how do i get out of these?

[NinRick]

I'm having a emotional breakdown recently because of financial status

I'm 17 and my gf is living with me (she was kicked out of her house) my parents is no longer supporting me

And i need to shoplift so we can eat. I live in a very poor and over populated country that's why it's fucking hard to find a job and we're also under qualified especially now we're in a pandemic

Last night i was pressured and stressed where i can get money, i feel like im going insane i even doubted father Satan and Spiritual Satanism ( but I'm ok now, i regretted it and told father Satan that I'm sorry) . And some people is treating me like a shit recently.

Can i use ISA rune to help me shoplift? And should the affirmation before the vibration or after? I haven't really tried using runes.
Do you guys have any advice on how can i get out of these shits? I'm 3 month in satanism can i do death ritual?

Death spell is on many levels a mere stupid idea