i have been an atheist for a long time because i have hated Christianity with the burning intensity of a thousand suns! while being basically kicked out of my parents house if it weren't for my boyfriend i would be homeless. stuck in this situation it has brought a multitude of problems to the surface:
A~ his parents(even though i am grateful for their hospitality are jesus freaks)
B~ i have literally no way to preform the dedication ritual
C~ i want to dedicate myself and start to apologize for my utter ignorance and the shame of not knowing the truth.
even as a child i would read any book i could get my hands on pertaining to Egyptian mythology and read anything i could about their gods especially Anubis and Bastet, secretly idolizing them. so close and yet so far! i want to know the truth, i want to know everything. i feel so starved for true knowledge like a child sucking at a straw in an empty cup. how can i further myself spiritually when i cant do a ritual and my soul feels like a raisin in the sun? please help with my raisin~ness.
A~ his parents(even though i am grateful for their hospitality are jesus freaks)
B~ i have literally no way to preform the dedication ritual
C~ i want to dedicate myself and start to apologize for my utter ignorance and the shame of not knowing the truth.
even as a child i would read any book i could get my hands on pertaining to Egyptian mythology and read anything i could about their gods especially Anubis and Bastet, secretly idolizing them. so close and yet so far! i want to know the truth, i want to know everything. i feel so starved for true knowledge like a child sucking at a straw in an empty cup. how can i further myself spiritually when i cant do a ritual and my soul feels like a raisin in the sun? please help with my raisin~ness.
