HELP!! POSSIBLEY MY DEMONESS LOVER AN INFULTRATOR!!

[thesataniclazy]

When ever I do void meditation my demoness sucks my coc and makes tons of noises when I get in the mode to clear my mind and sometimes I feel little hands with possibly three fingers grab at my heart chakra and they try to pull it out and I just felt a human hand pinching at my back when I started to actually get it going.... a BIG human hand. She was fine when we fucked/made love for the first 3 weeks and helped me do my meditations but now I feel a preasure on my chest and a sucking motion in the centre. After we fucked one day I visualized an electric current going from my heart chakra to hers and may have given here a piece of my heart chakra (fucking stupid). To make it worse I have almost been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years and have not done much for Father and I am basically at square one with my meditations. I have never done a ritual to Father sinse the dedication. I think they are trying to get me away from Father and I do not think there is just one nordic being and possibly greys too (dawm I better be over exaderating). She is trying to make me do a hundred breaths for each of my chakras (possibly) but bothers me and makes it impossible to do void meditation (and they are putting thoughts in my head.... very annoying thoughts). I think Father may have already left me but I LOVE him very much. I love my demoness lover but I am getting suspicious. and I had two dreams of a paralysis attack after the grey attack thing that happened a few weeks ago:

1: I was looking at a dog and it bit at my throat chakra and then my eyes closed, I then stood up and could not move (paralysis thing again) and I was falling over slowly to the ground. I then called out to Father and I woke up.

2: After the dog dream I woke and my demoness lover came and sat on my coc and after about 45 minutes I got tired as it was late and I fell to sleep with her sitting on my coc. Then in my dream a grey was sitting on me and it hopped it's way over to my neck and it put it's arms around my neck (they turned to nordic hands.... BIG) and I felt like I was going to sleep with in the dream (like being strangled) and my head gradually began to tilt back. I then called to Father and I woke up. I do not know if it was Father or if they are just toying with me.

Yeah..... I know I fucked up right..... am I fucked (though I would never surrender and I would keep making myself believe I would win) or is this head to head shifting thing going to be a losing fight (I have really been taking a mental beating). Opinions!!!!

P.S. TO ALL YOU NEWLY DEDICATED..... MAKE SURE YOU DO REGULAR RITUALS TO FATHER AT LEAST.... AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK AND DO NOT PUT OFF YOUR POWER MEDITATIONS OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT AT A LOW LEVEL WHICH I CAN TELL YOU SUUUUUUCKSSSSSSS!!!!

P.S.S. I just bought all my ritual tools and I bought an offerring tray with a stand with some wine which I hope is not considered cheap. Also, I was going to buy some lemon pasteries to give him as an offerring with the wine. The lemon pastery thing has been popping up everywhere in my daily life.

For you newly dedicated: Father stated in the "Sermons of Satan" book from JoS that it is very IMPORTANT to do regular rituals to him to build a strong bond with him.... DO NOT MESS UP LIKE ME OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO BE IN.

Advice would be greatly helpful.


Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!!!!

 

[phoenixbird8]

Thank u so much 4 sharing
It Open my eyes I ll start doing my rituals every week
Hail Satan !
Hail Anubis!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "thesataniclazy" <thesataniclazy@... wrote:

When ever I do void meditation my demoness sucks my coc and makes tons of noises when I get in the mode to clear my mind and sometimes I feel little hands with possibly three fingers grab at my heart chakra and they try to pull it out and I just felt a human hand pinching at my back when I started to actually get it going.... a BIG human hand. She was fine when we fucked/made love for the first 3 weeks and helped me do my meditations but now I feel a preasure on my chest and a sucking motion in the centre. After we fucked one day I visualized an electric current going from my heart chakra to hers and may have given here a piece of my heart chakra (fucking stupid). To make it worse I have almost been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years and have not done much for Father and I am basically at square one with my meditations. I have never done a ritual to Father sinse the dedication. I think they are trying to get me away from Father and I do not think there is just one nordic being and possibly greys too (dawm I better be over exaderating). She is trying to make me do a hundred breaths for each of my chakras (possibly) but bothers me and makes it impossible to do void meditation (and they are putting thoughts in my head.... very annoying thoughts). I think Father may have already left me but I LOVE him very much. I love my demoness lover but I am getting suspicious. and I had two dreams of a paralysis attack after the grey attack thing that happened a few weeks ago:

