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when i first seen Bruce lee it made me automatically interested in the martial arts world which lead me to get his books and study for time to time which then the jews escalated by bringing me into the emo rock music which spark my interest in the occult. then i began to read more and more about both martial arts and emo gothic vampires and werewolves. then i eventually stumbled across the joyofsatan when i searched how to summon a demon. jews basically helped along the way so to speak.
The jews "helped along the way" is extremely nerving and bullshit to say the least. what was it that even made me put up crap like this as if the jew could resort and doing something positive for me purposely. My home life was fucked beyond belief and became even more fucked when i realized the truth of somethings. it was a constant cry growing up that paved more into the the 'i dont care' scheme which lead me nowhere. I didn't expect anything for myself and coming to terms now, the things that could have made my life better was no where to be found. Living in a dream state and continuously dealing and living the same lie and life everyday with no change. Going "home" from school was a MAJOR drag to the point i wanted to be anywhere beside a place i wasn't cared for and treated.
the love game was over weighted and i grew up hating everybody and would have probably committed to fucked actions if not for attacks, or help if the Gods of Hell was protecting me at that time.
i literally had no future outlook. and goals from my teenage self was met with delusion and realization of the situation i was in. if i never got back into the "sysyem" i really dont know where id be. Adoption and children services is horrible beyond belief, and looking back, i was set up for failure multiple times. even giving drugs to supposedly help me at the literal profit of others by fake diagnosis so that (((they))) could be happy on $$.
Bruce Lee was an idol as well as similar figures which naturally interested me so i explored. i hyped into meditation and qigong, and trying to take care of my body. i had to lie to (((others))) to eat healthy. Meals in yesteryear was the same thing every night, not a single vegetable, fruit or any else that i really enjoyed.
Growing up was a literal pain that suicide wasn't a joke. one day coming from school i just about had it and was literally bout to jump off until some guy, who i found out was a jew, seem me walking and came up. He didn't save my life but more so was probably influenced . but it was seriously a drag. problems all throughout school that were piratically made for me from things that (((they))) were aware. and to the fact those things were aware, its like they've been laughing at me behind my back for years. thinking i would never find out or never become more.
i ventured on and off a few time facing extreme manipulation until the day come when i was seriously injured and taken away to some lock down facility even though i did nothing wrong. but i enjoyed it
i enjoyed every bit away from rugged kikes who had no purpose other than to be assholes and dirt fuck with no sense of care and respect. i was "raised" in following an unnatural order of how people associate and later came to terms to what an unhealthy and unnatural relationship is between supposed peers.
during those times when i finally began to talk to people in school, the same school i was literally framed and kicked out of once i became a spiritual satanist, i happened upon emo music, smoking(didn't last long) and ventured into the occult from there which sparked my interest. my mind was literally into believing the wacked fairy tales and legend of supposed beast and such. if i was into the lord of the wings then, i wouldn't have mind role playing and fully immersed into the fantasy. but whats really sad is for a teenager to be really wishing that Santa was real. literally i knew the guy was fake, but around the holidays things became depressing with a bunch of jews who notoriously exchange amongst themselves in play of the gentile. you could only but dream and wish at those times. and when those wishe obviously dont come true, what of it. life becomes bland. it become whatever. i mean whats the point of it all right. listening to songs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YPnE7usLEr4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jae7G6OAc3Y
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eM9mHDaLZ0Y (you feel your dreams with my shattered hpes, i look back on, a day once loved, and fantasize for tragedy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usR7mMHUhlY (owl city, some of this things songs are awesome. but too much of his music is lonely depressive, i wanna fall in love and thats all i want to do biz)
west coast friendship
plant life: I've been longing for
Daisies to push through the floor
And I wish plant life would grow all around me
So I won't feel dead anymore
So I won't feel dead anymore
and alot more emo music .
if you mix these music around with similar, no wonder why people are wishy wishy and wanting to off theselves
: . seeing how they work, its scary to be a normal gentile with jews.
girls around this time was the same. Same jew tactics and tricks and attacks to make me feel less then. and now, carrying on with attacks which stopped, it was reversed.
my rage for jew cant be spoken. and to be more then them and see their frailty is beyond. to see the bastards that literally ridiculed me daily and try to come at me at a different angle is beyond. you have to literally think about how any creature can try to flip sides like that. like are they real. did what happen just happen. its amazing that the jew is the jew in this regard.
this gave way to Satan and the Gods of Hell. wanting to summon Demons and such. the amount of Mediation blew me away