priests of satan... I came to satanism,before 1 year,but I am just a beginner,I learn and practise..I am medicated to satan, I did it twice...anyway, I did meditations for all my chakra and 3rd eye...I am not sure if I have open my chakra,only the first one,the base chakra it is open...but I see some signs that I do not know what they mean...I like Asmodeus Demon,I want him to guide me etc. I have a black candle for him and a red one for Demon Agares,and I had summon both of them but I did not saw them, I felt for long shudders in my left shoulder,and when I started breaths of the chalice I feel shudders in the left side of my head behind.And when I meditate for Astral projection,anyway there are some signs this time,that i want to know...I had meditate before 3 months I think about to see my spirit guide in a video of lilian eden. Anyway i remember that i had hear a voice like an alien,it spoke very fast,it was complicated and then i had seen red and blue eyes to watch me and a strange symbol with yellow and pink colours and i draw it!-Amyway after this meditation I felt sick,I wanted to vomit and I was dizzy...Since that..when I close my eyes in meditations I see a lot of eyes to watch me,all eyes are beautyfull but some of them are wild eyes,and before some days I was meditating for astral projection,and I saw eyes,and I heard a noise in the kitchen.I felt a little scared...I need to tell you that before some time I was meditating for 3rdeye and I had seen a pyramid and at the top of the pyramid I saw the rd eye,I remember it had black and blue colours,I do not remember something else right now..And I think that maybe I had open my 3rd eye and I see a lot of eyes or what??? anyway...there is the last..a few weeks,I lit Asmodeus candle and Satan,and Agares candleand I visualize and pray for reflection of curse!-I see Asmodeus candle makes big fire with red at the top all the times and some times Agares candle,but not like Asmodeus...Asmodeus candle make some tricks to me with the fire,some day the fire became like fork...divided into two..i cannot understund if he tells me somehting,some times my head turns left and some others,right,but the most times it turn left!-I am new,I am 20 years old,I grew up in christian family,I pushed all years,satanism came to me from nowhere,its just a little difficult for me to handle it right, now that I learned the truth because I am old and I am at the stage that I throw away the perceptions, I have bad thoughts and I cannot focus so easy at th emeditations,I feel a little scared some times and thinking that some bad entity will come to me...I love satan I feel useless some times,this is wrong of me,I need to throw these useless thoughts away...My mother know that I am a Satanist,she is not judging me for nothing,she leaves from house with my son(the baby is 10 month), she leaves me alone to meditate...I will not baptize my son,I gave him two names, Michael-Asmodeus, and I feel very proud that my son has the name of a Prince, I live in Greece the higher priests had write about my country and the perceptions that they have,if they ask me for Asmodeus name to my son, I just say its an ancient name,I feel scared because the people are very bad and I try to hide my adentity,I was born in christian family I never could be like them,since I became satanist my life is different,I have good things that happens to me I feel happier now,I have not regretted anything, I just ask your advise and guidness I need your guidance to go better in Satanism and meet my demon and Satan Father....Ave Satan my brothers and sisters,the old and the little...A sister from Greece!!!!!!!