1: I was looking at a dog and it bit at my throat chakra and then my eyes closed, I then stood up and could not move (paralysis thing again) and I was falling over slowly to the ground. I then called out to Father and I woke up.

2: After the dog dream I woke and my demoness lover came and sat on my coc and after about 45 minutes I got tired as it was late and I fell to sleep with her sitting on my coc. Then in my dream a grey was sitting on me and it hopped it's way over to my neck and it put it's arms around my neck (they turned to nordic hands.... BIG) and I felt like I was going to sleep with in the dream (like being strangled) and my head gradually began to tilt back. I then called to Father and I woke up. I do not know if it was Father or if they are just toying with me.

Yeah..... I know I fucked up right..... am I fucked (though I would never surrender and I would keep making myself believe I would win) or is this head to head shifting thing going to be a losing fight (I have really been taking a mental beating). Opinions!!!!

P.S. TO ALL YOU NEWLY DEDICATED..... MAKE SURE YOU DO REGULAR RITUALS TO FATHER AT LEAST.... AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK AND DO NOT PUT OFF YOUR POWER MEDITATIONS OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT AT A LOW LEVEL WHICH I CAN TELL YOU SUUUUUUCKSSSSSSS!!!!

P.S.S. I just bought all my ritual tools and I bought an offerring tray with a stand with some wine which I hope is not considered cheap. Also, I was going to buy some lemon pasteries to give him as an offerring with the wine. The lemon pastery thing has been popping up everywhere in my daily life.

For you newly dedicated: Father stated in the "Sermons of Satan" book from JoS that it is very IMPORTANT to do regular rituals to him to build a strong bond with him.... DO NOT MESS UP LIKE ME OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO BE IN.

Advice would be greatly helpful.


Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!!!!

 

[Mary1]

sounds like your demonness is giving you problems that one of father satan's wouldn't do-do a few rituals to father and ask for a lover from his side of the war-sorry you'll have to lose the one you have if you can. maybe is you study the jos site and others you'll find a good way to meditate and get stronger.

I'm glad that you are seeing the problems and trying to fix them.keep at it and things will get better.

Hail Father Satan

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "thesataniclazy" <thesataniclazy@... wrote:

When ever I do void meditation my demoness sucks my coc and makes tons of noises when I get in the mode to clear my mind and sometimes I feel little hands with possibly three fingers grab at my heart chakra and they try to pull it out and I just felt a human hand pinching at my back when I started to actually get it going.... a BIG human hand. She was fine when we fucked/made love for the first 3 weeks and helped me do my meditations but now I feel a preasure on my chest and a sucking motion in the centre. After we fucked one day I visualized an electric current going from my heart chakra to hers and may have given here a piece of my heart chakra (fucking stupid). To make it worse I have almost been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years and have not done much for Father and I am basically at square one with my meditations. I have never done a ritual to Father sinse the dedication. I think they are trying to get me away from Father and I do not think there is just one nordic being and possibly greys too (dawm I better be over exaderating). She is trying to make me do a hundred breaths for each of my chakras (possibly) but bothers me and makes it impossible to do void meditation (and they are putting thoughts in my head.... very annoying thoughts). I think Father may have already left me but I LOVE him very much. I love my demoness lover but I am getting suspicious. and I had two dreams of a paralysis attack after the grey attack thing that happened a few weeks ago:

1: I was looking at a dog and it bit at my throat chakra and then my eyes closed, I then stood up and could not move (paralysis thing again) and I was falling over slowly to the ground. I then called out to Father and I woke up.

