How can I truly dislike Yehuborim when they were always the ones saving me from my own race every time they called themselves banning together to kill me?

[NightKiss.2]

The title is self explanatory. I try everyday to regain a small amount of love for my race but I'm always met with disappointment that leads to me hating the fuck out of them more and more that goes beyond superficiality. Then you have this factor where a Yehubor is saving me from the bullshit ways of my fuck ass race that actually ends up being beneficial to me short term and long term. I'm not sorry about how I feel because last I checked, a Yehuborim Person didn't do any of the fucked up traumatic things that my own racial brethren stay doing to me. In all honesty, if I was given an opportunity to actively help attack these folks as a Yehubor Puppet of some sort I'd take it. These people deserve my hatred at this point in my current lifetime.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Evil or good is not exclusive to any people's of the earth. The fact you experience hate has to do more with mistreatment, rather than any specific race or group. Yes, many people are flat out retarded in this world, totally evil. There are argument about how each people's Y and X but in the end of the day, it's all down to the individuals involved in any situation.

Not getting heartbroken or bones broken, does not have to do with theorems about origin, it has to do with conduct, where one is and how one runs their life. If you run your life in a way where apparently you are in danger, then you run it in a way that must be reversed.

It's best to avoid people who are toxic to you and evaluate why you get into these games which as you describe, end up in such strange trouble. In life you must avoid crap people no matter what they are and eye and skin colors involved. Try to be with people that treat you fairly. Don't create sagas in your mind that people are evil just because of origins, this is not true in life. Blanket generalizations will in the end blind you from evaluation of individuals and general evaluation of life. Do not dwell on the lies that people are good or bad because of their origins. There are cultures and some peoples more tentative to good and others more tentative to evil, but still this, does describe general realities of life and not necessarily your particular situation nor it resembles the world view.

If one is for example in a gang life, it doesn't matter where people are from, it matters that the road is on the wrong side; and there most people will be on the wrong side. This is clearly up to individuals; it seems you are around toxic individuals and you write in mental fog.

Many "gentiles" whine about other people but simultaneously they are not dissimilar to them. In any case, one must be close to people who are good.

If you are in gang environments (it sounds like it from your descriptions) or other forms of dangerous lifestyle, stop playing empty gangsta, because politics of origins can never replace what this life brings on to someone who follows this to the end.