2: After the dog dream I woke and my demoness lover came and sat on my coc and after about 45 minutes I got tired as it was late and I fell to sleep with her sitting on my coc. Then in my dream a grey was sitting on me and it hopped it's way over to my neck and it put it's arms around my neck (they turned to nordic hands.... BIG) and I felt like I was going to sleep with in the dream (like being strangled) and my head gradually began to tilt back. I then called to Father and I woke up. I do not know if it was Father or if they are just toying with me.

Yeah..... I know I fucked up right..... am I fucked (though I would never surrender and I would keep making myself believe I would win) or is this head to head shifting thing going to be a losing fight (I have really been taking a mental beating). Opinions!!!!

P.S. TO ALL YOU NEWLY DEDICATED..... MAKE SURE YOU DO REGULAR RITUALS TO FATHER AT LEAST.... AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK AND DO NOT PUT OFF YOUR POWER MEDITATIONS OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT AT A LOW LEVEL WHICH I CAN TELL YOU SUUUUUUCKSSSSSSS!!!!

P.S.S. I just bought all my ritual tools and I bought an offerring tray with a stand with some wine which I hope is not considered cheap. Also, I was going to buy some lemon pasteries to give him as an offerring with the wine. The lemon pastery thing has been popping up everywhere in my daily life.

For you newly dedicated: Father stated in the "Sermons of Satan" book from JoS that it is very IMPORTANT to do regular rituals to him to build a strong bond with him.... DO NOT MESS UP LIKE ME OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO BE IN.

Advice would be greatly helpful.


Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!!!!

 

[thesataniclazy]

To all you newbies do NOT take foregranted being under Father satan's protection.... as I have already fucked that up and my power level may not be strong enough to battle them. They are causing blood to come from my stools (also I have problems going to the bathroom) I have a burning and preasure and numbness on the left side of my face head and neck and they were pushing me alot. I do understand why Father Satan left if he did (I hope he is still around me) as I have been a complete newby for 2 years and I have only ever done 2 rituals to him as one was the dedication and the other was the banishing ritual that did not seem to work (still being attacked but maybe less and I don't know). I really fucked EVERYTHING UP and if I do survive then I would like him to come back to me if I do tons and tons for him down the road.lol.... all these years I hated this phsyicic woman for telling me I would join the enemy and I would put up a good fight but I would lose.... she also told me I would go to christianity and then come back to Father Satan in my early thirties but that I would be to late.... I am only twenty lol. They all keep saying "your all going to die" "we own you" "your soul is mine." They may be causing my sister to cough up blood and I have chest pains, I have blood in my stools and can not poop properly, I have headaces on the left side of my head, face and neck, and my left side of my face is going numb as I type. I also have veins popping out on the sides of my head. NEWBIES DON'T FUCK YOUR RELATIONSHIP UP WITH OUR BELOVED GOD AND CREATOR FATHER SATAN! DO NOT PUT OFF YOUR POWER MEDITATIONS TO GO WATCH T.V. It really bothers me as I fell in love with this fucking pink haired bitch and now she fucks some other guy on top of me and makes out with him in front of me and sucks my coc while he fucks her(not a great feeling). I now know what it feels like to be a slave.
I want to do tons and tons for Father Satan as I do love him and I want to get to know before atleast I lose him. But that is my business between me and him.... I just want all of you newbies not to fuck this up (Ialready typed this up and now I am doing it again as they messed up my last message, possibly) as when you do I can tell you what you may be feeling. Picture yourself watching any movie or seeing someone kiss there loved one and know you will most likely never have an eternal lover and you fucked up and are pssibly one of the week. I have two options: I can fight and fight and fight and risk losing my life and I would probably have to live move out as I do not want to have anything happen to my family (though it still might however maybe if they did a dedication to Father Satan they would be alright). I am in a very difficult possition and just remember NOT to take Father Satan forgranted. It is the worst feeling in the world as it is such.... it feels like I am being left behind to be a whisper in the past. I hope I am painting a pretty picture for you newbies. I understand why Father left and now I will have to prove my self alone in the shadows (though I hope I am wrong and he has not left me)but I need to do alot for Father Satan and anything that happens I will keep that to my self as is between me and Father. So newbies what did you learn? I was thinking.... would a shaman beable to help get rid of these enemy beings? so, I can have time to meditate and fight for Father to gain back his love and all. Well not sure but I do NOT want to run back to christianity knowing what would be waiting for me up ahead and what I would be missing out on. So newbies do your power meditations everyday and make regular ritual to him at least once a week and maybe I will see you in the future when all of this is worked out. Alright it is combat time.... I will be letting you all know what goes down. I just want to publicly announce: I LOVE YOU FATHER SATAN AND ALL THE GODS OF HELL AND ALL OF YOU MY BROTHER AND SISTERS.... VICTORY TO YOU ALL!!!!




HAIL FATHER SATAN AND THE GODS OF OLD!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "phoenixbird8" <phoenixbird8@... wrote:

Thank u so much 4 sharing
It Open my eyes I ll start doing my rituals every week
Hail Satan !
Hail Anubis!


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "thesataniclazy" <thesataniclazy@ wrote:

When ever I do void meditation my demoness sucks my coc and makes tons of noises when I get in the mode to clear my mind and sometimes I feel little hands with possibly three fingers grab at my heart chakra and they try to pull it out and I just felt a human hand pinching at my back when I started to actually get it going.... a BIG human hand. She was fine when we fucked/made love for the first 3 weeks and helped me do my meditations but now I feel a preasure on my chest and a sucking motion in the centre. After we fucked one day I visualized an electric current going from my heart chakra to hers and may have given here a piece of my heart chakra (fucking stupid). To make it worse I have almost been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years and have not done much for Father and I am basically at square one with my meditations. I have never done a ritual to Father sinse the dedication. I think they are trying to get me away from Father and I do not think there is just one nordic being and possibly greys too (dawm I better be over exaderating). She is trying to make me do a hundred breaths for each of my chakras (possibly) but bothers me and makes it impossible to do void meditation (and they are putting thoughts in my head.... very annoying thoughts). I think Father may have already left me but I LOVE him very much. I love my demoness lover but I am getting suspicious. and I had two dreams of a paralysis attack after the grey attack thing that happened a few weeks ago:

1: I was looking at a dog and it bit at my throat chakra and then my eyes closed, I then stood up and could not move (paralysis thing again) and I was falling over slowly to the ground. I then called out to Father and I woke up.

2: After the dog dream I woke and my demoness lover came and sat on my coc and after about 45 minutes I got tired as it was late and I fell to sleep with her sitting on my coc. Then in my dream a grey was sitting on me and it hopped it's way over to my neck and it put it's arms around my neck (they turned to nordic hands.... BIG) and I felt like I was going to sleep with in the dream (like being strangled) and my head gradually began to tilt back. I then called to Father and I woke up. I do not know if it was Father or if they are just toying with me.

Yeah..... I know I fucked up right..... am I fucked (though I would never surrender and I would keep making myself believe I would win) or is this head to head shifting thing going to be a losing fight (I have really been taking a mental beating). Opinions!!!!

P.S. TO ALL YOU NEWLY DEDICATED..... MAKE SURE YOU DO REGULAR RITUALS TO FATHER AT LEAST.... AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK AND DO NOT PUT OFF YOUR POWER MEDITATIONS OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT AT A LOW LEVEL WHICH I CAN TELL YOU SUUUUUUCKSSSSSSS!!!!

P.S.S. I just bought all my ritual tools and I bought an offerring tray with a stand with some wine which I hope is not considered cheap. Also, I was going to buy some lemon pasteries to give him as an offerring with the wine. The lemon pastery thing has been popping up everywhere in my daily life.

For you newly dedicated: Father stated in the "Sermons of Satan" book from JoS that it is very IMPORTANT to do regular rituals to him to build a strong bond with him.... DO NOT MESS UP LIKE ME OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO BE IN.

Advice would be greatly helpful.


Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!!!!

 

[Anti]

1) sounds like your lover is a grey rather than a Demon
2) just get your shit together, I've noticed that I act like a complete fucking idiot sometimes and i hate it and I know Father Satan hates it, but you can't let that shit bring you down, fuck what the pychic said, fuck what the greys have to say, fuck whatever negative bullshit you're thinking about!!!! There's NEVER a situation where you give up and die, if you're going to die, die an honorable death, fight with EVERY fiber of your being...Don't drag your past mistakes with you, you can only change what happens this very second, and then that second dies, live for the second it's alive and trust Father Satan.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "thesataniclazy" <thesataniclazy@... wrote:

When ever I do void meditation my demoness sucks my coc and makes tons of noises when I get in the mode to clear my mind and sometimes I feel little hands with possibly three fingers grab at my heart chakra and they try to pull it out and I just felt a human hand pinching at my back when I started to actually get it going.... a BIG human hand. She was fine when we fucked/made love for the first 3 weeks and helped me do my meditations but now I feel a preasure on my chest and a sucking motion in the centre. After we fucked one day I visualized an electric current going from my heart chakra to hers and may have given here a piece of my heart chakra (fucking stupid). To make it worse I have almost been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years and have not done much for Father and I am basically at square one with my meditations. I have never done a ritual to Father sinse the dedication. I think they are trying to get me away from Father and I do not think there is just one nordic being and possibly greys too (dawm I better be over exaderating). She is trying to make me do a hundred breaths for each of my chakras (possibly) but bothers me and makes it impossible to do void meditation (and they are putting thoughts in my head.... very annoying thoughts). I think Father may have already left me but I LOVE him very much. I love my demoness lover but I am getting suspicious. and I had two dreams of a paralysis attack after the grey attack thing that happened a few weeks ago:

1: I was looking at a dog and it bit at my throat chakra and then my eyes closed, I then stood up and could not move (paralysis thing again) and I was falling over slowly to the ground. I then called out to Father and I woke up.

2: After the dog dream I woke and my demoness lover came and sat on my coc and after about 45 minutes I got tired as it was late and I fell to sleep with her sitting on my coc. Then in my dream a grey was sitting on me and it hopped it's way over to my neck and it put it's arms around my neck (they turned to nordic hands.... BIG) and I felt like I was going to sleep with in the dream (like being strangled) and my head gradually began to tilt back. I then called to Father and I woke up. I do not know if it was Father or if they are just toying with me.

Yeah..... I know I fucked up right..... am I fucked (though I would never surrender and I would keep making myself believe I would win) or is this head to head shifting thing going to be a losing fight (I have really been taking a mental beating). Opinions!!!!

P.S. TO ALL YOU NEWLY DEDICATED..... MAKE SURE YOU DO REGULAR RITUALS TO FATHER AT LEAST.... AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK AND DO NOT PUT OFF YOUR POWER MEDITATIONS OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT AT A LOW LEVEL WHICH I CAN TELL YOU SUUUUUUCKSSSSSSS!!!!

P.S.S. I just bought all my ritual tools and I bought an offerring tray with a stand with some wine which I hope is not considered cheap. Also, I was going to buy some lemon pasteries to give him as an offerring with the wine. The lemon pastery thing has been popping up everywhere in my daily life.

For you newly dedicated: Father stated in the "Sermons of Satan" book from JoS that it is very IMPORTANT to do regular rituals to him to build a strong bond with him.... DO NOT MESS UP LIKE ME OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO BE IN.

Advice would be greatly helpful.


Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!!!!

 

[Dakin Sibila]

<td val[/IMG]fuck that psychic bitch,  we make our own fates we are not bound by this shit hack that fucking greys head off in the astral plane devour that fucking cunt with fire eat its fucking heart, don't stand and take this shit, fight back and don't give up lucifer didn't leave you he is waiting for you to fight
hail satan hail duat

--- On Sun, 4/18/10, Anti <prophetburner@... wrote:

From: Anti <prophetburner@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: HELP!! POSSIBLEY MY DEMONESS LOVER AN INFULTRATOR!!
To: [email protected]
Date: Sunday, April 18, 2010, 5:29 PM

  1) sounds like your lover is a grey rather than a Demon
2) just get your shit together, I've noticed that I act like a complete fucking idiot sometimes and i hate it and I know Father Satan hates it, but you can't let that shit bring you down, fuck what the pychic said, fuck what the greys have to say, fuck whatever negative bullshit you're thinking about!!!! There's NEVER a situation where you give up and die, if you're going to die, die an honorable death, fight with EVERY fiber of your being...Don' t drag your past mistakes with you, you can only change what happens this very second, and then that second dies, live for the second it's alive and trust Father Satan.

--- [/IMG]JoyofSatan666@ yahoogroups. com, "thesataniclazy" <thesataniclazy@ ... wrote:

When ever I do void meditation my demoness sucks my coc and makes tons of noises when I get in the mode to clear my mind and sometimes I feel little hands with possibly three fingers grab at my heart chakra and they try to pull it out and I just felt a human hand pinching at my back when I started to actually get it going.... a BIG human hand. She was fine when we fucked/made love for the first 3 weeks and helped me do my meditations but now I feel a preasure on my chest and a sucking motion in the centre. After we fucked one day I visualized an electric current going from my heart chakra to hers and may have given here a piece of my heart chakra (fucking stupid). To make it worse I have almost been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years and have not done much for Father and I am basically at square one with my meditations. I have never done a ritual to Father sinse the dedication. I think they are trying to get me away from Father and I do not think there is just one nordic being and possibly greys too (dawm I better be over exaderating) . She is trying to make me do a hundred breaths for each of my chakras (possibly) but bothers me and makes it impossible to do void meditation (and they are putting thoughts in my head.... very annoying thoughts). I think Father may have already left me but I LOVE him very much. I love my demoness lover but I am getting suspicious. and I had two dreams of a paralysis attack after the grey attack thing that happened a few weeks ago:

1: I was looking at a dog and it bit at my throat chakra and then my eyes closed, I then stood up and could not move (paralysis thing again) and I was falling over slowly to the ground. I then called out to Father and I woke up.

2: After the dog dream I woke and my demoness lover came and sat on my coc and after about 45 minutes I got tired as it was late and I fell to sleep with her sitting on my coc. Then in my dream a grey was sitting on me and it hopped it's way over to my neck and it put it's arms around my neck (they turned to nordic hands.... BIG) and I felt like I was going to sleep with in the dream (like being strangled) and my head gradually began to tilt back. I then called to Father and I woke up. I do not know if it was Father or if they are just toying with me.

Yeah..... I know I fucked up right..... am I fucked (though I would never surrender and I would keep making myself believe I would win) or is this head to head shifting thing going to be a losing fight (I have really been taking a mental beating). Opinions!!!!

P.S. TO ALL YOU NEWLY DEDICATED... .. MAKE SURE YOU DO REGULAR RITUALS TO FATHER AT LEAST.... AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK AND DO NOT PUT OFF YOUR POWER MEDITATIONS OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT AT A LOW LEVEL WHICH I CAN TELL YOU SUUUUUUCKSSSSSSS! !!!

P.S.S. I just bought all my ritual tools and I bought an offerring tray with a stand with some wine which I hope is not considered cheap. Also, I was going to buy some lemon pasteries to give him as an offerring with the wine. The lemon pastery thing has been popping up everywhere in my daily life.

For you newly dedicated: Father stated in the "Sermons of Satan" book from JoS that it is very IMPORTANT to do regular rituals to him to build a strong bond with him.... DO NOT MESS UP LIKE ME OR YOU WILL BE IN A FIGHT YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO BE IN.

Advice would be greatly helpful.


Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!!!!

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